"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

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New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

Past tense!

Yes Lem that is the right way to look at it.

I hope she has a good recovery.

Nite x

The homework is for the therapy I'm doing.

I have not slept so much in my life - being a bank holiday my brother has been home so decided to let me sleep in & dealt with Dd. I've just crawled out of bed nearly 18 hours later but i could just easily go back to sleep. victrix looks like ur not the only one that's sleeping loads!

Been having really bad headaches past week I think they are tension headaches. No pain meds seem to be touching it or it could be migraines I can't tell :(

Not sure what is going on in my head at the moment just feeling very depressed. At least the voices seem to be under control & not having any suicidal thoughts! Don't think I could cope if all that was going on too.

Still have not started the mood diary suggested by my therapist just can't seem to get going

lem sorry to hear about ur friend. Sending u love & hugs & prayers for ur friend.

NN sorry to hear ur having a bad time with the head monster. A good cry always seems to help relieve the pressure in my head hope it did the same for u.

collardove well done for keeping it together for ur DS. Hope today has been a better day for u.

((( snowy ))) ((( voilet ))) ((( all ))) & hope this cloudy bank holiday has been ok for all x

Hi DumDum sorry you are feeling so low but glad you managed to get a good long sleep. I'm flat as a pancake today and no motivation to do anything...........hmm a mood diary - not sure what your therapist has in mind.

I keep a diary (well actually it's a big A4 spiral bound pad) and I have filled loads of them. I just write whatever I am feeling and somehow it helps me as I've always been someone who writes stuff down, and I can say what I like to my diary. No one is going to read it though I do sometimes show my lovely CPN - when I am feeling crap I write nasty words in BIG letters.............then at the end I give each day a category:
VGD (Verygoodday) NG/NB(not good not bad lifted about ? and give time - usually evening) (Awful day - no respite) (Bad day - lifted ? and give time I felt a lift) something like that anyway and then in the back of the book I write the day and date of each month and transfer the daily score to the back. This helps me keep a check on how I am and the medics find it very useful because it's better to say "I was ok for 50% of the month but the rest was bad or variable")

I do it because it helps me ........... but I don't think when you are feeling so low you are going to have the motivation for this "mood diary" - unless you just start by jotting something down....I think it depends on whether you are someone who writes things down or not.

Hello to everyone and hope your spirits are in better shape than mine!

Thanks NN that is really helpful re the mood diary. I think ur right in the low mood I'm in right now there would be nothing useful to put in the diary apart from writing I feel crap !!!

The funny thing is when I was in college I use to keep a diary where I would just write down absolutely anything I wanted or felt. I seem to have lost that part of me now. I find it really hard to express myself now :(

Posted too soon grrrr stupid phone!

NN sorry to hear ur feeling flat as well. Can you maybe distract urself with a nice movie/tv show. I'm going to watch some old episodes of Friends in an attempt to lift my mood a bit. Well in between seeing to Dd needs and wants. Though she seems right at home in front of the tv with her fav cartoon on Disney channel so I might leave her there for. While

That sounds like a good way to use mood diaries, NN I hope things lift soon for you. Thinking of your friend, LEM, hugs. You are a good friend. I hope you can use the mood diary, DD32 Hope the headaches go away.

Thanks snowy hope ur day is going well :)

Hi, Can I join in please? Been reading for a bit but never sure when to join, today I'm feeling brave!
I have DS who is 10 months and was put on ADs at 30weeks pregnant. My CPN has just discharged me and I'm really not strong enough for that.

Welcome to the Village RuckandRoll - sounds like now is a good time to join with you needing some extra support. Congratulations on your DS - it is a tough time for anyone, throw depression/anxiety into the mix and it feels like a battle.

Mood diary's sound like a good idea, i think.

Had a good weekend with DP.

Welcome RuckAndRoll
My head's spinning, difficult stuff brought up in therapy.

Welcome RucknRoll

lem glad ur weekend and gone well & hope it continues that way :)

((( snowy ))) I've been having really emotional time at my therapy because of a lot my past being bought up so can sympathise. How about an early night just for today?

Thanks DD32 It depends when my carer comes, hope it's earlier rather than later, an early night sounds like a plan. (((( DD32 )))) hope it's not taking too much from you.

