roll up for the village fete! move to our village if your 'fete' is to be happy!

[ThatVikRinA22]

6th thread folks....

keep talking/posting.

Is there anything like Shopmobility you could use to hire a scootery-thing (what are they called?) - does Shopmobility even exist anymore, she suddenly wondered...

the fete has been going through some of the best sunny weather we've had in years

I predict it will be sunny again tomorrow

i hope so silvery

ed i love you too! just realised ive missed em again today! going to take them right now.....

i have done nothing today and it was bliss. i didnt get dressed. i didnt brush my hair, i just lazed about and read my book and played with the ratty rescues....now ds has gone back down south i lay on his bed reading and let the rats run riot in his room

my boys all came and laid on me while i was reading. They really are just like mini dogs....right down to the kisses they give me.

right. off to take those meds and read for a bit.

I am such an idiot.

I have JUST got into bed.

I have been crafting.

I am a perfectionist. I keep tweaking. And tweaking. And tweaking until I have no more time to tweak.

It needs to be complete by sept but I want it to be complete by tomorrow morning. I want it to be complete so I can give it to the person instead of putting in the post. I want to see their reaction. They have seen the prototypes and were impressed. I was impressed. But now I have almost completed the real thing it looks stunning (if I do say so mtself - promise pics tomorrow).

But why oh why did I not go to bed 3hrs, 4hrs, 5hrs ago?

Because I'm a perfectionist. I strive for perfection and can't stop until I fall (true perfection is never acheived...there is always something that can be better).

When I was teaching I spent hours and hours planning to try and make the perfect lesson....I stayed up till 3 am...night after night. I was in the classroom at 8am. I only stopped to eat (occassionally) and shower. I slept when I could stay awake no more. Is it any wonder I broke down???

I haven't taken tonights meds as I figure it isnt tonight any more....

Right. Sleep. Up at 9am to finish Willy... (thats his name....stop thinking rude things!).

Waves to all.

Also thinking of UA I know you had a tough week last week. Hope you have the strength to come back and join us.

Hey just jo

• joining in, I'm Fi and I have just started taking anti-depressants which I am hoping will remove my anxiety, my depression and at last let me see the world clearly, I am also desperate to lose weight as am 17 stone right now, today I plan to eat well and have set aside some time to go to the gym which I haven't done for weeks and weeks, just been feeling so low and dismal I haven't been able to think about going.

Had a hard week at work, they are being really supportive but I am in just such a mood at the moment, had a wonderful weekend with the family so I should really be on cloud nine counting my blessings and I'm not. I just feel like its all about to cave in.

I hope everyone else has a nice day, sorry I haven't read back through the thread, LEM sent me in this direction, all the best x Fi

Ed I am like that too - when I can get going in the first place. In my case I suspect Inattentive ADD - people with this can Attend all right, if it's something they are interested in, and have a problem switching off.

I keep thinking "I'll get my writing project finished today" then although I am working on and off all day it doesn't finish, in the old days I would have kept on half the night, these days I can actually make myself go to bed.

Am agog to see what your project is...

Morning Filee - glad you found us! I have weight issues too, just coming around to the idea of a diet, i exercise a lot but never seem to shift it. Alcohol is, i suspect, not my friend in that department and I have made a resolution to stop, or at least dramatically cut down. I haven't had any since friday but to be fair, my hangover only really subsised yesterday

Am also waiting for the grand reveal Ed!

Hi filee - in dashing off my reply to Ed I forgot to say hello

What ADs are you on? I am on paroxatine 20mg just as a maintenance dose. IME the right antidepressant can really help you see the world more clearly, so that you can start to deal with the other stuff that isn't helping (be it weight, work, or in my case, my now ExH )

In on sertraline, 50mgs to start but I think they are looking to increase that in a couple of weeks.

I was on citalopram but only for 2 days as it left me zombiefied and incontinent.

Day six and I feel more depressed if anything. Definitely more anxious.

Not from personal experience, but some people on here have had quite bad side effects at the start. In the long term though, Sertraline has been effective, as I have seen since these threads of vicar's began :)

However, everyone is different, and getting the right AD is in part a matter of trial and error. Give the sertraline a good long chance to work, keep posting, and if in a couple of months you think it's not for you, go back to your GP and ask to change to something different.

filee - that is to be expected really, i think you will find that you will start to feel better soon. I went really downhill when i started on the citalopram which otherwise suits me. Once the actualy side effects subside it does start to work. Have a good day today - im just about to take my dog out, he is being weird and anxious so am hoping a good walk sorts him out.

