anyone awake who feels like listening?

[keepingmum121]

I am feeling so crap about things

What are you feeling crap about?

I am always a victim. They always pick on me. I'm destined to be revictimised, I'm sure. I can't control it.

Who picks on you? What makes you vulnerable to them?

All men. First I was targeted 18 years ago and attacked. Then I ran from him and ended up in an abusive marriage with another bastard. Then I escaped that and 12 years later I get targeted again. That was recent. I can't protect myself.

Sorry, I have other threads but no one is around this late.

I'm drunk too. It is the only way to deal with this.

Keeping - just wanted to let you know, I wasn't ignoring you last night. I lost my internet connection which was really frustrating as I couldn't sleep and would have been happy to chat

Ah, thank you for coming back. funnily enough, my internet also started playing up last night. I wondered if it might be something with this site.

I was in a right state last night. Would have been good to chat so thank you for your willingness.

How are you feeling tonight, I'm a dedicated non sleeper. Usually up at 4am if you want to talk.

I like a drink too, numbs it all for a while but not good for my long term depression.

Have you got any RL support?

Hey itisntreallyreal. Thank you!

I am out this evening but may post later on. I usually get most distressed when it gets to the evening and I'm quiet with only my thoughts for company.

Anyone around?

Me

How are you?

Bit better than last night. Notwithstanding this sweltering heat!!

You in the south? It's 32 degrees here in my bedroom. Bastard weather?

You sober or had a couple?

I've got irn bru, it doesn't quite cut it

I feel fear. Most of the time. My dds are still awake and keep talking to me. My brain might explode! ;)

I want to explain what is going on. Do you mind if I do?

East Midlands. I am drinking stella (first one so totally sober)

I'm here too altho posting tricky as cat on me ...

I have two toddlers, they like to talk all night. It does me in.

Cat on you??? How can you stand the body heat of another mammal???

When my kids were little, I hated reading bedtime stories in this sort of weather because they always wanted to snuggle up.

DH just come in to say he heard a noise, yeah that will be 3 year old chatting in her sleep.

You should record her (to play back at her 21st birthday party)! What is she saying? Is it decipherable?

Just checked myself out of IP

What is IP?