Issues at the interface of Mavis, community-based psychiatric services and the mentally normal

[Mitchy1nge]

I think that covers us all?

Buying tap fittings

Hope you sleep well Mitch.

I hope your back improves with sleep Mitchy.

thanks :) it did, misses yoga I think but can't afford new gym+trainer+yoga studio

happy Monday!

Good luck re: appt Mitch - I have to accompany DP to one this morning too.

am going to rearrange it

have cpn tomorrow anyway although she is not really my cpn, have had a new care co-ordinator for ages since they rendered the services unfit for purpose re-organised things but am fiercely attached to old one! can talk to her much more easily about stuff

am not really finding the current help much help, so we need a chat, I think I have some good ideas about how to help myself and have decided not to wean self off lithium at least until am a bit better in other ways

Sounds like it's going to be quite a lot of stuff needs talking about.

So first thing is going running with friend/groom?

I thought the lithium was kind of a permanent fixture?

um normally my dog gives her a breast examination (his way of insisting on a cuddle) and she picks those tiny prickly things out of his ears while I chat shit

things have changed so is not as easy to be discharged and then see same team again if there is a blip, but equally appears not to be v straightforward to just be a sort of dormant patient with cmht (not even called cmht, over the years they have moved from 'severe and enduring mental illness' to 'central recovery' and finally to something that makes no allusion to mental disorders whatsoever, is fucking weird, there is no CAMHS either, just 'youth team' or 'young people's service' or something) but anyway is pointless having appointments to see people if I never go and don't get anything out of it

what is dp's appointment? anything amusing?

I don't think lithium is forever! Nobody told me that!

it's sitting at this computer that hurts my back I think, need to find my phone

Highly amusing groin stuff.

Your MH services sound singularly unhelpfully set up.

I don't know about the lithium; I'd somehow formed the impression it was often a long-term prophylaxis thing. Sorry, I'll try and stop talking about things I have no idea about.

they are in a baaaaaaad state www.nsft.nhs.uk/Pages/Home.aspx

I started taking it about 14 years ago so it has been pretty long term

will prob stay on it

just enjoy entertaining the illusion of choice and control sometimes

meant to link to norfolksuffolkmentalhealthcrisis thing but is dull anyway, same story everywhere I suspect

They clearly have no idea how to punctuate, at least.

Yes, you need to feel it is an ongoing choice I guess.

This morning I chose to take pregabalin. I'm not sure whether to allow myself to let it become habit or to keep going through the full decision-making process twice a day.

why are people with mental disorders always sitting on stairs or steps in bbc stock images? www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-29936392

do you feel any different after taking it?

I never noticed that before about the stairs but you're right.

I don't feel different yet.

appear to have overlooked the minor detail of the school run

argh

think we might be late

don't think have ever sat gloomily on steps or stairs in throes of mental crisis

am either on the move or numb and immobilised in bed or on the floor or sofa or wherever

Yup me too.

how's today going? pregabalin helping the anxiety at all yet?

achieved school YAY then had utterly frustrating run with new friend/groom, she just kept stopping and complaining even though we had agreed a distance and route, she worked all weekend and was obviously tired but had an uncharacteristically BAD attitude

think is perfectly ok and normal to struggle sometimes and find it hard work and to say so and to ask for a break/walk but the whingeing drove me crazy, is better to just say for whatever reason 'am not up to it today, sorry, will walk back and see you later'

DP keeps telling me how calm and relaxed I seem on the pregabalin, which is a bit galling because I don't feel a lot better - headrushes diminished but anxiety still there and very uncomfortable. Plus, now I feel sleepy and slow and dizzy and various muscles ache.

Sorry to hear the run was a bit of a washout. How frustrating, for both of you, probably.

Have been to appointment with partner, town for bits and pieces, had coffee, DP picked up ridiculous coat from cleaner's, then B&Q and Tesco. I have to eat food and go to the gym. To be fair, last time I felt like this with the pregabalin, going out for a run really helped with the fuzziness, so here's hoping it does the trick again.

Well done on the school front

you're a busy bee! sounds good so far with this med then?

am still struggling to come to terms with fact that at dinner on Saturday the others (at least two were professional stoners in earlier life) could only name one pink floyd track between them (the wall)

the fuck?