Aniexity depression worried about starting anti depressants :/

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I struggle with anexity and they also say OCD and depression all come together I have two kids and I have tried counciling through nhs and didn't get on with it also had some counciling through my local children centre and had three session then she left but luckily found another councilor :) and meet up with her every week it helps talking and ranting to someone that doesn't know you was doing quite well until last weekend just everything getting on top of me so decided to go see doctor yesterday and they put me on anti depressants the sertraline meant to help with anxiety as well just worried about all side affects now :/ but I can't carry on feeling the way I do :/
Since my aniexity popped up again I have split up with my partner of three half years he got me through a lot of hard times and helped me out of a horrid relationship before and help me through everything to do with that , I feel bit lost don't know how to be myself anymore cause I've always had him to help me through hard places in the last few years and we've always got through together feel like I'm on my own through this don't get me wrong I have few friends that try there hardest to understand what I'm going through how I feel just not the same :/
Just want to here how people get through it or found anything that has helped

Trying to keep calm - that is what I am doing...

Bloody nightmare lilac!! Just ignoring them all now.

How about a Disney film? Mary poppins?

Star - I have 2 boys. From when I was married. They are a bit older than yours (both in school)

Or go to bed early Lily

Disney film is a good shout, will see what Netflix has to offer...
Does anyone else hate reading about other mental health issues right now or is that just me? I get scared of it being/turning into more than 'just' anxiety so when I come across articles or stories of people with worse things such as bipolar, or those who become psychotic, manic etc etc it sends me into a right panic because I start my 'what if' thinking. (Can you tell I'm a hypochondriac? ) I've started having to avoid all sorts of stories, movies, tv shows etc that never would have previously bothered me.
The same goes for various physical ailments that I read about and think OMG what if i have that.
Stupid obsessive thoughts...

Hi, sorry to hear things are tough. I've had depression for a long time, it comes and goes, sometimes I have years clear and then it creeps up (I use the black dog analogy). About the pills - if you had asthma you'd use an inhaler right? If you had epilepsy you'd take pills. If you had a broken leg you'd let them put it in a cast. Anti depressants are no different. If you trust your doctor and they work for you then go with it.
Try a touch of mindfulness - I hate new age stuff and was very cynical but it works for me. It might not work for you but worth having a go - headspace gives you 10 free sessions to see if it helps and try and get some counselling support - pills and counselling can be a powerful combination. I am still a bit secretive about my illness despite everyone I've said - and I know that is not healthy so if you can find just a couple of people who can support you that's great. Most of all remember that you are amazing just being able to get out bed and putting one foot in front of the other on the bad days. Good luck.

I try not to look at much else, might freak me out!

Have any of you looked at stuck in a doorway? It's a website all about ocd and similar problems which can be quite supportive too.

Hi all
I've been following this thread for a couple of days...I'm on day 9 of Citalopram 10mg for anxiety and depression that kind of crept up on me after a few traumatic life events then considerably worsened after the tragic death of a close friend a month ago..to the point I couldn't function, tough when you're a single mum. Now I have a relationship break up to deal with too. Everything feels pretty crap right now. Although I have wonderful family and friends they are mostly all grieving too from the recent death. So I kind of don't want to burden them. Or worry them, they've been through enough. Reading your stories this last few days and seeing the progress you are making is reassuring. I'm over the worst of the side effects, just need to get out of this black gloom that's been there for so long and be a good mummy to my lovely girl xx

Thanks so much for the supportive words AJ . Sorry to hear that you've been suffering for awhile, although good to hear you go long periods without it. I downloaded the Calm app and have done a bit of the mindfulness meditations it offers, though I'm bad at remembering to do it every day. I'd like to stick with it though, good to know it helped you :) I also feel lucky to have a supportive family and friends who know what I'm going through, which definitely helps both when i'm feeling particularly bad as well as when I'm feeling good and want to have fun with them.
Welcome Ginger :) oh gosh thats a lot to go through :( I can understand the not wanting to burden or worry them, but even if you could find one person to confide in and have a little rant/vent it could help a lot. Sending hugs. Do you feel the citalopram has helped at all so far? Or still too early to tell? I'm on day 6 of sertraline so not far behind you. Hope things start looking up for you

Thanks Lilac...probably too soon to tell if it's helping...GP said 3-4 weeks. But I perhaps feel calmer than I did. I'm so flippin tired but can't sleep though! My worry is that the acute anxiety / low mood I've got now is a normal reaction to the most recent events and no tablet can take that away...maybe just blunt the edges x

The gp is right ginger but I agree that I think they do start working quite rapidly, I can really tell if I miss a couple of days. Mine have really helped with all manner of things and there's no shame in taking them, they will help. And if things don't pick up they can put them up a bit. Good luck with them they will help you, and I'm sure you are a fab mum even with all the crap you've had to go through cuz I'm sure your little lady is enormous help to you and will be a constant to keep you going xx

Also I started on citalopram and moved to clomipramine cuz I felt a bit rough with them.

Same here, i started with citalopram 10mg but after 1 tablet was vomiting, shaking, not sleeping etc. I don't know why I reacted so badly to them..

AJ I totally agree on the whole medication thinking... Have been on cymbalta almost 10 years on/off but went off due to sleepiness - and chrashed hard... Now trying Sertraline and very scared it wont work as well on my anxiety... And dont know what to expect... Will Sertraline even work for me? And when? And will I have bad sideeffects? Will I experience sleepiness? And so on...

Wellcome Ginger

Do you have sleeping pills or benzos to help you sleep? I understand you can't take sleeping pills with a small child in the House / being a single parent - but maybe ask your mom to stay with you some nights and take Care of your child at night while you get some needed sleep...

Or a close friend - or let her stay over at her grandparents House... Sleep is very important in getting better...

And Ginger - I dont Think your gp would have given you an AD if he thought you are "just" having a normal reaction to grief...

Lilypads are some of my favorites... I live by a smal lake with many lilypads... They are all blossoming now. They are yellow

Sweet dreams all

Anxiety did cymbals work well for you at the time?
Aw that sounds beautiful with the lilypads in the lake :)

cymbals not cymbals.... damn autocorrect

OMG cymbalta. lol

I also tried citalopram. It ramped up my anxiety to an unbearable level. Fortunately, sertraline hasn't done that too me (yet). Hope everyone's evenings are ok. I'm up and unable to sleep again, but I'm so tired.

Ditto Clotted. Sat in front of the TV feeling tired but I know if i go to bed I wont be able to sleep yet fs