Bipolar Mood Disorder - thoughts anyone?

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Hi all

i have been self diagnosing (oh god i hear you say) before i go to my councellor tomorrow. Someone sent me a link on Bipolar Mood Disorder and I am now convinced its a possibilty. Has anyone any experience of this suffered from it, know someone who does?

I know I don't have PND as i have felt like this since i was young I also know that AD's helped so there was clearly some sort of imbalance there which the AD's balanced out. I am just totally irrational at times, overwhelmed by anger and prone to lash out. When I am feeling normal (like now) it's hard to describe how I feel when I am not normal if you get me.

My kids have started to say, "no shouting mummy" or "no screaming mummy" when they see me start to errupt and it breaks my heart that I am putting them through this.

Like I say I am seeing a councellor tomorrow, so hopefully thats a step in the right direction....but are they qualified to look out for more deep rooted issues?

there's a brilliant book to read
touched with fire

it is a good read for anyone but it might help

...as an aside i once bought about 8 copies of this and sent it to miscellaneous people...at the same time i wrote 26 page letters to my gp (I sent it to him too)

but I'm much better now honest

you sound like you get depressed and anxious...anxiety is related to depression ...

i have never had suicidal thoughts no - too much of a wimp, besides i have so much left to do with my life! I just crave a break from my real life sometimes, plus i go through 'why can't MY life be that good' phases when watching romantic movies and will cry ant anything, i convince myself that dh doesn't love me cos he doesnt behave like the soppy men in the film! Well he never did behave like the soppy men in the film, so why should he start now! I always seem to want more or better things, think i deserve more then go into self pity when i don't have those things.

i used to get anxious, but not anymore