Anyone needing support for anxiety/depression come over here! (Please)

[LEMtheoriginal]

I'm struggling so much just now and could use the support of fellow sufferers.

Right now I'm just putting one foot in front of the other - getting though the day.

studiously ignoring the piece of paper with the number of my old counsellor

Currently unmedicated and trying not to go back but not sure how long that will last.

I would like this thread to be a safe place to come and help each other through the days (and nights). I know there are other threads but feel they are well established and just would like to hear about how people got into their issues and what they do to help themselves.

I am taking my dd2 for a cream tea after school today. It's my say off work. Always a struggle but I'm getting through it.

Anyone? All welcome from those of us feeling a bit sad to those of us battling serious my issues. No judgements allowed just whatever helps xx

[LEMtheoriginal]

Coil fitting was terrible - I don't remember it hurting like this before. Now I have to have another ultrasound to make sure it's positioned correctly as she struggled to get it in. Apparently it was a bit curved and it took her absolutely ages (half an hour of painful poking around with god knows what). I nearly jumped off the table.

Now bleeding quite a lot and anxious as he'll - I did find some diazepam though do have "treated myself"

[PhoenixMama]

Daisy have you tried Bupropion?

[PhoenixMama]

Haribo - I’m with AXA PPP. 28 day inpatient, unlimited other mental health care. I have been on ADs for 7 years & was on them when I started the insurance and no issues or pushback. In fact when I got my psychiatrist referral I was seen in less than 24 hours! Incredible care.

[DaisyRaine90]

Yes. I have low blood pressure naturally so when I took it I was unable to get out of bed for 2 days.

Works very well for a dear friend of mine though 😊

[Justchillaxing]

I find half a diazepam helps when I feel really anxious too. I only take them when I can't bear it anymore. Now my gp won't prescribe them and I only have one left (from a prescription for 28 three years ago, since moved house and changed surgery) and I don't know what I'll do when I've none left. All they'll prescribe is propanalol (sp?) which doesn't help.

[PressPaws]

Oh no LEM that sounds awful. The last thing you needed. I hope they get the ultrasound out of the way quickly, and that it shows things are fine.

[Justchillaxing]

Oh no LEM hope the pain passes soon and the ultrasound shows everything's ok. I only had a coil fitted once but nearly passed out from the pain.

[LEMtheoriginal]

Still in pain this morning and still bleeding. Recently had ultrasound so know all is well down there but the irrational what ifs are coming ibto play. Never again !

I don't know how I'll manage work but I'm on a new contract and won't get paid if I go sick

[SmileAndNod]

Hi just checking in. Have had a very shitty few days. Homelessness still impending. Arguing with husband about not finding anywhere to live. My negativity is getting him down. He's not realistic. We're both stressing but powerless to do anything. People are helpfully saying why can't you just buy a house? I don't know in how many more ways I can tell someone that we don't earn enough for a mortgage. Not even under any scheme. Is getting fucking annoying now.

Work is very busy so that takes my mind of stuff a bit though I realise I've been a bit shit lately. My children are tired as nearly the end of term so squabbling . I can't stop crying and feel irrationally angry. And the feeling of impending doom is overwhelming. Have been eating and drinking too much and hate myself for that too. Supposed to be going for my cbt this week but can't really see much point.

Sorry for the early morning whinge but life isn't getting better. At all.

[LEMtheoriginal]

Hello SmileandNod I'm glad you checked in. Might it be worth contacting "shelter" as they might be able to help with your housing situation.

[SmileAndNod]

We have been. Basically as we can afford to private rent we're Not eligible to social housing. So need to wait until after Christmas and hope that a let comes up that will take a family and a dog.
Current letting agents are playing up by not turning up for appointments. So frustrating.

[anxiousnow]

lem sorry the coil fitting was so bad. I hope it eases up soon. Good luck with new contract if you manage to go in.

smile sorry to hear of your housing situation. Must be awful to not be able to sort till after christmas

haribo hope the funeral goes as well as it can. People there won't be watching you so please tey not to worry too much.

Hope everyone has a better day today. I am going to try and get back on my meds as this can't go on. I feel sorry for my children as i am not being the best me for them. Going to try and shut the ex and new guy out of my head as they are what triggered this new low. I often wonder if i look like a zombie to others. Random sorry.

[anxiousnow]

press when is your husband home?

[anxiousnow]

justchill have you heard back from the school?

iamUber hope you have got some sleep

[fustercluckery]

I’ve struggled with depression for years. I’ve found an AD that works well for me, but what has really made a huge difference in the last three years is using a light box in winter (started again last week as the nights draw in) and mindfulness meditation - but taught by a properly qualified practitioner. There are a lot of useless teachers out there - the ones at the NHS mental health services were so bad that I made an official complaint about them. I found a private practitioner who was wonderful, and it’s really made a difference.

[LEMtheoriginal]

I can't afford private health care

[DaisyRaine90]

My GP will not prescribe Diazepam at all without the say so of a Psychiatrist.

[PressPaws]

anxious how old are your children? Good idea to go back on the meds if you feel they would help. Husband gets back in 12 hours! Currently on a long haul flight so I'm of course imagining terror attacks, crashes, etc.

fuster I definitely preferred mindfulness to cbt. Also found metacognitive therapy helpful. A light box is a good idea!

[DaisyRaine90]

I know sun beds are not great, but a few minutes a week used to help with my SAD.

Vitamin D supplements top of course 😊

[DaisyRaine90]

Not a big fan of CBT either PrivatePaws

Why would they want people who already struggle with over thinking things to think more about them??

Mindfulness and distractions are good for anxiety.
I find dealing with it head on is the best way to deal with it. I had systematic desensitisation for agoraphobia and claustrophobia which essentially meant gradually increasing the time I spent in those situations which triggered me.

[DaisyRaine90]

Sorry I meant PressPaws 😊

[anxiousnow]

I didn't find cbt helpful either. I can't afford private counselling but reallu think i need the whole through everything instead of being forced into group activities etc.

Press I have 4 children between 9-14. Hope the hours until your husband is home safely pass quickly.

I got meds. I was amazed as put in a really old repeat thinking they would insist on an.appointment but no. I am annoyed with myself as did start them again in september, just some i found at home, got worse, started to get better then ran out. Hoping the starting again doesn't go so badly this time.

fluster & daisy i have thought about some form of lamp as there is a noticeable difference in my mood when abroad or it is sunny here. Are they expensive? I am so broke always atm.

[anxiousnow]

How is everyone today?

[Smashpumpkin]

Hi anxious, feeling a bit better today. My dad called around last night to make sure we were ok In the storm. Got no apology for him being an ass but that is to expected!
How are you feeling today?

[PhoenixMama]

I agree about cbt. Totally did nothing for me. Cognitive Analytical therapy (CAT) apparently works better, but takes longer which is why nhs doesn’t use it.

I really struggle to get my gp to give me any of The Pams (lorazepam, diazepam, etc), even with the letter from my psychiatrist they’re still wary. So frustrating.

I’m feeling a bit fragile today. After a few rough weeks I always worry when I start to feel better. I need some time being stable. I think the last 4 months have been the hardest of my life.