Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

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I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

he sounds like a right plonker nana!! i would have struggled not to upset his paperwork all everywhere! patronising much??? i know that i personally feel better in the warmer weather but not if im having anxiety and depression. it mayters not one jot. my good days are better in the sun my bad days are just as bad.

Hee, hee Nana, he sounds like a right plonker, but you sounded admirably assertive. Ridiculous.
Lem Iforget common names and stuff, its what depression does to your brain. My DH is also worse when Im ill, he gets scared and angry and cold. But, just look after yourself and do what works to pass the time. I second meaningless games, its so nice to switch your head off
Snowy, are you having an ok day? Did you hear back from the other CPN?
((All))
Im not brilliant. Failed another interview. Trying to use the cbt tricks that I have just learnt, when I can be bothered
What a good thread this is.
Now taking dpup out for a walk, I never want to tho it always makes me feel better.
Keep warm, keep safe

their loss hoochy! I really need to look into some sort of CBT maybe i'll do the moodgym thing again. DP got rained off today, sent my anxiety spiralling. He tries the tough approach, but its not what i need just now. He just doesn't understand, christ i don't understand, how can he? I feel like my head is so noisey i just want quiet

Just think survival tactics, you cannot change or influence anything beyond the tip of your nose That goes for our nearest and dearest. It is so hard when the person closest to you just backs off. Remember there are nice people like womens aid to talk to. They can give you strategies to cope. It sounds like hes scared. Thats why mental illness is such a bummer, it distorts stuff and harms communication. Keep it simple, look after yourself, daughter and dogs. You will feel better, Lem. Sorry for the rambling post Much love to you

im scared. i don't feel safe

((( lem )))
Is there anyone you can talk to? (of course you can talk here).

i think its the meds change snowy - have spoken to my DP and made him aware will see how i go

Where are you at with the meds change?

((( lem ))) keep talking here to us. You can get through this, were all here. Even me in my twisted state of mind and your kind words this morning really helped me to stop thinking about SH.

Thank you to u all for the lovely supportive words earlier today, it really made me feel loved. As silly as that sounds I really see you all as my friends x

Thanks snowy and pulled. It really helps to know you guys are there and understand. Ive been and done my cleaning job and feel a bit better, not right but able to cope. I have been having suicidal thoughts which scare me because i don't want to do that

How are you feeling today lesmis?

I've got an appointment with the gp today to discuss how I'm going. I had 2 really good days mon& Tuesday but yesterday was horrendous. It scares me how fast it can change.

Hi Slushie - i know what you mean. It doesn't take much to trip me up, it doesn't seem to be a gradual decline iykwim. This past week has been beyond awful, the worst for a long time, was having suicidal thoughts yesterday and that scares me. Today, so far is ok.

Good luck with the doctor today, maybe write some key points down, i always forget, especially if im having a bad day and all i can do is sit and cry.

One thing i want to ask those of you that are experiencing voices. There seems to be a lot of "noise" in my head just now. Like there is an argument happening, i can't quite hear what they are saying but i know its about me. Ive never experienced "voices" and they don't sound like they are outside of my head, but i can't switch it off. Its either that or music, the good old ear worm, but it seems to be malicious. This is worse at bed time and doesn't feel the same as when you get a song stuck in your head. I guess it could just be adrenalin but its really getting me down. I am loathe to mention this to the doctor though as im not sure i want to go down the road of anti-psychotics and their lovely side effects I just wondered if i need to be careful

Oh lem I hope it switches off for you and you have a more peaceful day. Concentrate on what you need to do and take it one step and a time.

Bad luck about the interview hoochy, better luck next time!

Sounds like a pretty standard interaction with a health professional nn. Maybe you'll find next time more use.

Waves to everyone else. I hope you're all doing ok.

nana good to know you are co-managing your condition with your health-care team :)

Hi nana the health "professional" you saw sounds like a right idiot. You sound very restrained and I'm not sure I could've kept my cool that much! Hope the reduction in meds has a positive affect on you.
tbh I can't remember if i ever did post my back story. To keep it short, I first got diagnosed with depression and anxiety about 5 years ago after several traumatic events. Have been on / off meds and seeing counsellors sporadically ever since and struggling with self harm. Currently on ADs and about to start seeing another counsellor.

(((lem))) how are you feeling this afternoon. Any change in meds is tough and you're doing a wonderful job of dealing with things - talking about things here is great as it means you're not bottling things up.

hoochy sorry to hear about the interview. As silvery says it's all part of the process and try to see it as a positive experience. An unsuccessful interview is one step closer to a successful one :)

slushie how did your appointment to?

snowy has a CPN been in touch with you yet?

