Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

[creamhearts]

I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

Thanks faith, hi cream.
I'm hoping my dreadful grumpiness today is my bad PMS breaking through the fluoxetine (which usually keeps it out of control), just feel like shouting at everyone today. Really hope tomorrow is better. Dh is out in the morning so it will be nice to have some space - has been almost non-existant for nearly a month now which must be contributing to my mood.

How's everyone else doing?

*under control even.

Hello all, and sorry so many are struggling. Remember, the time of year - short days, long nights, bad weather etc can have an effect too - maybe knowing this might help a bit? I am OK, progressing life (house move aargh), but a bit grumpy and wanting to hibernate, and finding it hard to get up before mid-morning - luckily I'm retired so this is not affecting my life too much.

anxiety central today. i hate this. im forcing myself to do things but its bad

Well done in managing to do things despite anxiety. At the end of the day, look back and admire yourself for what you got done.

Nice to see you Silvery - I was only thinking about you in bed this morning. After a reasonable run of good days the damn headmonster is in situ today. I wasn't up till 12.30 a.m so you did well to get up mid morning! I've always hated getting up in the mornings and when I'm feeling crap it's somehow a bit less painful to be under the duvet. The weather is foul, grey cold and rainy, so matches my mood.

Lem this anxiety doesn't seem to go away - are you on meds for it - I can't remember?

Hope everyone else is coping as well as possible.

Yes, i meant to say its good to see you too silvery.

Nana - i just don't know anymore, i figure its something i just have to live with. I am on 20mg citalopram which has been suggested to me on another thread isn't enough. Trouble is, im too anxious to talk to the GP about it.

I really want to get a job, i feel ready but i am scared that the anxiety will scupper it again.

The weather being foul doesn't help does it. I hate mornings too, but have to do the school run which for me is good or i'd still be there now im sure!

My DP came home from work early and interfered with my baking, i was starting to feel calm, i love him dearly but i just wanted to be on my own.

Nice to see old regulars

im in a bad way - trying to do dp-s tax return which i. always find stressful and i am in agony with tummy cramps and keep vomiting. its nerves. i can't even function

dp said he hates what we've become. i hate myself as ive fone this

Don't feel well at all.

lem sending lots of warm hugs. Have you considered maybe couples counselling for you and DP? Might help to get things off your chest in a safe environment.
Tax returns forms are super stressful, not good when you're not in the best place to start with. Not to mention the blooming awful weather! I've a day off today and eventually got out of bed around 10. Didn't get very far though - I just migrated to the sofa and have been there ever since. I should probably do something productive but just in one of those can't be bothered doing anything type of moods.

made a doctor appointment. if it wasn't the tax return it would be something else. any little thing sends me spiralling. dp can't cope. i have destroyed him . oh god

Well done on making doctors appointment. I understand the little things sending you spiralling. It's not your fault, you have an illness and it's really not something you can control. I know it's hard for both of you but your DP honestly can't expect any more of you than to try - which you are doing by making a docs appointment.

cancelled it and asked fot telephone consultation as i need to talk to my own doctor and appointment was for after school

i need this to stop now

(((((lem)))))

I promise you things will get easier. I don't know when, but they will do eventually. I really hope the telephone consultation goes well. Is there anyway DP can have the DCs so you can speak to doc in person? Though by phone might actually be easier for you.

spoke to the dr and we are going to try a new drug dp left during the conversation. didn't even stay to see what she said. he goes cold on me when i have a melt down

thankyou so much faith for being there. nice to know someone givesa shit.

finding it too hard to read through the thread just now.

((( *lem )))

Sorry all I'm in my own shitty world at the moment with this new diagnosis. I feel crap so can't offer much support at the min.

Thinking of u all xxx

lem I heard once (in relation to all people) "you are far more loved and valued than you realise". I wholeheartedly agree with that statement, even if it really does come down to the love and value being from strangers on the internet.

I'm sorry your DP didn't stay to hear what GP said. I'm surprised they've changed your meds without first upping the dose, but hopefully it'll help. Any ideas what they're putting you on?

((((Pulled)))). I think I've missed your diagnosis as I've not been here long coupled with being away for a bit as got bogged down with work. Sorry to hear you're feeling rubbish though. Thinking of you. Xx

from citalopram 20mg to ciprolex (escitalopram) 10mg. scared

Ahh. I've no experience of that one. I can understand being scared, changing meds is always a daunting experience. Keep reaching out for the support you need and deserve lem and know there's always someone about on this thread if you feel you can't talk to anyone in RL.

thankyou

love to all xx

((( lem )))