Welcome Fi, hope you feel better soon

Can't wait to see Willy, Ed, don't let them tease you! It's something to think about as you go back to school, though, looking after yourself really is a top priority. Limiting the planning and prep too..how about staying in school to prep, then forgetting about it when you go home? Good enough is good enough, just do enough to get through.

Sorry, Silverysooth for disrespecting your powers of weather prediction

Much love to Lem ,Ciq ,Snowy , UA , Vicar and anyone else I've forgotten.
Just did a big shop, shouted at the teenagers, now off to swim..
Have a good day.

Hi Fi

In a rush. But the suspense is over. Willy is on my profile.

Back later.

Ed - overplanning was my downfall when i was at the college, but i just could not get my head around it not being "good enough" when other people could just wing it :(

Off to look at willy now!

LOVE willy, and i recognise it but can't name him

hi all, can i join in please
im suffering ocd overload with the dc home from school
does anyone have any helpful tips of coping ?
my stress levels have gone through though the roof ,and its now effecting my sleep and appetite-
i feel too agitated to eat, and keep waking up at 3ish either because i can smell burning,or hear someone knocking at the front door.

hello wfrances - have you seen your doctor about this? are you on any medication at all? How does your OCD manifest itself? I struggle with DD home actually, athough i struggle when she is at school too but i find that getting out and about is the best way to cope for me. Which isn't always easy i know.

lem- ive had this since childhood ,everynow and again it escalates,usually caused by a change i cant control.
no meds as im irrationally petrified of anything including paracetemol.
i tidy and must have order ,i dont like things touched .
which i can semi control whilist theyre all at school then they have tea and back out for activities ect.
now they are all home all the time and i cant do more 40% of the things i need to do because i dont want them to see me doing it ,i dont want my dc to think think this is normal/right.
sadly i cant get out,im housebound most of the time.

Hello everyone,

Sorry I've been AWOL. I seem to have been really tired lately, with only enough energy to lurk. And my back has "gone" again, which always takes a lot out of me. (I have a dysfunctional sacro-iliac joint - nothing serious but by buggery it hurts when it decides to flare up.) Moodwise I'm not too bad, though I wish I could stop catastrophising. Something happened at work last week and I went slightly off the deep end about it - looking back, it really wasn't that big a deal but I started seeing all the worst case scenarios (losing my job etc).

I've never actually been offered counselling because my GP is sure my depression is inherited/endogenous (I have a lot of family history of it). But I do wonder if I should insist on it now. What do you all think? I'm happy to find and pay for my own counsellor to save waiting, but I have no idea how to go about finding a good one. There's a lady locally who offers it but I know her personally, although not socially (we worked together before she changed career, though it's around 9 years since that time). I liked her a lot when we worked together, and would feel quite comfortable talking to her, but I'm not sure if it would be better to have a complete stranger instead.

vicar, I saw your thread in Chat. I have no idea how you've managed to cope with all that for so long. You're amazing, even though you may not feel like you are.

LEM and vicar, my understanding is that you're only an alcholic if you really, really cannot get through the day without a drink. I have occasionally been on the verge of that, though it's usually been when I actually need the ADs and haven't been taking them . So from the sounds of it, you two aren't in that territory. Though cutting down is of course good for the health and the wallet! (I'm such a cheap date now after having two kids - can't drink more than 1/2 bottle wine without feeling squiffy. Gone are the days when DH and I would sink a bottle each plus a few G&Ts or whiskies of an evening.)

filee, I'm on sertraline when I remember to take it and after the first 7-10 days it really helped me. So please do stick with it, you may well find that things improve a lot here on in.

Ed, is Willy the bird? Do I spot a Lesser Spotted Woodpecker?

to hoochy, TSS, snowy, wfrances and anyone I've missed.

Greater spotted woodpecker I'll have you know :o

Seriously though I'm just pleased its recogbisable as a woodpecker.

now you say what it is Ed, its obvious :) Its really very good!

feel on edge today - bit shouty with DD. We have been out and got some fresh air though, long walk with the dogs one of whom was being really stressy this morning and it does seem to have settled him for now. I think i feel stressed because i have no plans. A friend did call to make some plans for tomorrow but they are weather dependant.

Unfortunatelyanxious - if you are looking in - still in my thoughts xxx

Day 7 tomorrow, I hope it helps me.

I feel like shit today and my hip hurts :( going to the gym helped neither.

I actually think they have just started working