community-based psychiatric adventures of the mentally normal

[Mitchy1nge]

am not sure if mavis is still in this one

I could pick up my prescription tomorrow but might not have inclination time

those figures seem low because am ostensibly aiming for about double that but is based on several hours of running each week I suppose plus all the other stuff

is hard to look after ourselves properly sometimes anything remotely self destructive is so much more appealing for some reason

I want to go to bed but DP has deposited rubbish all over it

a short term blip after such a long time of eating less won't do much to slow your progress

how far from goal?

yes enpo and the, I'm soooo knackered I should really go to bed now (every 10 mins from 10:00pm, but backside is glued to sofa. Yesterday made it to bed at 11:20 and guess what, knackered this morning...

I used to do the 5:2 thing, worked for about a month, lost 3 pounds, but then I just got into a v bad habit of eating sooooo much crap on the "5" days that I ended up gaining weight... also thing some "pleasure centres" in the brain or whatever they are, now need a shitload of crap calories to keep them quiet....

1200-1400/day for six months - that is hardcore.

am going to have yoghurt with some sweetened dried mango, hang out running kit to dry, go to bed

hope you get into yours eventually

yes to the self-destructive mitchy I know lowers my mood, makes it even harder to get out of bed etc etc.... but I'm still drinking it

I knew I was going to get depressed. I know I don't deserve help any more than someone who didn't know they were heading towards one, and I still don't understand why I seem to get referred to services at the drop of a hat when most people I know, the GP is willing to help - but why wouldn't any of them engage with what I was saying when I said I was scared of impending depression? I can't help thinking if I'd only known how, I could have prevented this depression coming. God, I'm a selfobsessed fuckwitted essay writer.

good grief enpo if you knew how to prevent it coming on you'd be a millionaire. There is only so much we can do.

Yes, the too tired to physically go to bed thing is so familiar to me too

I don't know what I was eating in the previous six months but I know when I upped my intake to 1200-1400kcal a day my weight loss dramatically slowed down, to maybe a pound or two a week.

5:2 didn't work for me as I spent the second half of each fast day and each day after a fast day with a migraine, which was kind of inconvenient. Didn't know I was diabetic then, though. Perhaps it would work better now.

Enjoy the yoghurt Mitchy

what is psych suggesting for your low mood enpo?

agree with ciq you are being a bit horrible to yourself

I suppose you're right CIQ, there must not be a way to prevent it. But the drugs they keep pushing on me, benzos, pregabalin... it was all seemingly calculated to actively bring me down. Which just seems bizarre. It sounds ridiculous to confess I fear that it's deliberate.

I haven't seen the psychiatrist since whenever it was he prescribed me more pregabalin, last time. I don't have another appointment. The care coordinator said she might make one in a couple of weeks.

I'm lucky that wine holds no appeal for me CIQ - I hope at least it's naice wine

it is easier to sustain motivation for eating well when mood is good I think

am excited about Long Run so has been easy to shovel in the calories today, wonder how will cope next week

It is horrible to be taking a lot of meds. I do think there is a tendency to medicate people beyond calmness.

I am now munching through a load of cadburys...

It was pretty nice thanks a very good friend send me a box of wine in the post following recent events, so there's no hope for me now!

It sounds like 5:2 was totally counterproductive for you CIQ. So much of the publicity for it pushed the "eat normally five days a week" with the subtext of "eat as much as you want on non-fast days" - which obviously doesn't work for those of us for whom "as much as we want" more than makes up for the deficit on fast days

Mmm, chocolate.

I haven't been following many other threads lately so I don't know what you mean by recent events (or maybe you did mention on here and I just forgot - sorry ) but I hope things are improving for you.

what a nice friend!

I'm bagging jelly babies, our last experiment before the half marathon, I know I can plod round without anything but friend almost died at 94 minutes so last week I gave her some energy gels and they seemed to help, tomorrow she can try a jelly baby at every mile - a bit old school

I don't think I can eat them without thinking about gelatine old vegetarian habits dying hard

I think you're right Mitchy - I wonder how easy life/weight is for people who are on an even keel all the time. Surely it has to be easier, but people still seem to find it pretty hard.

Ooh. Jelly babies. Sounds fun.

Coincidentally there's a Tom Baker Doctor Who episode playing on my TV right now. I'm sure those jelly babies look bigger than the current ones.

yes she's fab mitchy

It is so much easier when you're on an even keel/haven't got something ridiculously difficult going on. Struggling to remember when that was though! 2010 I think!

but also, are most people on an even keel most of the time?

proper actual obesity is genetic plus environmental isn't it, not things an individual can easily exert a lot of influence over

am switching off. night.