To be wanting some confirmation of reality?

[Greendress123]

I know I get psychosis and paranoia. I'm on a pile of meds. But tonight I'm really struggling with thoughts of nanobots in my brain controlling my thoughts. I know it's not true but I also think it might be true. It's definitely possible, I read an article about it in New Scientist.

Anyway, is anyone up to help me work it out?

[building2016]

Have you talked to your mum about the nanobots, tho?

[Greendress123]

Yeah. She's not overly concerned I don't think.

[Greendress123]

I'm considering asking to go back to just being on a high dose of a mood stabiliser. Seems daft to be constantly increasing meds just to counteract the effects of other meds.

[Greendress123]

Anti psychotics are such blunt instruments

[building2016]

But maybe book an appointment with your doctor for a few weeks anyway?

Hope you sleep well tonight.

[Greendress123]

I'm so tired, but then I don't think I slept well last night

[Greendress123]

Spokean's to mum properly. She thinks that mood swings are to be expected and that nanobots are just my fault for reading articles late at night.

[Greendress123]

I'm wondering if she is telling the truth.

[Greendress123]

How normal IS nanobots?

[bumpetybumpbumpbump]

It's a tough call on the Nano boys. I've never considered them but they obviously seem very real to you in your head. And that's fine.

Try and think logically-they can't be in your head controlling your thoughts( although it feels like it to you). YOU can control your thoughts.

They do say garbage in garbage out so maybe read nice, happy articles

[Greendress123]

I don't want to have to dumb myself down and only read stuff that has no potential to scare me. Anyway I get scared by things like police sirens irl and think they are after me so I'm not sure it would even work

[Greendress123]

I'm really sad. If this isn't any kind of episode ito just life and everyone else is coping.

[SaucyJack]

I have seen mention of nanobots elsewhere this week. I have a friend who also sits up all night reading conspiracy/paranoic stuff, and then links to it on Facebook. I wonder if you've been reading the same article?

[building2016]

I'm sure lots of people read about nanobots and think about the possibilities they present, but I think you started down the road of a potential episode by starting to believe they were actually really controlling you, which isn't true.

So you very sensibly sought some perspective.

Maybe your mum knows you so well she knows what sort of things will be more likely to set you off, but has seen that you've largely coped this time?

[Greendress123]

Feeling pretty depressed now.

[bumpetybumpbumpbump]

Sorry your sad

No-lots of people struggle with over active and irrational and confusing thoughts. Lots.

You're doing a good job noticing that they are not real

[building2016]

Is it part of your pattern to be 'up' for a few days, like you said you were, and then to feel down for a while?

[Greendress123]

Not really. I've not had an up in ages, but that one was following the path of the old ones where I would end up in hospital, usually after self medicating with alcohol.

I know I should see it as a cause for celebration that I managed to only have a mild one, but I just want to be stable and not have to worry about these things. It would be lovely to be able to have a happy few days and not be terrified by them.