"putting the SPRING back in our step - village support for depression and anxiety"

[LEMmingaround]

Heres the new thread guys. What is this, thread 9?

This is a thread that is situated in a virtual village of support for those suffering from mental health issues, or just those struggling with what life throws at them.

Please feel free to join in.

(((Lem))) x

Thanks everyone, and zombie thankyou too. I am quite shaken up but the dr thinks its a haematoma that has come up because i had a bruise to the area (although i don't think its in the same place exactly, its in the general area). She hasn't referrered me, thats a good sign isn't it? but i am to go back in two weeks time, having not fiddled with it (err, good luck with that) to see if there is any change (i would have thought she is hoping that has gone down or disappeared) if not she will refer me then. Its smooth (i think) and i am pretty sure it wasn't there last week - christ i don't even think it was there this morning but it must have been, i can now feel it through my tshirt just running my hands over it.

That sounds positive LEM I hope the waiting doesn't drain you too much. It must be hard not to keep touching it.

Hope you are all well. So many posts since last night. Bank holidays are a bitch for the mood, I find.

Psych appt was shit. She trotted the usual line 'let's put your meds up'. I had them put up 3 fucking weeks ago, thanks and now have hand tremors and drowsiness as a result.

Had a declutter of friends which has made me feel decidedly better and getting my hair done tomorrow, so not feeling quite so hopeless this evening. Plus no booze for 2 nights in a row,. Copious amounts of cigarettes though.

I have a plan and that plan is to crawl out of this dark, depressing hole, slowly but surely. It won't be fast and it won't be easy but I have done it before and I will bloody well do it again. My boy is going to get his mummy back.

Good for you beerhunter. You will do it.

Beerhunter - that is fighting talk that is! i like that! You can do this.

I am struggling :(

lem still there?

yep - i wish i asked the Dr from some diazepam :( The irony being that i was considering reducing my citalopram dose - i wont be doing that now!!

yes I can imagine that diazepam would be v useful tonight (((hugs))) Like you say prob best to leave your dose as it is for the next few weeks .

Can you distract yourself with some music, tv, nightcap? play a relaxation vid off youtube or something? Or head to bed with a book? Hope you manage to find some calm and get some sleep.

My dh has just come in and said there's something wrong with the cars breaks, but should be alright to do the school run . I will be taking a taxi... Should go to bed as have to get up 2 hours earlier than I have been for the last.... while! If I get 10 hours sleep I feel better....

Take care x

Thanks CiQ - I have zopiclone if all else fails, but DP has to be up at stupid o clock tomorrow and will be working fecking miles away so can't pop home if i have a wobble :( I am not wanting to take the zopi in case i don't wake up for the school run.

Yes, don't be using the car with dodgy brakes.

Am falling apart - i am so so scared, and i feel bad because deep down i think this is due to me whacking my breast the other week. But instead of thinking its the cause ive convinced myself it has awoken the kracken as it were. DP has gone to work (late because i think he is worried too which is makin me worse). Why am i being so pathetic when there are women on here who have really had to go through this - i wish the doc had referred me straight away because i would have now known that at the end of this two weeks there would be some answers, but i could have to wait four weeks before i know now :( My Doctor isn't there today but i really need some diazepam or i don't think i will cope. I am going to take my dogs out in a bit but its worse that its such a lovely day :( I just wanted my DP to stay home but i made him go to work - he didn't want to go.

Didn't want to read and run, LeMming. Sorry you're feeling bad. I hope the dog walk helps ease your feelings a little. Is there a different doctor you could see if it remains bad?

hang in there lem. Like you say, it is extremely likely that the lump is caused by the injury. But I do understand that once the anxiety has kicked in... its horrible.

Hope you got out for the walk and it helped a bit. Any relaxation techniques work better for you than others? I find a mindfulness body scan meditation helpful.

There's one here, just the act of doing it does help even if you're struggling to concentrate

(((hugs)))

Oh (((( LEM )))). I hope walking the dog helps distract you. I'm dressed (stage 2) but curled under my duvet.

Have just takrn some diazepam told my mother I have a headache and took hers not helpong though

lem - hugs to you....try to talk yourself down....remember that nearly all lumps turn out to be nothing. i know it doesnt help much....but the balance of probabilities is that it will be nothing to worry about.

ive had very little sleep - im on nights tonight and had to get up for the remploy chap and ds coming to discuss his hearing on monday.

im physically and emotionally knackered.

love to all still hanging around the village....im level 2....couldnt see the remploy chap in my pjs.....
thinking of trying to go and lie down for a bit again but i doubt ill sleep - dd is due in in an hour, ive had to engage my brain to pen a letter for ds to send to work so now im mentally awake but physically knackered.

(((( vicar ))))

You need some respite from everything going on at the moment. I hope you got a bit of a lie down, even if you couldn't sleep.

thanks snowy - you are such a giving person, you deserve some respite too.

i put a hypnotherapy cd on (well, its on my ipod) and i do feel more rested....just not prepared for work.

i should go get ready.

How are you doing now lem? Did the dizzypams help?

I had 1 step forward 6 billion steps back today!

Went out this morning to buy a few bits for my holiday. Son was crying (this is an automatic response to being in a clothes shop, typical man!) A woman approached me and told me I should leave the shop, put my sin first and if she knew me she would call S.S because I am clearly a shit mum. I then spent the next 5 hours in tears as thus is something that I believe to be true at the best of times!! Thing is I have no respite, sons dad isn't involved right now, so when the fuck am I meant to go shopping?

Then got a text from a friend to say that sons dad has a new girlfriend. Devastated is not the word. Being a single mum is not fucking fair!!

Called sons dad

Plus, cancelled hair appointment as was crying to much to go. I HATE MY BRAIN, its wired wrong,

Oh beerhunter that sounds like a rubbish day on anyone's scale let alone when you're not well. Cannot believe the cheek of that woman. I know what you mean - its one of my greatest greatest anxieties. But she does not know you.

Take care this eve x

Hi everyone. I think I'm coming out of this dip. Was lucky enough to have dp around yesterday doing EVERYTHING before rushing out to work last night. Cut down on caffeine and pottered most of the day with a bit of mumsnet thrown in and I'm feeling ok. Hard to trust it though but am trying to be optimistic.

Hi Beer - that's a shitty day for anyone and nothing to do with your brain being wired wrong. If I'd been in that shop I'd have had words with her for you. Get that hair appt rebooked pronto! I always feel better when I get my hair done. Probably because I leave it until I'm looking like a caveman.

That's good to hear, swoop

(((( beer )))) She had no right saying that

I'm waiting for the repairman today, so I can't go and lie down, as much as I would like to.

(((Beer))) that woman was an idiot

My wheelchair is broken and they can't fix it until next week.