I vaguely remember telling them in my discharge appointment that, for my first few days in hospital, I'd been able, with a massive push of effort, to function in an almost normal way - getting up, eating food, going to groups, etc. - but that I had only been able to do that for the first few days and that once my energy reserves had been completely depleted I would no doubt revert to how I had been at home (much more apparently depressed).
I compared it to the way animals can appear to be far less ill than they really are when you take them to the vet. Everyone who has had a sick pet has had that experience where the animal perks up and pretends not to be ill when the vet is examining them, only to go back to how they were before, once you get them home, right?
Somehow, in my care plan, this has become, "Enpoid compares herself to when taking a pet to the vet to get better, where there is a change once treatment has begun, but feels this is not happening for her".
Head.
Desk.
I thought at the time they doctor had got the wrong end of the stick, and did attempt to clarify. I didn't realise they actually had hold of a different stick altogether
Not sure if it's a language problem, a comprehension problem, a giving-a-shit problem, or what - I just know that nobody outside mental health ever manages to misunderstand my drift quite so profoundly as MH professionals do.