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I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

Not sure re the weight gain as I was dieting at the time and so lost weight. I lose my appetite when depressed.

Hello to everyone, lots of new faces, thats nice - well, you know what i mean.

Been busy the past few days working with a very grumpy DP so its been hard. I was called by a CBT therapist with an appointment for tomorrow but it turns out the place is pretty inaccessible as i don't drive, an hours cycle on a good day and I am not sure i have it in me to go all that way wihtout a panic attack :( He was supposed to email me details but hasn't done it yet.

Not feeling very hopeful about it - quite low today. Have one of DD's school friends round - his mum asked if i could have him today and i felt i couldnt say no but im struggling, he is quite high needs (SEN) and i feel out of my depth.

Re the mirtazepine - it is one of the ADs that is particularly associated with weight gain and its quite sedative, but it does affect everyone differently.

North - CIQ is right about potentially feeling a bit pants when you first start on citalopram, what dose are you on? It is worth trying to stick with it as it does make a difference after the first few weeks.

Oh no, that's not good, I will have to watch that really carefully.

Hello and thanks everyone.
I'm on 20mg. I know it's early days...I do seem to have calmed down a bit now. It comes in waves.

How long does it take to see re CBT, I am waiting for a phone call from clinician to see what type of therapy I need.

Sorry you are having a difficult afternoon Lemiss Here's hoping DD's school friend isn't staying long.

Sorry you are having a rough time Ginger.

(Lem) . What started out as a good day went downhill for me. I started hearing one of my voices being critical of me in the mirror, then "saw" them hiding in the dark of the theatre. I think possibly anxiety has triggered it as I met a lot of new people at the meeting last night, and the theatre. Possibly combined with being very tired.
Always scary.

I can't cope with people either, I keep myself to myself and never socialise. Sorry you had a bad day.

Every night I make the same mistake and I don't really understand it. I spend hours reading MN or watching TV or reading Facebook.. Avoiding going to bed I think.. And avoiding the morning that's coming. Then it's so late when I get to bed.

Then in the morning I either (a) get up at 6am with ds and feel dreadful (and can't stop thinking about when I can get a nap) and feel like a terrible mummy and generally feel depressed.. Or (b) let DP get up and do the morning routine whilst I sleep in till 9 or 10, then feeling like a crap mummy, feel sad cos I missed the kids, and usually having more nightmares and waking up in a hot sweaty mess..

Part of the nightmares and tiredness is the duloxetine for sure, but I'm just stuck in this phase of feeling at my worst in the morning.. Don't know why really..

Anyone else have anything like this. Its making me feel really confused and unsettled

I woke this morning MumWithCamera at 5am and my brain just went into overdrive, I should of just got up. But the negative thoughts just went through the roof. That doesn't usually happen to me.

Anyway, I'm now at work looking like crap & feeling drained.

Perhaps that's why I'm always trying to be asleep. I've just woken up, slept 10 hours lay night, that's not normal and now I feel terrible that I've missed the kids before they went to school. Will aim to get up 7 tomorrow then see how I feel.

How your day improves

Mumwithcamera, I take duolextine too. I have really vivid nightmares and cold sweats. I thought they were related to my ptsd and fibromyalgia, but maybe not after all....

I also take risperdone, that has helped with the sleep for me as anti physcotics generally have a sedative effect. Misbehaving a reel my rubbish day, the kids have a day off and we go in at a certain time to see the teachers. Like parents evening, but 'parents consultation' lasting all day. I'm off to ours in a bit, then dd was meant to be going to get her eyes tested. I'm feeling so low in confidence that I might need to rearrange as I'm near tears just thinking about it. I feel like a really rubbish Mum though.

((( hugs to all )))

Rubbish couple of days here with nightmares, hallucinations & feeling very very low still dizzy as well which isn't helping.

DD is at school so at least I can stay in bed most of the day after school run. Yep the feeling rubbish feeling is going away for me either no matter how much I keep telling myself I'm doing my best.

Hope everyone's day improves. Love to all lurking x

Loveisashadow yes i'm sure it's duloxetine. The dreams/nightmares especially. I have such vivid dreams that it takes me awhile to adjust in the morning and work out what's real. So far this week I have dreamt that I had to lead an expedition of 10 people going camping; that I was some assassin/terrorist that had to esacpe the authorities; and that my LO had gone missing I'm only on 30mg now too. I was on 60mg but then i was so sedated I found it hard to function.

ColouringInQueen how did the meeting go?

Pulledapart I know what you mean - doing your best is never good enough is it? Even if people tell me I'm a good mum I don't believe them!!

saw CBT therapist today - i dont knwo what to say really, im shell shocked :( feeling very poorly indeed

CiQ i am so sorry, i have tried to find where you said about meeting? I hpoe it went ok whatever it was. Christ i am so self absorbed soemtimes

(Lem) here if you want to talk.
Mumwithcamera, I have dreams I'm trapped in a burning building (my ex ,dds dad died in a fire recently), all of my loved ones are dying and I can't stop them, dreams that I murdered some one . All sorts. I too find it hard to wake up again.

I'm feeling very sick and really sweaty...my fibromyalgia most likely. Also very tired. It's been a busy week so far. Might go to he'd early (ish) today.

I'm feeling really low, massive day at work today and kept a happy , smiling face all day and now just feel like crying. The next two days are going to be really vital that we're all on top form as well.

(((Hugs))) to all.
Seems like it's been a tough day all round.

((( lem ))) sorry therapy was horrid. Hope ur evening has been ok

ciq have been thinking of you. Hope the meeting went ok & your not feeling overwhelmed

loveis I'm intrigued about the sweaty comment you made as I've been very sweaty last couple of weeks to but I put it down to the vertigo. Could be the fibromyalgia causing it?

ginger it's hard work putting a smiley face on when you feel so low. Be proud of yourself for getting through today. Can you build in small breaks over the next few days even of it's a 5 min to get some fresh air? Just an idea.

I'm feeling really agitated. Not sure what to do to take my mind of things. Sat here watching the Bake off but not a lot is going in it's going to be a very long and horrible night I can just feel it.

Pulled, other people on my fibromyalgia support group say they get sweaty and night sweats too. I h vs been overdoing it a bit with my meetings and clubs so haven't been controlling my temperature very well. It's one of the first things I notice when I overdo it a bit.

Thanks loveis that is actually good to know. At least I now know what's causing them.

Thank you pulled, sorry I'm not posting much but it's hard, hard for you sll too I know.

No need to apologise at all ginger were all coping in different ways. I just seem to be quite vocal today as I don't know what else to concentrate on.

Terrible morning and I've only been up an hour. Dd moaning about how she doesn't like swimming lessons because she's not the best swimmer. And moaning about everything such as her coat, then accusing me of throwing her bag on the floor, saying is my fault she's upset

then DP trying to get ds in buggy starts shouting at him such that I felt I had to remove ds as he was so upset, he's only little.

Feel angry at dp but on the other hand he is usually the one getting them ready in the morning when I'm in bed, so it's my fault if they have had this treatment before. I obviously need to be up in the morning to supervise. I often hear him shouting I think he can't cope with the morning chaos.

Forgot to add.. Then walked to school in torrential reason in my non waterproof coast. Kids were OK in buggy with cover and other with umbrella. Dd told me I should have worn my coat with a hood. Its great when little ones point out your obvious mistakes!