I'm not great today. I managed to drag myself out of bed around half 12 for food but ended up straight back in bed and am yet to move. Don't even know why I feel so rubbish today. The flat needs tidying before DP and DSS get home and I've lots of work to do, but I'm just totally lacking in motivation :(

Love and hugs to all I've not mentioned - sorry if I missed you!

Hi all, sorry I haven't been very good at keeping up with this thread and am now going to jump in and ask for advice!!

My anxiety has been getting gradually worse and worse and came to a head ystd evening when I felt very anxious for no reason that was obvious. I rang my brother which helped a bit and then my mum, who came over. By this point I had been sick and felt like I was drowning in it

Somehow got my dd to bed who was understandably a bit freaked out by it all.

I'm not sleeping well, I got to sleep quite quickly but was awake at 2am til 4am ish, have woken up still feeling sick and anxious I don't know what to do, I don't know whether it is worth trying to get to see an OOHs Dr or to just try and ride it out until Monday? Is there anything else I can take from over the counter that would help? I just checked and my drs surgery is opn this morning but to pre booked appointments only, do you think if I just turned up there someone would see me?

Sorry for long post but the thought of feeling like this for another 48 hours is not appealing

Hi girliefriend. I don't think we've "met" before. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling awful (((girliefriend))). I'd give the doctors a call and see if they can see you as an emergency rather than just turning up. If they won't, see if there's an OOH's number you can call. I can't think of anything you can take over the counter tbh - perhaps someone else will come along soon and suggest something.

Do try your doctors girliefriend its worth a try, insist its an emergency and tell them is a mental health issue. Is probably better if you can see your own doctor if he/she knows your history as I am not sure if OOH will prescribe you anything.

Can you tell us what you think it is that is making you feel so bad? Saying that, i can feel terrible for apparently no reason, is is usually hiding in the background somewhere.

In terms of getting something over the counter, i do find Bach's rescue remedy takes the edge of my anxiety, but usually only if its mild.

I think that the sleeping is the thing that will help you over the weekend. There is nothing like lack of sleep for fueling my anxiety - i do find cammomile tea works surprisingly well. even if it does taste like sick

All little things that you can try to take control. Not much, but its something xx

Good point lem about bachs rescue remedy. That stuff was my lifeline during undergraduate exam periods - along with the meds of course

Did you manage to get hold of your GP girliefriend?

Lem how are you doing now? I've got counselling this afternoon so in a bit of an iffy mood but DSS is keeping me occupied.

Hello just typed out a long reply that wouldn't post!!

Oh well, I am at my mums feel tired but better than I did. Thankyou for your kind words

So the plan is to try and get through the wend and see my Dr on Monday, I don't think oohs would be very sympathetic and at the moment feel like I can hold on till then.

My mum works in counselling and thinks she has found me one who I could see next week which will hopefully be useful?

Am going caffeine free and trying to eat little and often.

Any other tips?

yes the counselling will be usefull. really lucky to be able to see someone so soon. definitely go.

(((All))) Thanks for the support. I applied for four jobs today, scattergun approach.

How are you feeling Lem?

I had a right old barney with my dh yesterday but it cleared the air, I just get this free floating anxiety and take things that people say the wrong way.I go off on one in my head, and before I know it the four horsemen of the apocalypse are riding into view.

Definitely yes to the counselling, any opportunity to talk is good...that and meds. I have just had a different brand of sertraline in the last week and it's made me feel weird well, weirder than normal

I find walking in the fresh air really helps, and reading a good book,totally trashy tv, anything that absorbs me and passes the time.

Lots of love to everyone. A happy and peaceful evening

hoochy I know what you mean about going off on one in your head and then the four horseman etc. I'm like that too but I don't recognise it until after the argument. Sounds good about the jobs, good luck and I hope something comes of one of them :)

I totally second the walking in fresh air. I did that earlier and it was amazingly helpful.

Feeling pretty crap this evening. Saw a counsellor today and it just didn't help, I couldn't relate to her at all and just don't find CBT helpful. Frustrating that it's taken so long to get to see her and it just didn't work, but in a way helpful as it's highlighted how much I need to see one. Looking into others tonight.

I'm feeling really low tonight and really unsupported by DP. I doubt there's anyone around this late but I'm hoping it helps just to write things down.

DP asked by text how counselling went but not once has he asked since I got back. I tried talking to him but we just ended up rowing and now he's going to sleep. I just feel like he doesn't understand or really take an interest in it :(

I'm getting really triggered and feel harmy. Don't know how to deal with this :(

Hi Faith, so sorry to hear about your evening. I imagine you don't feel at all sleepy...