"putting the SPRING back in our step - village support for depression and anxiety"

[LEMmingaround]

Heres the new thread guys. What is this, thread 9?

This is a thread that is situated in a virtual village of support for those suffering from mental health issues, or just those struggling with what life throws at them.

Please feel free to join in.

Welcome all.

Sorry I can't keep track of everything at the moment, but I am thinking of you all.

Welcome Beerhunter and Elsie - Beer CT every day sounds like you are having a really bad time. Want to tell us a bit more about what's happening. This is a lovely thread and there are some "stayers" and others (like me) who dip in and out, but am always still welcome.

Elsie sounds like you are describing classic depression and anxiety - wanting the world to leave you alone and feeling you are "unravelling" sound very familiar to me.

Vicar I've been following your thread about your son. That poor bloke, he seems to take 3 steps forward and 2 steps back. I have some worrying family probs at the moment and the thing is it's worse when they're adult I reckon. At least when they're little we can usually make things right again but we are often helpless when they are adult. I do admire you for continuing to fight for your son. Recurring chest infections are a bugger - they are so debilitating aren't they. Can you have a week or so off sick?

Hi Lem and snowy and DD and anyone else who I just can't bring to mind now.

Don't think I am quite ready to bore you with all the details just yet Nana that doesn't mean you have got away with it though.

Had a lovely crisis team man thingy mebob round just now. He was lovely, (mainly because he is going to come back tomorrow with some diazdapam!) Have been drinking in the evenings to block out all the Negative thoughts and to try and get some sleep but I know it's a short term solution and with all the meds I take it's not very sensible either.

vicar I read your thread about your boys employment situation. They are fucking wankers. I can't imagine how it must be for you. I don't know how to articulate it very well but if someone was treating my son like that, then I would want to kick them in the balls. I just can't help thinking how vulnerable he must feel.

Hello Elsie Sorry to hear you are feeling crap.

Do you have anyone supporting you?

Anything that I/we can do to help? Anything you need to talk about?

vicar I'm not on any meds no. Have been thinking I might need to be for far too long and finally managed to ask GP to refer me to a psychiatrist (I'm pregnant so don't want to go on meds without speaking to an expert!) Have received what I think is the referrel which is offering me some short term CBT...think I need to be a bit more insistant .

Anyone have any experience of best antidepressants while pregnant?

beerhunter thank you. I think its all a bit long and complicated to explain all at the moment so I may just lurk and post a bit. Im also a bit paranoid about people looking at what I've written (not unfounded)

Don't have much support have a few friends but don't want to overload them. Am seeing a councillor though.

Good news on the CBT and counselling. CBT has really helped me in the past.

Congratulations on your pregnancy.

I took a plethora of psych meds during my pregnancy. My mood was stable until I went on Mat leave and got uber depressed. I took escitalopram. The plan was to taper everything down in the last trimester but because I got a bout of the blues (probably due to meds not being as effective due to volume of blood increase) my doses stayed the same. I had to stay in 72 hours after as baby needed to be monitored for withdrawal system but he was absolutely fine. It was nice having the support too.

I was able to quickly resume normal doses of meds soon after the birth to avoid pnd (but that's. A whole other story!) I couldn't breastfeed as I take lithium but a friend took standard citalopram and ebf her baby for a year.

My biggest fear was social services becoming involved and taking my son away. But because I showed insight and got help when needed they haven't needed to.

Sorry, that was all a bit me, me, me. Its the only experience I have though and I hope it can help in some way. Feel free to ask me anything. If I don't want to answer I shall let you know!

Just wanted to add that there have been no long term effects for DS. Infact - super proud moment - he is a very funny, intelligent, happy, loving, handsome little boy. His language development is very advanced. He is only 20 months and he is already speaking in sentences!

It has bog all to do with me though. I'm a shit parent, cbeebies is my friend!

Really hope you get the support you need.

Not mememe at all beer I appreciate you sharing your personal experience

Your son sounds like he's doing brilliantly.

Welcome beer and elsie

Just wanted to pop in and send supportive thoughts to everyone. Am doing ok. Realising a lot of my anxiety is about not being a good enough parent / having a negative impact on my kids and comparing with other families and kids too much. So there we go!

