Being Mentally Normal: The Theory and The Actuality

[Mitchy1nge]

we must be on part 11 or something by now?

I have 26 more days signed off, can I spend them all in my pyjamas?

Thank you for all the reassurances. Too fat and too shocked by the fatness to be humourous or clever on the internet today. Sorry in advance.

Have a hug ((Caulk)).

Good news re the CPN and your meds snowy.

Thanks.
How's the griddle pan? We have one and it's v useful.

The griddle pan will be tested with steaks this evening. I'll report back. It better be good, it was over £50!

((( caulk )))

Yum, steak...hope it griddles well.

cuddle for caulk

am not only extremely actually fat but I also have to go to GBK who don't divulge nutritional info, only stuff about allergens

it is all a bit much

I have 1900 ish cals left if am eating up to the target - a veg burger (maybe eat some of bun?) salad without dressing, water, should fit? Is extremely horrible not knowing even though you can never know unless you go around combusting an exact replica of everything you eat?

Will need bun to get to 1900, unless it's a mozzarella burger I imagine.

Have spent an hour lying one the sofa crying due to fatness and general apathy, to the point the ex friend asked if she should tell someone. Can hardly call the crisis team saying I want to be dead due to fatness though, can I?

I still haven't got any magic throat medicine either which should really come before large quantities of food.

It's rubbish GBK don't tell you the nutrition.

I think you may be over-estimating the calories, not sure.

Oh dear Caulk I'm sorry you're suffering.

Mitchy - might this help I know it's not quite right though.

or this one

Mavis is trying to teach me to play chess. I think the part of my brain that assimilates new information and works out how to apply it in a logical manner has disappeared.

I am so. Bloody. Hungry

and empathising with all feelings of fatness. I want to be able to let myself aim to maintain rather than aiming to lose, but am scared that letting up like that will cause me to gain instead. I think I need to spend the rest of my life now Not Becoming Extremely Fat Again. And wondering whether aiming for maintenance is okay even though I really am far too fat (for metabolic, diabetic-related reasons I am supposed to be chronically hypocaloric and eliminating visceral fat and I don't think I can do that for the rest of time).

What kind of steak do you like, Mental?

Will Mavis feed you?

More hugs, Caulk
I've cooked Thai curry and cheats tiramisu (Merci, nigella). Waiting for oh to get in now
DD has stuck Peppa pig stickers on every available surface...can't be bothered to peel them off

Thank you for hugs. You will all need very long arms to fit my huge girth.

Millie that sounds lovely.

Um... She certainly would, if I asked, and in fact often offers food, but her kitchen smells like three cats died in there, the fridge is full of half-eaten ready meals going back weeks, and the main things in the cupboards are dozens of identical bottles of soy sauce, about fifteen identical giant jars of peanut butter in various states of eatenness, fifty or so packets of cup noodles, and a large cardboard box with interesting nutritional supplements. And some oranges. I do like oranges.

Mavis sometimes comes to my place for dinner.

That description has made me smile. I remember you saying she came to yours, but wondered if she also replicated dinners.

The cat has just come in and is desperate for food attention.

Ooh, tiramisu! Lovely

I'm sure my arms are long enough, Caulk

I projected mental normality at CPN, I now have more antipsychotics. Feeling really tired now.

Mavis's cat, sitting in front of me demanding attention.

Is that what you wanted, Snowy?

I've just fed the cat a lot of Brie, and heard noises which are possibly him being sick. Today just gets better!

My arms are long enough too
Cat sick..lovely. I don't do cats, we have a star cat who is semi feral and has a second home, so she comes and goes

The antipsychotics help with the voices, and sleep, I just don't like the side effects. I'm always told they're non-negotiable (unlike the antidepressants).

Oh dear caulk Not what you need.

I like Mavis's cat

My aim this year is to not get sectioned.

He hasn't been sick thankfully, so I'm not sure what if was.

I've made black currant tea and found some blackcurrant gin, so it's going to be a great night.