Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

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I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

(((( spidey )))) What a horrible situation to be in, you sound really ill

(((( pulled )))) I hope it's nothing serious/easily solved, thinking of you lots.

(((( lem )))) don't let things stop you talking, everyone has equal right to space/time here!

Thanks snowy

(((( lem ))))

This time of year is such a rough time for people getting ill :( Spidey, that sounds like a horrible throat infection i had a few years ago, my God i was ill - i think the most poorly i have ever been apart from when i had gallstones. Thankfully, once i had the antibiotics i started to get better so i hope and pray that you start to get better soon.

I hope that the Dr comes along soon and puts your mind at rest pulledapart :(

Ciq - thinking about you and your FIL x

My dreams are keeping me very entertained, they are always an indicator of my anxiety levels. Last nights involved sylvester stallone, my old college (good and bad memories there, good from studying there, bad from teaching) an undeground mausoleum that seems to be a repeating theme . The stairs of the college led to nowhere and i couldn't get back down :(

I am not sure, but i think i am hearing voices too :( bloody brain, i wish it would just give me a break for a while because other than the anxiety, the possibility of voices and the nightmares i feel relatively positive considering the time of the year.

I do have some good news though - i did a mumsnet survey and won £100 of books and the order has been confirmed.

spidey have you any calpol? Take that instead of the paracetemol. If you really canmot swallow it just sit with it on your mouth it may soothe it.
Could see if the chemist will give you liquid antibiotics instead.
gargling soluble aspirin if you are allowed aspirin actually does work. (As does salty water but that is grim)
If all else fails, suppositories < which may make you make that face.
Hope you feel better soon. Tonsilitis is horrible. If you cannot swallow at all you will need to go back.

Yay for books lem what ate going to get?

ooh yes. soluble paracetemol did provide me with the quickest releif during my sore throat hell (seems too trivial to call it a sore throat to be fair) the throat spray made it worse :(

mostly got books for dd as the survey was for children to do. so she pretty much has the whole battersea dogs hone series. i did however get a couple of cookbooks. i read on my kindle so didn't buy myself fiction

Congrats for the books lem

So all the test they did in a&e came back normal so they've ruled out mini stroke/infections. Been asked to go back tomorrow for a spinal MRI (by the time they did all the test the MRI department closed) seeing as my symptoms were not life threatening they said it was ok for me to go home & come back for scan the next day. Been told to rest & take pain killers. Of course I'm too anxious about tomorrow's scan now so cannot shut down plus the numbness etc is still ongoing.

Hope everyone is having a peaceful night x

Glad it wasn't a mini stroke pulled.

I was given liquid paracetamol and liquid antibiotics but couldn't swallow any fluids, eventually the spray started to work a bit more and I could swallow but it was agony! I managed to get my meds down and some slimfast shake (it's a meal replacement and fluid at once) and I started to feel better last night, Dh brought Ben and jerrys home from work which I managed some of and it seemed to help. I'm feeling a bit better this morning and although it hurts a lot I can swallow liquids so I'm getting some fluids and I'm hoping I can manage some mashed potato for tea. Thanks for all your concern though I really have never been as Ill in my life and at a few points I felt like I would be better off dead but luckily felt too terrible to do anything about it.
I'm still having to look after ds by myself though but at least Dh is off work tomorrow.

you are doing really well spidey. could you manage to gargle with the paracetamol to keep it by your throat longer? Its good you are managing to at least drink now.

pulled , i hope you get some answers today.

struggling to get off the sofa today

Take care spidey sounds awful!
lem I am also on sofa. Supposed to be painting but am knackered... School run start felt vv early today!

i managed to get off the sofa to do the kitchen. sat down for a coffee and just waiting for the caffeine to kick in. realising that only i can change me but i don't have it in me. im tired now. had enough really.

Thanks spidey & lem

I feel absolutely awful today but of course school run still had to be done came straight back to bed and haven't got up since. Will need to be up in an hour to go back to hospital so am just resting for now.

spidey glad to hear you have at least managed to swallow liquid and had some calories in you. Really hope you feel better today.

lem and ciq sofa day sounds good just stay there with and

(((lem))) can you rest before pick-up? You got stuff done - that's good.

My anxiety seems to be sky high today. Shaking hands, can't think straight. Hope its not cos I didn't take night-time Trazodone last night (ran out). Stupidly googled Trazodone withdrawal and it sounds like a nightmare. Hoping its back to school, dh at home, lack of confidence to start painting at home.

take care pulled spidey hope you're feeling better soon.

I hope the MRI goes well and is clear, pulled

spidey, your throat sounds absolutely awful I'm glad to hear you're managing liquids.

((( Ciq ))) I hope your anxiety calms down, that's rubbish.

((( lem )))

hi snowy Anxiety is crazy bad now! took a propranolol which has helped with the shaking a bit but can't get off sofa and get into anything to distract. bleurh

oh poo ciq :( i have managed to start sorting living room but i think your idea of sofa is a good one. i managed by saying im just going g to do one thing.

is your dh triggering your anxiety?

Hi, Village. I haven't posted here before. I have Borderline Personality Disorder and today it's really gotten its claws into me. I've realised I've already started to try and make my lovely new boyfriend of two months hate me, and although he knows about my condition and says he's not bothered, I think I felt him start to withdraw over the last couple of days. And that makes me so terribly sad. I love him. Why can't I think normally?! I feel like my pills aren't working and a year of DBT has been a waste of time.
I am at work and I keep crying and having to hide. I've barely done anything all day. If people here pick up on it, I'm going to have real issues on my hands...I had a little downward spiral at the beginning of December and was warned I'd be let go (I have no contract and no job security, despite having been here for almost two years). Everything has a habit of sort of....snowballing. So fed up of having to second-guess my feelings all the time to check if they're genuine or just the BPD. For all I know, everything could be absolutely fine and I'm just sat here in this self imposed hell for no reason.

Aaargh. Anyway. Hope you guys are okay today, I follow your adventures on this thread from time to time, going to duck back down behind the parapet now...

((( ciq ))) hope the anxiety calms down.

Thanks snowy I've just had the scan so waiting to see the Dr now. Anxiety has taken over though as I'm shaking away

manmademermaid welcome

not long now Pulled, hopefully they find something so that they can fix it!

Anxiety is a bastard!!

hia manmade - do feel free to hang around and post whenever you like. Could you speak to your Dr about your medication?

I hope you get some good news, pulled

Sorry so many are struggling x

I quit my job today, been off since May. Feel some relief but also very flat

Victrix now you can concentrate on getting well, there is no point having the thing hanging over you like a sword of damocles. You have had a rough year

manmademermaid that sounds exhausting. I also find it hard sometimes to spot what is illness and what is everyday normal reactions without the benefit of hindsight. I can tell that I was ill but not if I am iyswim.