Happy Easter all x

Happy Easter

Happy Easter everyone. Have been enjoying tea and chocolate!

I'm about to have Chinese takeaway, I had 1 easter egg, which is more than enough

All I want to do is sleep, maybe I should take some temazepam.

Well I've had a mega crappy Easter - my headmonster decided to play a new trick on me, and whereas if it's a bad day I always wake up feeling crap and improve through the day, today I was fine this morning, but early afternoon a thick grey blanket draped itself over me quite suddenly, and I scurried to my bed to have a long cry. DP came in from the Ramblers walk about 4.00 and I cried all over again, and then again about 7.00 ish. My head is throbbing and I feel sick (have taken 4 x 2mg diazepam - not altogether) and am nibbling on cream crackers.

April has been a pretty good month for me so I am "overdue" some bad days, but the change in pattern has really thrown me. Also we are going to Ireland on Tuesday to see son/dil/grandchildren (we go every 6 weeks but it's been 2 months this time so am desperate to see them all). I usually get anxious before the trip as I hate anyone seeing me when I am in a bad state. I feel very embarrassed and ashamed, even though I know it's not my fault.

Sorry for being so self-obsessed - hope you got some sleep snowy - am just off to bed 11.30 and see what tomorrow brings...................

((( Nana )))
Hope you had a good sleep, lovely girl, and that today goes better than yesterday.

I still have some chocolate left from yesterday, and had a chocolate hot cross bun for brekkie with lashings of butter yum though.

(((( NN )))) I hope you got some sleep and feel better today, down with the headmonster!

Sounds yummy, hoochy I had left over broccoli stir fried in garlic for breakfast from yesterday's takeaway. I didn't take temazepam in the end, I feel so sleepy now though

Thanks for the hugs but I'm worse today if that's possible - have only just stumbled downstrairs 4.30 pm and have had at least 3 long crying bouts. Thing is I've gone a month without any bad days, so these ones have hit me hard. Don't think I'll be going to Ireland tomorrow either - can't even get the energy/motivation to pack and I am desperate to see my grandchildren. I've told DP he must go though I'm scared of being on my own here (I know lots of people with mental illness have to live alone) Sorry for all the moaning - I don't usually post when I'm this low.

If I don't go I'll try to get hold of my lovely CPN - last time in say psych in March he was suggesting a change in meds after a horrendously bad Jan, Feb and early March, but end March and April (till now) have been fine. I said I'd wait and see how April was - I'm scared of changing in case I get worse - oh god I'm scared of everything but mostly scared of being scared.

Sorry I am so self absorbed. Hope everyone else is ok.

(((( NN )))) you're not moaning, you deserve support here as much as anyone else! I hope that you can get RL support too, if need be.

Hi everyone. I've lurked long enough to read this thread and want to join in, if that's ok.

I've been on sertraline since October. The depression has eased considerably but anxiety is ongoing. I'm going to ask the doc for talking therapies because I don't think I can do it on my own. I've had visitors staying for a few days and it's left me wiped out. I wonder if anyone can relate to that because it's not something I would have thought was a symptom, IYKWIM. Anyway, I didn't get out of bed until 4.30 today. I wasn't sad or anything, just shattered, no desire to get up. I know I'll suffer tonight when it's time to go to sleep - vicious cycle. I'm trying to break it but I seem to be too weak.

Anyway, don't want to go on and on. I hope I can be as kind to you as you've been to each other, and I'm grateful for the space to talk. My DP doesn't get it. We have two dc's, the eldest is 10 and is noticing mummy likes her bed!

Welcome Swoopdewoop

I think a lot of people here struggle with getting out of bed, maybe you need a meds tweak?

Thanks Snowy

I did broach that with gp but she didn't run with it. She did offer talking therapies which surprised me and I said I'd think about it. But of course that's what I need to do. Maybe I'm so tired because it's the end of the easter hols, plus visitors. But no, I know that's not right. I'm 41 and shouldn't have to stay in bed to recover!!! Sorry, just typing my thoughts as they arise. Must be scintillating reading!

Beautiful picnic blanket, Zombie!

er....is this how we do it?