Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

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I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

No still awake but looks close to sleeping now!

I've got fibromyalgia too amongst other health issues. I know ur right about not seeing it as a failure but my mind will just not let me the stupid voices are being toooooo loud and authoritative today!

Fibromyalgia is horrible isn't it? I was only diagnosed about a month ago so it's early days for me. I hear 'voices' too. My psychiatrist says "voices and visions" on her letters. They think possibly bpd, though not heard any for a while (have anti physcotics). I'm glad she's nearly asleep, you can rest a bit then.

Typed a long post but lost it, grrrr.

DD finally asleep. Think I'm gonna try crashing too. Days like today even anti psychotics don't help

Thanku loveis for listening to my rambling

Wish everyone has a peaceful night x

Sorry I didn't come back, pulled. I took my tablets and fell asleep. Better night for nightmares. Even managed a bath this morning and put some make up on before taking dd to school (very rare). Hope you got some sleep in the end.

Morning Afternoon all. I am still finding it hard to get up, improving some days, others, like today, not so much. But I am getting stuff done - decluttering and starting to pack for move.

No-one here is a rubbish mum. That's the illness talking. Do what you can. Give it time. The good bits of parenting will stay with you, in your memory, even when you didn't think they were good bits at the time. I was depressed through much of DCs' childhoods, although less so when they were around, as they made me happier by being them, (and made it easier to cope with ExH around, who was a major factor, though I didn't realise how much till the end). I often had to spend a day being miserable under a duvet, while supervising the house from the bedroom (ExH did what little work he did about 10 weekends a year). They remember this - but it didn't stop them having a happy childhood.

Looking back now it is the things we/they did that I remember, they enjoyed them at the time, and in retrospect so can I.

Rapid cycling, I seem to change mood at least once a day.
It's exhausting.
Hope everyone is feeling better, sorry I'm not around much, I can't get my own thoughts straight in my head let alone figure out how to put it well enough to type it.

That's hood getting things done, silvery.
(Spidey) has somethibg triggered your rapid cycle? Sometimes if I get stressed I rapid cycle too. to you.

I've just got home from a meeting with my arts group. I feel as though things are slowly on the up, but I'm still very, very tired and the house is still a tip.

Please may I join this thread?

I've been anxious and depressed since the birth of DC3, a year ago. I initially put it down to the (traumatic emcs) arrival and tiredness looking after 3 children. Only, my mood didn't lift, it worsened.

Dr prescribed Citalopram 20mg 8 months post birth, which was hellish. I endured 7 weeks before being switched to Sertraline 50mg. There wasn't much relief, so Dr upped the prescription to 100mg, but I was too worried about side effects, so continued taking 50mg.

I'm feeling so low and struggling to look after my children. I took my first 100mg tablet half hr ago.

Hope I haven't rambled too much. I'm sorry there are so many suffering.

welcome wandering. ive heard positive things about sertraline. a few on here are on that. i am a citalopram girl

i wonder if you could use some counselling. It took me a long time to get over my "traumatic" very normal birth. in my mind it was a close call and needed to go over and over it. a emcs must have been very scary.

its very supportive here x

Thank you, lem.

How long have you been on Citalopram?

I was referred to the CMHT and had an appointment before Christmas, where the Dr said he'd refer me for talking therapy. I'm still waiting to hear something.

it can take a while - it does help if you call them occasionally to say you are struggling.

i have been on it for a long time - i expect ill need it for a good while

Hi wandering. Welcome. Sorry to hear you're having such a tough time. I also had a v traumatic delivery of dd1. Took a long time to get over it, but I did. Are you in a position to afford private counselling? Is there anyone else in the cmht that can sort you till therapy is available? Be kind to yourself.

Hi lem pulled loveis frances silvery everyone else. Thinking of you all.

Morning all,

loveis that's absolutely ok pls don't feel bad about not coming back on. I'm glad to got the rest you needed. Thanku for ur support & hope ur doing ok.

silvery Thanku for sharing re childhood experience. It's made me feel better about feeling ok with doing the best I can. Glad things are going well for you.

spidey hope your feeling a bit better this morning

Welcome wandering I'm on citalopram, it takes time to work I think so just bare with it. Traumatic childbirth seems to be common as I had the same with my DD (it's put me off having anymore & she is an only child). I've never really delay with it as others horrible things took precedence so sorry can't offer any practical advise but can hand hold and listen. Do chase the talking therapy guys like lem said they can forget at times and it takes a long time to get an appointment.

lem how r u today? Hope things have been easier and your feeling better.

ciq hope are you today? Hope ur day has started well. Thinking of u x

Hello to others snowy NN pyrghh francis and everyone else sorry if I have forgotten to name check. Memory is not great but thinking of u all x

