Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

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I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

Hello folks - old timers and new timers.....Hoochy how nice to see you but sorry to hear your job didn't work out - toxic team in social care OMG? How is your mental health?

CIQ sorry you are struggling so much with your r/ship with DH. It's not good when home isn't a safe haven. Do you think you would be better apart or is that complicated by his recent descent into another depressive episode. How's your mental health - are you on any meds?

Pulled as you know I have similar symptoms of numbness but no pain - yet! Waiting for x ray and MRI scan. What pain killers did the GP give you - are they sure it is disc related rather than nerve pain, as the latter is harder to treat and needs different pain killers from ordinary analgesics.

Oh now I've forgotten who else has posted and if I go back I'll lose this post - I find that so irritating.

Oh yes Spidey - glad things have settled with you and DH again (see you've started adding the D again!) What a weird thing to happen about that invite.

Slushie are you looking for a private counsellor. If so go on the BACP website (British Association of Counsellors and Psychotherapists) and put your post code in and you'll find quite a few in your area. Being on this site means that they are properly qualified and accredited.

HiLem pyrrghena collardove (ooh I knew I shouldn't do this as I won't remember everyone - snowy keema and anyone else I've forgotten.

Oh my CPN came yesterday and says the new psychiatrist in the trust is "really lovely, caring and thoughtful woman" (rare treat then.....) I have an apt with her on 15th so we'll see, not that I have any faith in getting rid of the depression for good and all. All sorts of physical stuff going on too so feeling low and lethargic.

Good to hear from you, NN, hope things improve for you.

Haven't posted for a while. Hope all had a good festive season.

Taking refuge here as feeling awful. Had to fill out initial form for counselling which meant thinking about things and feelings I've tried to dismiss or suppress for years. I feel awful, really teary and triggered :( Getting urges to self harm but trying to ignore it.

First counselling session today. Went well enough but feel so drained now.

((all))

(((Victrix))) I'm glad your first session went well. Totally understand the drained feeling and hope you manage to get some rest this evening.

Thanks Faith

I have had a gin and am now off for a hot bath!

Faith sorry its bought up things for you, I find screaming (into my pillow so the neighbours don't think I'm nuts) helps when I want to sh. And I try and remember how bad I always feel after I have.

Glad your session went well Vic. Enjoy your bath :)

found this, although a bit late i thought it was a good read
www.bbc.co.uk/news/blogs-ouch-30433361 on why a low key festive season is just fine.
I found once I no longer had an EA partner piling pressure on me to make him enjoy a time of year that he makes a point of enjoying, it all got a lot more relaxed

And it also reminded me that my 'friend' who is still struggling is just looking after himself, as he should and whilst that is tough on me because I am getting left out, it is not a personal judgement. Which doesn't mean that I should necessarily wait around for ever for him to make his mind up or sort his life out (I am getting on with me own life) I can at least resolve not to take any of it personally. He is who is and I am who I am and when I am ill I try not to let it impact on others but try is all I can do.

Hi everyone, hope your mornings have been manageable.

I had a better day yest - coffee with a friend and then managed to get some painting done .

Crashed today. Vv bad headache and exhaustion - went back to bed after school run, woke up half an hour ago, still no energy. Hey ho.

(((( CIQ ))))

Wanted to share this with you guys, I'm really trying hard to get better, I'm probably not going to be around too much for a while but don't worry about me. I'm safe I just need to be alone inside my head for a little while.

((( Spidey ))) take good care.

I do wonder how vicar is getting on.

All the best spidey

thanks snowy bit better now. Have sleep loads til 1 and then 4-6! Still don't want to move! How are you?

Take care spidey. And everyone else for that matter xx

That sounds like a lot of sleep.

I'm sort of ok, sort of not, struggling a bit.

Thanks slushie. I managed to get through without self harming. I'm about to crash out, can barely keep my eyes open.

Sending hugs to all on this thread. Spidey I like the picture you shared. Take care of yourself and I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.

Night all xx

Overwhelming lethargy. Still in bed.

Ah CIQ I feel your pain.........I have had overwhelming lethargy for weeks on end - post chest infection fatigue, vit B9 deficiency, (possibly B12 deficiency) to say nothing of the big D that comes and goes with its usual regularity. But you have so many more stress factors than me. I know you are struggling with DH but not sure about your mental health? Did notice you'd done some painting recently - sounds good.

Snowy - I often wonder about Vicar too and Edwinia - see you are struggling - oh god why is life such a bloody struggle. Are you still doing your maths course?

I'm not purposely ignoring the newcomers, it's just I can't get my head round much at the moment, and so don't know your back stories.

well i got through the week - bonus :)

i am sorry you feel the lethargy ciq and nina. i have been battling withat this week. its soo exhasting.

can't find edwina on the thread. hope you are ok lady.

and vicar too (has there been a name chang).

struggling with world events just now. dp wants to go to london but im too scared.

I am still doing the maths. (((( NN ))))

Well done for getting through the week, lem I don't blame you for being scared about going to London.

Feeling super triggered again :( counsellor cancelled session so now have to wait until next week. DP is in work and I really need to try to do some work myself but can't focus. Will try to post more soon once I've finished this piece of work.

Well done lem on getting through week. ((CIQ))) hope you feel better soon. Xx

How did you get on faith?
Hi snowy
lem its rubbish isn't it.
I went round a friends this pm with dcs. Good friend but I just felt v paranoid that get and her dh are fed up with me and dh. Have been v spaced this pm. Got up to make lunch for everyone . Spent time online then went to friends. Back cooked dinner, watched tv.

mermaid I am not sure how I feel about DBT yet, not sure if it has been helpful but will see how it pans out when it has finished.

Hi nana lem ciq spidey faith Pulled Victrix etc thinking of you all xx

CIQ I'm feeling a little better. It's been a very up and down day but I'm feeling slightly better at least. Still teary but less triggered now which is good. I know what you mean about feeling like people are fed up with you. I feel like that often. Someone once told me you can't burden someone unless they let you - I'm struggling to explain in at the moment but they were basically saying not to worry about reaching out for help. I know it's really hard though. Sending lots of warm hugs to you.

Hi cream. Hope all is well with you.