Hopefully I can go to bed in 30-60 minutes.

Hi everyone, it's been a real hotchpotch of a day for most folk reading through the days posts.

DumDum - thank you the day was ok, if kind of flat. I did not reach the spectacular fallout levels I had anticipated after 2 days of keeping it together for the homecoming of DS from uni.
The Disney channel was a saviour for me when DC were much younger, I have much to think it for!
Sorry your day has not been so great, hope your headaches and spirits lift for a better day tomorrow! X

NanaNina - hope your flat day improved x

SnowyMouse - fingers crossed you get your earlyish night after the carer has left. Hopefully your attempts will fair better then mine last night. After heading up the wooden hill to my bed I was back down within the hour watching TV and eating a good packet of crisps! X

Lem - I am glad you feel ok today, any news on how your friend is? X

RuckandRoll - it's not easy making that first move to join an established thread. I followed this ones predecessor for its entirety before taking that first step x

Hi everyone, does seem to have been a bit of a mixed bag today, doesn't it?

I've also been pretty flat, I'm trying to save my energy for tomorrow - going on holiday so looking forward to getting there but not the stress of the travelling! Also have a keeping in touch meeting with work tomorrow.

Victrix - well I hope the travelling proves not overly stressful for you. I hope you have a lovely holiday, and that you return happy and refreshed x

DumDum - yes - just write feel crap in BIG letters if you want to. I cover a whole A4 page sometimes with SHIT, SHIT, SHIT "I hate my life" etc. and all sorts of other things!! Sometimes when I show my CPN she laughs when she sees these sorts of pages.......she says she likes that I swear, so she can too!!

Snowy therapy can be really emotionally painful can't it, they do reckon it's doing you good "no gain without pain" and all that, but we have enough pain anyway don't we. Hope you get a good night's sleep.

Welcome RuckandRoll - lots of young mums on here but I'm an old grandmother! Feel free to post whatever you want - no one judges, sometimes some of us ramble a bit, but whatever it's fine, just lots of support. What meds are you on?

Lem hope your friend is ok - no doubt she will have very regular checks to ensure that she is clear - are you ok or still anxious?

Hi collardove glad you are keeping it together while your son is home Is he empathetic? I have 2 adult sons and to be honest I think they find it embarrassing that I have a mental illness. When I had shingles recently they were both on the phone asking me how I was etc and they never mention the depression which is far worse than the attack of shingles! It upsets me really but there's not much I can do about it.

Coo - you followed the previous thread in its entirety before posting on this one..........you must be very patient!

Victrix yes flatness seems to have been around for some of us today - hope you manage to have a good holiday.

My mood only lifted about 9.00 tonight so I stay up late as it's good to feel ok again, though god knows what tomorrow will bring. I am a bit anxious as am starting on a new drug regime from tomorrow. So for a week I have to reduce my imipramine (which I've been on for 5 years) by 50mg per day...........and that's scaring me, and then on weeks 2 and 3 I have to continue to reduce it but introduce Sertraline, and week 4 should be on 100mg Sertraline and no imipramine and then review. Phew...................this year has been so awful that I don't think I've got anything to lose, but still anxious about it all.

Morning everyone,

I've cancelled my appt for today I'm not in a good state to step outside plus all this rain :(

NN meds change can be hard so here's hoping your day has started well and you get through it without too much struggle. It's reminded me that I must contact my G.P for my meds which were changed at my last cpn appt.

victrix hope u have a great holiday :)

I need a & me thinks!

I'm with you on that today DumDum.

Weather is awful and I am not good today either. Will take myself back to bed now I think...

Have a good rest collardove :)

I've just made myself get out of bed. need to get ready for my group therapy now though don't really feel like it & lacking motivation. But I really get a lot out of going to the sessions so I'm going to force myself!

Hope everyone has a good afternoon x

Hope the next week and a bit goes well for everyone x

Enjoy your holiday, Victrix

I slept okish, thanks all.

Meds switches are challenging, NN, I hope it goes as smoothly as possible for you, ((((NN ))))

I hope you can reschedule your appointment, DD32, the weather is awful today

Enjoy bed, collardove, sounds like a good place for today!

I'm vaguely stage 2, trying to stay 'up', watching britain's got talent from yesterday.