I'm off to Dr's to discuss my vertigo - hoping it's a useful
Consultation and I can get some re assurance

morning all
more apocalyptic weather here yesterday - thundery hail showers all day
at times the sky went so black it was like night time.
i had a more positive day yesterday, my friend came to visit - i hadnt seen her for 7 years!
my illness makes me so isolated.
cooked a healthy tea ,but couldnt bring my self to eat it ,so ended up eating beans again .

ive just had a letter to go back and see the consultant in 4 weeks and i havent even picked my prescription up , (its been at the gps for 2 weeks.)
he obviously knows my issues so i dont think hell be that surprised.
has anyone tried it - Mirtazapine ?
my mum only took it for 5 days and was rushed off it , very shakey agitated ,couldnt sit still ,feelings of doom.

it does say on the letter though that students might be there.
which is really stressing me out, i find it hard being in a room with 1 stranger ,cant bare to think of more than one.can i refuse students??

Morning Frances,

You can absolutely say NO to students being in the room it's your choice. Either call them & say you don't want students in the room or tell them when you get there. Sorry no experience of mirtazapine so can't add anything to that. Weather sounds really scary not surprised you feel the way you do. Can anyone pick up your prescription for you?

May I join you?

hi pulled
yes dh can get it, he will probably get it tomorrow but im too scared to take it.
im paranoid about anything going in my body
food/drinks/ but mostly medicine.

the one and only time i tried an anti d ,i only took 3 and became manic/psychotic the doctors had to come to the house to catch and inject me with a sedative.
it was put on my notes had a severe reaction - so no one has wanted to prescribe anything again -(18 years ago.)
this new consultant did say it was a rare reaction, and it could be the same with this new drug ,and if i can get to day 5/6 without a reaction - i wont get one.
but my paranoia wont let me try.

I used mirtazipine after a different one made me feel suicidal, it was fine. Hope it will be for you too.

thanks ginger
did you gain weight with it ?

Hi wandering.

Frances you can ask to just see a Dr, no students. I've got a friend who takes mirtazapine. She's really stable now and has supported me lots since recovering from her own illness.

It's absolutely your choice what to take and what not, though. I have found medication very helpful, but I managed for a while (best part of a year) without it. Then I crashed in spectacular style and couldn't get out of bed, never mind do anything else. I was sort of 'forced' on to meds by the home treatment team....but it has done me good in the long run.

Sorry don't know what prompted that! Could you get your pescription delivered? I know some chemists do that.

I'm exhausted today. Just so tired. Have got theatre/Drama club later too.

Welcome ginger u don't need to ask to join. How r u? x

((( lem ))) hope the tiredness passes for you. I echo your experience re the meds the only difference being it took them about 6 weeks to convince me to take them so I gave in a lot quicker. But yes it definitely made the difference. Theatre/club sounds fun

Frances yes totally forgot chemist do home delivery now as well. I'm just at the the G.P so often I never need to use that service.

So I've been told to continue taking the meds the hospital have me for another month. If there is still no change they may explore the idea of a head scan that's not filled me with much confidence!

Hi - can I join in?
I have dealt with low level anxiety for a number of years - the last 7 months have been awful and I am not coping anymore. I don't know how to cope.
Went to see GP yesterday and she prescribed Citaopram and CBT... I'm onto second tablet and feeling very jittery today

Afternoon villagers! can I join today?

Having one of those days today where I have the day to myself with no kids, but can't get anything done and can't find the motivation or joy in anything.

Recurrent depressive disorder, 20 year history.. Most recent episode since DS born over a year ago has been difficult. After being repeatedly refused talking therapy referral by NHS I've recently gone for private route. So currently trying to get my medication sorted out (Duloxetine at the mo, not great) and waiting for therapist to have free space for me. Really hoping it will only be a few weeks... I don't feel I get anywhere talking to friends and partner and just feel constantly confused and overwhelmed. Really need therapy again.

At the moment I'm avoiding friends in RL and not talking to partner much. Trying to keep things normal for DC but no idea whether I am being successful at that. Does anyone else constantly worry that they are f*king up their children - predisposing them to mental health issues in the future?

Arrgh. Anyway it's nice to hopefully meet a few friends in the village. It feels easier to meet people that in RL!

Hi Northumberlandlass (love Northumberland) and Mumwithcamera. Welcome - really hope you find this thread helpful. I'm just dashing in to say help, I have a meeting with DSs teacher and it is massively stressing me out.

Northumberland - its not uncommon for anxiety to be worse initially on ADs (helpfully) see how you go, ring your GP if it gets too much, sometimes people are prescribed something short term to help. But well done for going to the GP

Mum - yes I have that worry a lot, but a little less these days (private counselling helped a lot). I have to keep telling myself I am doing the best that I can. Be kind to yourself too.

sorry for hurried replies. Please think of me in about half an hour Must not be actually sick in the meeting.

Thank you...I'm crap actually. Can't stop crying at the moment :(