Issues at the interface of Mavis, community-based psychiatric services and the mentally normal

[Mitchy1nge]

I think that covers us all?

I forgot my ankle was injured (no support on in bed) and moved it wrong while turning over, cause I'm a fuckwit. So it hurts a bit. But it looks like I've been lucky and it's only a mild twist. Normal colour, shape, size, etc.

Mental appointment today

How are you doing Mitch? Sleep well?

I only woke up once I think all night so, yeah, amazing!

good luck with mental appointment, is there a plan?

have personal trainer this afternoon - have not done homework. well, have done 'try walking normally' homework but not 'release it band with black spiky roller' homework because I burst into tears last time

run in a minute if Young Person is ever ready for school

porridge was nice with nutmeg cinnamon and a mini box of sultanas and apple

Great, there's nothing's like a decent sleep!

Plan for appointment: wash self, dress self, turn up and cry a lot.

What is this black spiky roller? Sounds intriguing yet frightening.

I do miss porridge. I thought it would be crisps and chocolate I would miss, but it's porridge, potatoes and most of all, bread.

All NHS diabetes literature and my diabetic nurse sing the praises of porridge but it spikes my blood sugar horribly.

i had two slices of toast yesterday, was just celebrating the arrival of half a bowl of type 6 (heh sorry) and wondering to what it could be attributed, bet is the bread (have no issue with the stuff, just don't buy because it always goes mouldy and am not in love with it enough to give it a home in the freezer, just leave it to die on the kitchen top)

might repeat that toast/poo experiment in a few days time

is this sort of roller I don't have one at home, I have a kinder smoother blue one but that doesn't hurt enough apparently

but I only have to do the left side, don't know why, was not aware of any it band issues

(I enjoyed trying to look up his shorts )

Gosh, that looks uncomfortable to use.

If you always get mould on bread maybe your storage area is too moist, or you are harbouring mould spores somewhere, or you're leaving the bread open to the air too much? Though sometimes I think it comes pre-inoculated.

The solution is probably to buy currant teacakes

Pervert.

Just popping in to wish you good luck at your appointment Enpo.

Thank you Mental! I'm only slightly shitting myself this week

Good luck on your appointment, Enpo.

This particular reptile is a leopard gecko. I've had him for 7 years and he is the loveliest, tamest gecko...everyone always comments on how friendly and lovely he is.

He's been poorly since the start of September, but he's getting worse, and the vets are clueless. They can only suggest more antibiotics, but he's been on them for three months, and they destroy their bodies...he hasn't eaten in that time, and he has only pooed once (on Monday). He stopped opening his eyes yesterday.

I don't think I can handle him dying. DP keeps telling me that he'll be gutted too but we did all we can, and we don't want him to suffer. I get that, I really do. But I need him. I look after him and he keeps me company. I'm broken at the idea that he might be gone...

And a really evil part of me wants to buy another pet so that it cushions it a little if I lose him. I know that isn't right, and I know it wouldn't replace him, but it'd fill the emptiness a bit and give me a purpose. Problem is, we're due to move house soon, and I'm not sure DP will agree with getting anything else. He doesn't get as much out of him as I do...

If the crisis team hadn't been such utter dicks, I'd probably contact my psychiatrist and explain that I'm falling apart. As it is, I can't bring myself too. I couldn't get there anyway.

Thankyou for the good wishes Infinity It's this afternoon at 1. Bit apprehensive, but I guess that's normal.

I'm really sorry your gecko is so ill. They can be such friendly little creatures, but when they go downhill they do seem to go quickly Poor little guy. And poor you as well, of course. He's been in your life for seven years and you love him; no wonder you're so upset that he's so ill and may be dying. I hope that either way, he doesn't suffer too much. He sounds like he has a lovely personality

It's not evil IMO to be wondering about getting another pet. You're not thinking about replacing HIM, but he's obviously brought so much to your life that it's hard to imagine life without an animal to care for, and in a way I think that's a tribute to what a lovely companion he is.

I hope you can access some RL support Infinity. How did it go when your DP contacted them yesterday? Have you had a response to your email yet?

(I split up my posts sometimes because my iPod doesn't like MN and often crashes, throwing away whole reams of posts I've written - hope it doesn't seem like a bombardment!)

another pet is a brilliant idea

all that love goes to waste otherwise, might as well bestow on some new character - doesn't stop you missing the one that has gone or cherishing your memories of them but otherwise the gap they leave can be very hard to bear I think

when is appointment enpo?

oh this afternoon at 1 think I have attentional problems and will ask for some ritalin, or you could score some this afternoon and sort me out?

My appointment is at 1pm. I'm seeing my care coordinator but I think I have to see the psych as well so he can give me a slip for a blood test.

X-post there

I can try for Ritalin, but I'm not optimistic.

on the plus side I found my mini bristol stool charts and have attached them to car/house key ring

on not plus side if I collapse out running and people look in my pockets for ID they will be a bit

I thought it was Thursday. It's just hit me that it's not. I have no idea why it even matters, but I feel all out of sync.

I also have no idea what a stool chart is.

The disrupted night you had won't have helped I guess Infinity. Have you been getting some sleep since?

Sorry. Hope you weren't having lunch.

is an excruciating reminder of when I went missing for a few days and the police took my computer away to see what they could find out, and my screen saver/desktop wallpaper at the time was a very hairy anus surrounded by the most grotesque warts (NO I DON'T KNOW WHY I HAD THAT)

it didn't dawn on me until months later that the local constabulary (at least two of which I'd shagged) would have seen that and fuck knows what else I had stashed away