I don't believe in myself. I hate myself. I am lazy. I am evil. I have no life and everybody is fed up with me.
My 16 year old son has anxiety, depression and autism. He's been out of school since January 18. He took GCSES at home but will only pass 3.
I took an overdose in September and was in hospital for a month. My husband or should I say ex was arrested for sexual communication online with a 12 year old girl. They said the investigation would take 4 months, it is now 9 months and the waiting is making me ill. He admitted that and other stuff to me and my son.
Me and my son moved house 3 weeks ago. Everything is so hard I have bad thoughts, evil thoughts and freaky thoughts.
I have no idea how much money I have to live off, I'm not capable of running a house, I do get social care support and support from the CMHT.
My son was really hard to deal with. I'm anaemic, awaiting a further blood test. I wake up at 4 am every morning. I'm physically and mentally exhausted.
My CPN thinks I'm not trying hard enough, I don't have the energy.
I think the Samaritans are fed up with me.
I wanted to phone the CMHT this afternoon, but I was waiting for an update from the police, I've phoned them twice this week and they haven't returned my calls.
My psychiatrist is off until the end of the month. I am desperate, I am suicidal.
I am scared. I am alone.