I dont want to do this anymore

[eenywifemum]

I thought about changing my name but honestly cant be bothered. I have a 9 week old baby with colic and I can not cope with him anymore. I love him more than ANYTHING. But he will not stop crying and he wont sleep anywhere but in my arms. I am exhausted and depressed. I had a miserable pregnancy a miserable birth and now a miserable baby. When will it get better?

I have finally left him on his own just to write this because I need help. I am strongly against leaving him to cry, he is only moaning at the moment. I want to be there for him I know he is sufferring but I cant stand him anymore. Please cheer me up and give me some hope. I do love him so much I just cant cope with him anymore. Tried calling crysis and an old man answered the phone so I hung up. I have no family in this country. Few friends and those I have I dont want to burden. I cant reach my husband on his mobile so I am really alone right now.

I remember ours. Just as bad. It's unbearable for the parent (more than the baby).

She suddenly stopped crying like that at around 3 months. I don't think you';ve long to go. The only way we survived was both of us working full time and leaving her with someone else. Blessed relief. I can say this safe in the knowledge she's now 22, the age I was when I had her, and turned out fine in the end.

eeny, I'm near the centre of Colchester, only about 15 mins by car...

Sorry to hear things are so hard, eenywifemum . I had a dreadful pregnancy and an even worse birth with my first baby, I felt completely shredded and raw, and disorientated. It took me weeks to even begin to feel normal again, and the early weeks of breastfeeding and lack of sleep and colic......I shudder at the memory.

It will get better, it will, it will!!! You will get through this awful screaming colicky stage, and so will your son. I think the trip to the GP is a very good move - if antidepressants help you to get your equilibrium back, then good - there's no shame in accepting help, whatever form it takes. Hang in there! xx

Eeny, shame you couldn't afford more CO I think it should be available on the NHS myself.

I had a battery operated swing with ds2 and wish I'd had it with ds1. They're fantastic! DS2 would fall asleep in it

Sorry about your labour hun Do make a complaint. One of my best mates had a bad labour and ended up with PND which wasn't helped by this experience.

Don't knock the meds, they're great. Just remember to take them every day as missing one can dilute the effect in my experience.

hugs hun xxxxxxx

I've been there too. Hugs. I'm also in Essex so if you need anything.

thanks everybody so much for your support! Today has been a much better day with Alex, although he has fussed a lot it has been easier to cope with. Having a baby is like the most intense love affair imaginable, the highs and lows. No one else could make me feel this way.

thanks mysticpeaks and podglet - we must organise a meet up for the local mums sometime.

I am on a mood stabiliser now which I was actually prescribed for migraine treatment so I hope an antidepressant just lifts me up a little.