thread on which to be factitiously Mentally Normal (NOS)

[Mitchy1nge]

nobody was wondering but not only am I still alive, the horribleness of my back pain has completely stopped is all a bit tender and traumatised but hooray for me

and partial hooray for the weirdness that is tramadol I suppose

I've sent 100s of things to be printed and none of them have. They obviously will when someone else sends something though.

Typing the above has caused it to make noise so maybe I have fixed it via the power of mn?

avoided eye contact with the brown one but felt his reproachful gaze quite keenly

orange pony was very good :)

managed a longer run, at marathon pace (a minute, minute and a half slower per mile than normal) so 11 miles

achieved omelette which ate mostly on way to CAMHS followed by crunchie bar which cannot find in MFP database so guesstimating 230 cals? might unsync it from Garmin otherwise it will add 900 cals from my run which takes the piss

now for CAMHS yay

Strava is always overoptimistic on calories burnt too

I think Garmin is pretty accurate, didn't wear the HRM but is usually quite reliable and very clever - cadence, stride length etc - but have already factored in my miles (about 70 cals per mile) when working out TDEE and don't really need MFP suggesting I add even more cals to each day, I just spread it out across the week and add 10%

joy of gloomy CAMHS waiting area, am really muddy despite running mainly on roads today

A crunchie is 187 cals.

I hope your CAMHS appointment goes well. Well done on the run!

Has anything printed, Caulk?

The course is going slow, enpoid, I'm not great at concentrating.

Oh I see what you mean now Mitch.

Concentration is a bitch especially on some meds Do you enjoy the studying Mouse?

I've printed NOTHING. I have achieved NOTHING except telling a lot of people I wasn't in yesterday because it was my day off, and not because I was ill. It's now occurred to me I could have ended up with an extra day off this week if I wasn't so honest but never mind.

Yep, antipsychotics and studying don't mix (although equally not taking them wouldn't help)

I do like studying, maths is good for being either wrong or right, I've given up on essay based subjects.

(((( Caulk )))) When do you finish for the day?

I've gone home now. I do flexi-time but try and stay in till 3, as regular hours help me stay Mentally Normal.

Currently thinking I'm probably a bit too depressed to be at work and productive but cannot tell the boss that so will carry on turning up and pretending to do things.

Yep Snowy - I used to take them supposedly for "anxiety" but actually because they made it possible for me to think about only one thing at a time, at a reasonable speed - I used to really struggle sometimes with so many threads/trains of thought all at once and interweaving and diverging. But then on the antipsychotics I was slowed too much and couldn't concentrate properly. Wish I'd taken academic advantage of these recent unmedicated but stable years but was afraid of provoking my usual work-too-hard-burn-self-out-become-depressed pattern.

I prefer essay subjects to maths for exactly the reasons you prefer maths to essays - I like twiddling about in all the nuances and arguing all the points of view without having to worry about being able to be proved wrong

Is it expensive to do an OU course?

It is expensive, you can get student loans if you haven't had them already. info here.

I haven't paid those prices yet (it's cheaper if you started before a certain year), but will have to for my next module. Some people can do an introductory module free

I used to like essays, but I find it hard to get a coherent argument together nowadays.
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I am sick to the back teeth of blood tests. Just had a phone call saying my liver function is abnormal, so they want me to have more tests. They wouldn't have known about the high haemoglobin or liver function if I didn't have regular blood tests.

Thanks for the info, Snowy. Looks like DP's income is too high for me to do the free access course but loans might be possible.

It's scary, though, even with student loans - I tried to do A levels twice while I was still young enough that they were free, and both times ended up dropping out and into hospital. I think you can only get loans for study once, so if I enrol and drop out, that's it for education then. No pressure

I'm always very impressed by people who do OU study

Hope you're okay Caulk.

The famous incidentaloma.

(Obviously your incidental findings aren't tumours but it just reminded me of that word)

I crashed out of studying last year, hoping that doesn't happen this time around.

Yep, definitely incidental findings, very boring. At least they've said that it can wait til next month so no more extra times.

Oh good; at least you're not going to have to change your name to SnowyPincushion.

OU study sounds absorbing, feel a bit but would struggle, can only really think about marathons at the moment. Want to find some of the books written in the 19th century which the 1908 olympic marathoners would have used to prepare for the distance - there wasn't exactly a consensus about how to train in those days - so might treat myself for my birthday which is SOON (you weren't wondering but is the 26th :))

have enjoyed stuffing my face via drive thru mcpukes after camhs, chicken legend with salsa (540 cals) and medium fries (337 cals) and am already hungry for my 10:30pm snack of yoghurt and dried fruit so might have that and go to bed ready for the excitement of New Educational Provision type thing in the morning - then am riding out with someone I find really dull because she just walks everywhere and finds trotting a daringly thrilling pace, so is perfect chance to exercise the rodeo pony, even he won't buck at walk

Busy-sounding day tomorrow Mitch.

Greetings from Verbier. No sign of Fergie yet. Am very sore from the skiing but having a great time. I'm having worrying difficulty sleeping though hence the message at odd hours. I'm sure it will blow over.

mp you must be exhausted! Have you slept at all since you arrived? Maybe once you've spotted fergie you can fully relax :)

amazingly so far Stuff is going to plan and #3 is preparing to leave quite calmly and cheerfully

unfortunately for me I am now so fat it is a struggle to manoeuvre myself around furniture etc, might spend the whole day Being Fat Around The House

yay ACHIEVED SCHOOL

house is filling up with the sound of hardcore, am skanking it out like the middle aged mentalist I truly am

heh www.wikihow.com/Skank

Yay for school.

Am hoping that no hungry people come to the food bank today so that I can just chat and knit and drink coffee. Obviously people can come but would rather they didn't.

well I'm not hungry yet (which makes a change) so that's one less potential customer

in fact am yet again contemplating the abyss between calorie counting/MFP/weighing food/self and Just Run and Follow Meal Plan (more or less), I'd really like to cross it and be more mentally normal. I can behave much more normally but still wake up multiple times a night having to double check everything and worrying that have miscalculated or forgotten to log something, and I still weigh myself several times a day

why can't I just Stop It?