thread on which to be factitiously Mentally Normal (NOS)

[Mitchy1nge]

nobody was wondering but not only am I still alive, the horribleness of my back pain has completely stopped is all a bit tender and traumatised but hooray for me

and partial hooray for the weirdness that is tramadol I suppose

The title isn't promising, you have to admit.

Was it at least acceptable in a "so awful you could get drunk and bond over the shitness" way?

MFP thinks if I eat like I did today every day, I'm going to put on over a stone a week.

No.
The second one was. This one I tried to knit through, and when I failed at that I considered walking out of it. It was so bad my eyes and ears bled.

Mitchy- that's why I don't use it. I can't cope with someone/something else acknowledging the power I have over myself.

You're an auditorium knitter!

The power of Christ compels you!

It's the power of boredom and a short attention span I think. I would have been one of those people knitting at the gallows.
Am watching HP and dumbledore had just died. I knit so I don't have to see things like this...

Have you knitted yourself one of these?

Wow. No. But I will begin one immediately.

I know there is diazepam in my house somewhere. But wheeeeeere?

I don't need it. I don't even want it. I'm just mystified as to what has happened to it.

there's some in my gym bag but only 2ng ones

that's why I don't use it. I can't cope with someone/something else acknowledging the power I have over myself am dementing so have forgotten what this is about

That was about MFP

I see your threatened extra stone enpo and raise you today's experiment in 'just let yourself eat: bacon sandwich, cheese, 16 falafel, 400g houmous, dried milk powder and raisins and water (gloop), cantuccini and Nutella

And I raise you- sushi bento box, handful of caramel popcorn, Nutella crepe, German market potatoes, fried sweet potatoes with guacamole and cheese, strawberries and kiwi dipped in chocolate and an advent calendar chocolate.

I would love to stop using MFP, it is a really fucked up thing (for me, not in general) but I decompensate pretty quickly whenever I try

It's the "eat this much and you will weigh 10lbs in 5 weeks thing" that makes me go "ok, well I can do better than that, I will beat you and weight nothing in 5 weeks".
I can see how it really is good, and would work.

it doesn't do that anymore unless you log at least 1200 calories

but yeah, it is or was really pro-ana which is not my cup of colon cleansing tea at all

fried sweet potatoes guac and cheese! inspired, yum

Yep. It was SO good.

I guess I just don't see how 437 extra calories a day could result in gaining 5 stone 6 pounds in five weeks.

A pot of houmous, 5 raw carrots, three oatcakes, 50g almond butter, a lamb curry and a flatbread doesn't even sound that unhealthy. ----

I stopped logging for two days and have broken my 150 day streak. Have never had any problems with anorexia so am hoping pleasepleaseplease that MFP is a good thing for me.

It must be a bad algorithm. It keeps telling me an unexpected error has occurred. As opposed to an expected error, I suppose.

according to this thing I watched today (I swear to God I just switched on the TV in the house sitting house and it was starting, must be His divine will?) horizon I think, why are thin people not fat, something like that, you have to control your intake to within 7 calories a day

which is impossible isn't it, is not a very exact thing even when you weigh everything, eggs make me nervous enough (maybe because have them most days) but how could you possibly ever be that precise

That's genuinely impossible. That's one gramme of butter.

What does decompensate mean?

I use it as shorthand for those situations when my usual dysfunctional thought patterns, abnormal behaviours and maladaptive coping styles bring me closer to crisis

Christmas lunch party in a minute - not actual lunch, just mulled wine and festive (what is a word for 'nibbles' that isn't so awful?) snacks? bites?

am reading an Interesting Thing about some of our favourite themes that has wondrously appeared on the internet this morning, it explores a bit about how coercion and control are used throughout medicine not just psychiatry (which is of course merely a branch of medicine but one that is unfairly singled out for criticism in this and other areas, such as wildly unscientific interpretations in the making of diagnoses, when examples of these are found throughout medicine)