community-based psychiatric adventures of the mentally normal

[Mitchy1nge]

am not sure if mavis is still in this one

I've been fairly even and stable for a few years. When I got the kick in the arse of being told I had diabetes, losing the weight was fairly easy.

Night CIQ. And Mitchy. And anyone else. And John Boy.

aww friends affected by mental illness are the family we choose for ourselves

someone might have been wondering . . . I loaded the dishwasher and switched it on (it could kill me in my sleep ) and left running kit to dry on radiators and a trail of beet-it shots bananas and porridge

so can say goodnight and go to sleep like a normal (seems unlikely though)

Hi all. Way too many posts for me to read through so I'll just say that I hope everyone is OK.

We had some great news last night. The Lancaster University Student's Union have passed a motion to support our campaign and they're keen to get involved any way that they can. This is just amazing.

I personally keep on being touched over and over again by the amount of support we're getting. So often people dismiss mental health and the people that it affects. Trying to make a change and maybe getting somewhere is very good for the soul, it really is.

I'm coming down off the ceiling now, but I am definitely still up and aware of it. My mood is all over the place - DH calls it unstable and I'm willing to agree with him. Still, its all for a good cause.

Great news Keema

Knew I hadn't dreamt having read about use of modafinil in depression.

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/16855454/

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/17671288/

I've never heard of modafinil before.

Wakefulness-promoting agent used in narcolepsy, often considered to be a bit of a mood-brightener.

Wish it were possible to die from thinking about it.

oi

hello keema

day not going amazingly, was so late meeting friend she only had time for 8ish miles (thank goodness I only had porridge and didn't go fucking mental with the beet-it and a banana!)

just saw the woman am meeting (I thought) at 1 drive past me while running giving me an extremely puzzled look - wonder if it was 11 not 1?

think I found modafinil or waklert or one of those ones a bit destabilising and only took it a few times

Sorry please ignore that.

I've come to the conclusion "puzzled" is just what some people's driving face looks like.

Not sure how to make it to next Friday which is when i see my care coordinator with only a few hours' partial reprieve each afternoon from the immobile horrors and shitty alien thoughts and shitty alien hands. Fucking everything hurts and there's nothing I can do.

Oh heck I read waklert as wankalert. I need to have a word with myself.

Epno, can you call your care co or the community team? They usually have a duty officer that you can talk to, which would be way better than suffering alone for the rest of the day. Certainly if you're feeling this shit then you could do with seeing the care co before next Friday. A week is a long time to wait when you're feeling like that.

Dp rang them. They made an appt for me to see psych on monday. No point anyway.

heh wankalert heh heh heh

yeah why wait until next Friday? that is ages away, did you see someone today or was it earlier in the week? (NO sense of passage of time, my moderate cognitive impairments/dementia strike again sorry) you might as well talk to the care coordinator at least or see if an appointment with the psych is possible a bit sooner

god I'm a slow typist

glad you don't have to wait too long

Last saw cc Tuesday. Doesn't matter anyway.

that all sounds a bit fatalistic

anything much happening over the weekend, if you feel up to it?

I have the thrill (oh god why) of the farrier tomorrow, he's lovely but is v stressful getting them all in and persuading them to stand still and wait patiently for their turn - not to mention £fuck

am suffering from lack of running, feel physically over-revved and nowhere to go

but Sunday excitement of man-in-life making food for us, am over 10,000 calories short for the week so there will be no excuse not to enjoy it

No

(if I can't be bothered to go out to buy cigarettes I'm probably not that desperate to smoke? has been over 24 hours I think practically an ex-smoker again)

I have hundreds of cigarettes as I used DP's allowance and my own in the duty free.

Glad it's the weekend although the only plans I have are to go to the train station to buy a new railcard. Get me and my rock and roll lifestyle!

Feeling any better Enpo or are you still in the horrors?

have been struggling for ages to open new blueberry liquid stuff for vaping device

have finally refilled and now the stupid thing needs to be recharged for about 18 hours

and it's only 6:30, how ridiculous to be feeling more like pyjamas than a little trip to cigarette world