SPRINGTIME in the VILLAGE (Support for all Mental Health Issues)

[NanaNina]

Thought I'd start a new thread what with it being the Spring Equinox and all that..........and there's another reason. I'm hoping to re-connect with people who used to be frequent village visitors, but like me, seem to have fallen by the wayside. Of course everyone is welcome in the Village, so I hope more recent visitors understand my post and will not feel de-valued in any way. The stigma of mental illness is alive and well I reckon so we all need all the support we can get.

SO - CALLING

Vicar (she started the Village thread some years ago and occasionally pops in) Edwinia'sRevenge SnowyMouse (where ARE you?) SilveryPussyCat CIQ (I know you were having a tough time) Lem (once a very regular visitor) Hoochymama Pyrrghena collardove Victrix Pulled Creamhearts (previously FDG) MentalPsychiatrist KeemaNaanAndCurryOn (miss you and your wit)
FaithLoveandGrace MySpideySenseTickles

Would love to hear how you're all doing. I'm much the same, up and down, mostly down this month.

I've probably forgotten lots of people, but that's all I can bring to mind just now.

Hi pandora yes I'd say find another counsellor who you can connect to better. Your prev one doesnt sound very good.
I'd say go back to gp and tell them how you feel so they can adjust or change your meds so its actually doing something for you. Sounds a bit too long to still have the side effects.

Im ok colouring. Just sat in the dark watching Lewis on tv.

Ds had an op on fri but I didnt go, dh went instead as his last op is when this all started. Everything went well but I still felt guilty and useless.

I felt like ive gone backwards rather than forwards, not gone out much recently.

mythical you can only do what you can do at the moment. Glad to hear your dh is ok.

How was Lewis? I watched Out of Sight which I'd recorded - bit of fun.

It was good. Will attempt bed now not that I will sleep. On my own tonight as dh at work tonight and dc at dm's house.

Hope you get a good sleep in x

Am still awake. Got drawn in to watching Law and Order uk. Cant shut my mind off now.

Slept ok in the end, got up at 9 when the children arrived home.

Not done much today so far apart from housework and a little gardening. Just feeling a bit down today like everything is so much hard work. How are you all?

Hi mythical glad you slept ok.
Hi puddle, yes getting another counsellor sounds a good idea.
I'm just swimming along, getting through each day as it happens at the minute. Troubled by suicidal thoughts. Have a meeting with psychology on Thursday though I'm reluctant to go.
Am absolutely wrung out by half term already, have only done one day and my pain levels are going up, alongside my fatigue creeping in...don't know what to do as I'm a single mum. I'll be a wreck by the end of the week I think.

Me too Love. I feel guilty as I have a couple of friends who love the holidays and cant wait to do things with their children where as I dread it because I know I will be stressed and cant do fun things with the dc. Its like im constantly clock watching for bedtime which is sad.

Hi colouring yes I have spoken to my GP about the anxiety and he's prescribed me beta blockers and said he thinks it's just a case of getting through this period in my life and that the anxiety will lessen when the case is over. Unfortunately, there's nothing I can do to speed it up. I don't think it's the fluoxetine that's making me feel sick as I didn't have any nausea when I started them, I think it's the anxiety. I've had people questioning whether I'm anorexic because I've lost so much weight - I have lost quite a bit but I'm still a normal BMI. I have had an eating disorder in the past and it is something that comes out in times of stress, it's a messed up coping mechanism. I've made an appointment to see a different counsellor though - I'm going to see a woman this time, not that I have a problem with male counsellors but I feel like I connect better with women in general so we'll see how it goes. Thanks for the welcome. :)

Yes a woman might be better. I really like my lady as we connect well.

Going to see my counsellor is proving deadly at the moment. I seem to be doing a good job of shutting stuff down and suppressing emotions that the hour when I'm there I have to start looking at them and then the car crash starts. Couldn't cry today. Even counsellor looked a bit concerned. Can't think straight. She says its cos I'm shutting lots of areas down? Splitting headache now plus urge to get blinding drunk. But it's my ds's birthday tomorrow and we're out for the day tho I can muster no enthusiasm. My head feels like it's going to explode.

mythical half term is tough. I am wrecked too.

Pandora good to hear re the gp etc

Anyone around?

Sorry you are struggling tonight ciq. I hope you'll be able to get some rest ready for the day out tomorrow x

im here too ciq

Lurking in the background but here. Sorry ur struggling this evening ((( ciq )))

I just made a if anyone fancies one.

The new drug they gave me is just knocking me out. All I wanna do is sleep which is horrid with half term feel sorry for DD she is absolutely bored at home but I have no energy to take her out. So I feel a rubbish mum on top of everything else.

Thank you both. I have a splitting headache and feel dreadful. Dh will have to wrap ds presents tho I can't remember where they are he was supposed to assemble ds new bike but suspect that won't happen partly because he spent so long sorting out his dead father's paperwork today. i have anger issues and resentment but seem unable to express them to dh

If it doesnt get put together its not the end of the work lovely. My dc loved 'helping' daddy put theirs together.

Sorry to here you are both feeling a bit rubbish. Hope you feel better soon. Every time I switched meds they make me sleepy, I sympathise xx

Thanks pulled, mythical Yep they'll have to put it together.

Dh can't or won't see how bad I am.

Trouble with this counselling Lark makes you realise just how bad you feel and now I'm having trouble closing Pandora's box.

Sorry to hear others are struggling too, half term doesn't help

My dh's the same, if someone is asking about me like fil or close friend he'll say 'yeah mythical's fine, doing well.' Im like sigh.

Its like if he pretends i'm doing ok maybe I will be?

mythical

I told dh some of how I am feeling eg running on empty, feeling like the current situation is killing me, nothing left to give after looking at everyone. He sat and stared at me and then walked off. Came back 10 mins late put his hand on my arm and said "I'm sorry it's so bad".that's it. Wtf is "it's"?

Turns out he thought my inability to get up til 2.30 last week was cos I was tired. Ffs you are supposed to have a brain.

Rant over.

Sorry for going on about all this tonight

Its fine. That's what we are here for. X

I can beat that you my lovely DH tonight said "you should go into hospital if that's what you need to get over it"

Firstly wth is "it" and secondly no I need you to acknowledge I'm not doing so good and support me in day to day caring of our DD especially it being half term! Ok rant over sometimes I just despair.

ciq birthday will be great either way even if presents aren't wrapped up. And rant away as much as u need.

mythical my DH is the opposite he will make it out as if I've no brain cells left. I don't know which is worse then being oblivious or them completely writing us off

It's all shit isnt it pulled.

Exactly mythical