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Hi purple sounds like you and Tornado boy have had a fab day. Impressed with home cooked naan.

I went for a walk with DH in the end which was lovely.

Sounds like lots of you had some positives today.
In zoo house these are seen as a bonus!!
Not best day here-dp turn up wanting help do stuff n to be fed.he's now in my bed sleeping since 5pm.little ones playing on tablet,dd2 lay sofa with earache
Manage get our briefly for a walk in sunshine which was good but bracingly cold
purple home cooked dinner sounds good.mine gir instant mash and fish fingers (all have energy for tonight,but step up from cereal,fruit n toast)

Think of invest slow cooker as most alert usually either just before or after school run in morning,so I could lob tea in and then not have think bout it when I tired n CBA!!

Hi, zoo glad you enjoyed your walk. Slow cookers are amazing I got one last year in the sales and I love it so much. So good to come home to tea already cooked!

Forgive me for saying but DP sounds like an extra child rather than a life partner.

Can I join please? I used to self harm frequently and have felt the urge to do so lately. I feel so overwhelmed lately.

I was having quite a positive day ...I made one of the phone calls yesterday - to get the dishwasher fixed and the engineer came out but couldn't find what was wrong...(it is intermittent)
Then today I tried it and it did it again - so I took a video of it and will get him back...might sound mad that I'm pleased it is broken -but got the impression he thought I was imagining it or something as it behaved perfectly for him!
And I did a few household things - cleaned out bins, sorted fridge/freezer etc- felt like I'm achieving something -not all I should be but something...
Then DP came home from work...and it all went wrong. He really doesn't understand depression. I've tried to explain but he really can't grasp the idea that someone can look well and not be well... he picks up on the fact I am 'cheerful' around the DCs - doesn't get that that is fake and exhausting - I'm trying to protect them.

Anyway just deleted a huge post of the details - basically he keeps bringing up something I should be doing but am not up to at the moment - my brain can't cope with it ...I just can't think about it right now. We talked about it yesterday and that was hard enough. But he started on about it again today - ...when will I be able to etc etc...on and on and on... I say I don't know and he says that isn't good enough....I need a deadline.
I went to bed and hid under a pillow - feeling slightly panicky. Wanting the bed to swallow me or to hid under it or ....just anything to escape how I was feeling/thinking - eventually fell asleep...
I really have to get him to understand more - I've bought the living with the black dog picture book -waiting for it to be delivered and hopefully he will be prepared to take the time to look at it (he struggles to pay attention -think he has ADHD too)... he really doesn't get that he isn't helping and in fact doing harm...he thinks I just need pushing -to get motivated...

Thank you to those who asked. I have highs and lows and I've been feeling very on top of everything lately, dining loads and haven't stopped. Not sure if it's a good thing but I go from one extreme to the other. Hope everyone else is ok

Doing

Evening all.

I had a fairly good day. Managed to drag myself out for a run with a friend and feel better for it.

I got a prescription for some Citalopram this morning and am starting counselling next week. I am really hoping that I'll be feeling better soon.

Hump day over at least!

Welcome needle its such a horrible feeling isn't it. So hard to explain. I had a bad day yesterday, but todays been better.

cracking glad you had a positive day. Its so hard when those arround don't understand. I hope the book helps. Would it help to take him to the Dr with you so the Dr can explain to him too.

latex glad you are ok. Keeping busy can be good, though I've wondered lately if I'm overdoing it as I have a few busy days followed by a crash.

Haha I can't stop. I love to be like this I'm just waiting for the crash , I wish I could always be this up

I feel like this constantly lately. But I have to be strong for my kids, but it's so hard

I feel like this constantly lately. But I have to be strong for my kids, but it's so hard

needle I know what you mean

Wrist- do you ever get sick of putting on a fake smile, busying yourself with useless day to day shit, when really you just want to lock yourself in a room away from everything?

Latex,
I thought dining sounded more fun than doing...

As we have already got to twelve pages, do you think it would be an idea to start another thread and let this one fade away.. Otherwise in a few days it will be up to 50 pages..

Oh and good to see you posting again.

cracking its hard when dp don't "get it".
anxious he is behave like 5th child at mo.his one saving grace is he doesn't nage over mental health cos he totally gets how crap it is sometimes

Welcome needle! Hope you find some support here, do you have support IRL? I used to self harm too, but swapped a combination of self harming and anorexia, for overeating and binging instead. Not sure which is worse.

Latex oh here I was imagining you out in posh restaurants, wining and dining . Disappointed now!

I've decided I will do some iq tests tonight to cheer myself up, it seems the only thing I'm good at is random puzzles. Nothing else :p

Also feeling sick today, very nauseous. Not sure I will take my Tornado to play group if I continue feeling ill.

Purple- not many people know. Not nowadays anyway. I used to see a doctor when I was In my teens and self harms/not eating.

I'm 24 now, and I've never really stopped, just sometimes it's worse than others. My DP knows, & I talk to him sometimes when I feel like doing it.

Things are escalated lately because I have a baby who had major surgery as a newborn, and nearly died. I haven't quite got over it. It's come with so many problems ever since.

Sorry to hear that needle, sounds really difficult for you. Can you go see your GP for some help? Might be worth it.

i posted elsewhere a couple of weeks ago and got suggested to post here! You all sound lovely!

I'm weegie, I have major depressive disorder, borderline personality disorder and anxiety.

I've done the dbt for the bpd and its helped a huge amount. I take daily antidepressants (2 types) and an antipsychotic as a mood stabiliser.

I still struggle with addiction (its 8 weeks now since i had a drink and thats amazing for me) and anger management.

I live with my awesomely tolerant dh, and my dc who are 16, 14 and 12, almost 13. Life isn't easy for them, living with me, but we get through.

nice to "meet" you all. I didn't know this thread existed, or I'd have been here a long time ago!!

Hi weegiemum

I was doing okish,help out at mums n tots then sat library while kids did comic making club.I got back tired(dd2 had me awake most night earache)and hadn't eaten all day.I list temper when lil zoo start wind dd2 up n as rage settled I felt the life drain from me.u could sit n cry now.no energy ti sort tea.kids eating rice krispies. Sometimes I just wish I was either not here or someone else. My kids deserve soo much more

Hi Guys

not very with it this evening despite a relatively good day. Concentration and memory shocking tonight so sorry if I've missed stuff or people, it's nothing personal.

needle sounds like a very tough time lately with your little one. Would it be worth discussing how you are feeling with your health visitor or GP, they may be able to help you access support. I'm sure that there are many parents of poorly babies and there may be lines of support already established for your circumstances that you could access.

welcome weegiemum sounds like you are doing great staying on the wagon.

zoo your kids have a mum who loves them and does the best you can which is what matters.

I've had a relatively good day, helped DH polish the car, went into work for a meeting with my manager, who was lovely and supportive, went for a walk with DH. Then this evening tried to finish some work I'd bought home that is past its deadline to finish and got majorly frustrated because I couldn't finish it on my tablet. Snapped at DH who said it didn't matter I could just go into work to finish it tomorrow. I know I'm supposed to be off sick, but this isn't something I can delegate.

Anyway established I'm definately not fit to be at work.

anxious still sounds a positive day.you achieve quite a bit.I lucky my brains not at total marshmallow status by 4pm most days and then tasks req concentration or any level past most basic of English is beyond me!!
Good to hear work was understanding and tomorrows another day regard tackling that work need completing.x

Hi electronic are you giving us any clues or do we have to guess who you are I can understand you not wanting to go through the process again, but you know what you need to do. You are just human like the rest of us.

zoo thanks