anxiety/obsessing - will my GP laugh at me?

[littlemonkeychops]

Ok, please be kind, i can't talk with anyone in real life about this as i'm so embarrassed :-(

Basically i have an irrational anxiety about a minor health complaint (don't want to be specific but think veruccas or ringworm or something like that). I've been a bit obsessive about it since i had it when a teenager. Since then it's always been there to varying degrees. Recently my DH had a case of this minor ailment and it's causing me massive obsessive anxiety.

A lot of my day is spent worrying about it, cleaning and doing hot washes of clothes/bedding to stop it coming back. I get very anxious about visitors in case they have this ailment and are bringing it into our house, and likewise hate visiting and staying with other people. I have a mental list of rules that i get very very upset if they're not stuck to.

I know this is not normal behaviour, luckiky i have a v.understanding DH but i would love to not feel like this. I don't want my young DDs to pick up on my weird behaviour.

I've even thought i better not have another baby as that would be another person who might catch this ailment.

I feel like such a freak :-(

I wonder about seeing my gp but worry about getting laughed at, or that he'll miss the point and think what i want to talk about treatment for the ailment itself.

Sorry, bit long :-(

Thank you, i think if i was anxious about more "normal" things like money or something like that, where it is sort of ok to be worried about it, then i'd feel comfortable talking about it with friends/family, but i just feel so embarrassed about the cause of my anxiety, once it's "out there" they'd always know, but then again trying to hide it will lead to some equally odd behaviour

That's interesting eurochick, i hadn't thought about hypnotherapy. Hopefully it has made things esdier for you x

You've mentioned anxiety and unwanted obsessions. Did the GP mention OCD at all? Postnatal OCD is a recognised condition which can be treated with medication and/or therapy.

Hi Saffyz, no the gp didn't really mention any specific conditions, just said she'd urgently refer me to the perinatal team. I'd heard about postnatal deprsssion but not OCD that's interesting. Got a follow up gp appointment this morning to chase the perinatal team so hopefully i can speak to someone soon.

Hope your appointment went well today.

Hi. Yes it went well, thank you for asking. Saw a different gp (job shares with the one i saw friday and she was lovely, really reassuring that the petinatal team will be able to help. She will chase them tomorrow if i haven't heard and i'm booked in to see her again on thursday. A million miles from the laughter i feared i'd encounter.