What Can I Do?

[WhatCanBeDone]

Hello, I have namechanged as I am abit embarrassed about this.

I have depression which gets better then worse, but, when it gets really bad my husband has been taking days off to help me, keep me safe.

As you can imagine, his work is starting to get fed up about this and also his wage is dropping month by month and soon we will not be able to afford to live.

On the other hand, I cannot trust myself some days and to be honest money and work is the last thing on my mind, I just want to stay safe in the back of my mind.

DH is getting under pressure now, and the possibility of him losing his job is quite real.

I hate to do this, and feel such a failure, but, is there any help I can get? I wanted to ask on here first before I ring my nurse as I want to know sort of what to expect. Hospital is out of the question, I do not think I am that bad, and I have a young child to look after.

One way or the other I cannot continue like this, it is very stressful for all of us

Thankyou x

No, not at all Zippi.

I do get through days now I couldn't have a while ago, but, with DS now I HAVE to make sure I pull myself together everyday, I cannot on a bad day just rest. I think it's just ground me down recently and I need a bit of a boost rather than fall too much in the other direction x

I don't get on with ads but maybe you do need a change of tablet or dose

hopefully homestart will have someone nice..I think you should try that route, especially if you have a young child it's important

How you feeling whatcanbe done?

Oh, whatcanbedone, I'm sorry you are going through this... I know how horrible it is.

Did you talk to the GP? Please don't feel that other people are more in need of help than you are. If you are low enough to need your DH to be home with you to ensure you are safe, then you do need help as much as, if not more than, other people. If there are volunteers/ people who can come to your house, please let them.

Do you have any family or friends who can pop round. They don't even really have to know why - I sometimes invite people round to play with DS because I know I need the company to keep myself safe.

Anyway, hope things are seeming a little less bleak... keep posting.

In my area there is a crisis team that you can be referred to by your GP or CPN. They will always answer the phone ans will often come out and see you - not for long but its something to build your day around.
I know exactly what you are going through, and I know how hard it is re the husband thing, but yours sounds very caring and understanding.
So speak to your nurse about something like this, and remember, they dont want to hospitalise you unless absolutely necessary, so this sort of help should be available.
Remember that you will feel better soon, its not always like this.