roll up for the village fete! move to our village if your 'fete' is to be happy!

[ThatVikRinA22]

6th thread folks....

keep talking/posting.

[ColouringInQueen]

Hi everyone,

lem how did you get on this afternoon? Hope the meeting went well.

ed glad to hear you're doing better these days. Sounds like busy times. I sympathise re the school uniform shopping - have to do so myself.

Hope your days been ok snowy and we'll done for riding the showers - almost impossible here!

spc thanks I am still struggling to allow/calm brain down. I don't know c if racing is the right weird actually it's more just like a wiggling bowl of spaghetti - hard to identify particular thoughts, head to concentrate, overwhelmed and the opposite of peaceful! Yoga does help a bit.

Feeling rather frazzled tonight. Have been helping at a summer camp thing organised by all the churches in the town. Lovely people and lovely atmosphere and I did it last year, but anxiety a killer all day. At least today was the only full day, doing tue and thur pm.

[LEMisdisappointed]

Thats ok mama - it wasn't a total surprise but it has very much shut the door on my science career so I am gutted. Trying to remain positive and thinking about retraining but I have no idea what i want to do.

It is still sunny here snowy, although i think we are to get the rain tomorrow.

CiQ it wasn't good news, see above :( Its good to see you involved in your community, i don't go to church anymore as me and our parish priest don't really see eye to eye on so many things. My cousin goes, she has had such a difficult few years, well the past seven-ten years just hell for her really and she barely goes out so i am grateful to the church on her behalf that it has given her this lifeline.

I am glad the summer holidays are here although i'm feeling a bit lost as i had got quite involved with some projects at DDs school.

vicar? are you having a break from the plod for a while now?

[LEMisdisappointed]

SPC sorry, missed your question, DD is 8 now and DD1 is 23! We have a full week of things to do this week as we have a local "event" going on all week and i need to step up and get a bit more involved i think. I have a couple of good friends i will do stuff with over this week, although one is off to italy soon.

[ColouringInQueen]

Sorry lem some weird delay to my post (hugs) re your meeting. My dd is 8 too Have you got much planned this week. I tend to try and get out around the middle of the day with a picnic to break the day up.

mama thanks - I have just started reading a mindfulness book actually so hopefully that will help. Oh and nice v to hear from you.

[LEMisdisappointed]

We are off to leeds castle tomorrow with some friends (they have tickets) and are taking us along with them. DD will like that as will be with her school pals. Then there are lots of things going on this week where i live (a seafood related festival that im sure you have heard of!). Picnics in the middle of days sound like good ideas - we are lucky enough to have the beach, it makes such a difference. I think its going to rain tomorrow though :(

[ColouringInQueen]

Oooh Leeds Castle is lovely. At least you can duck inside when the showers arrive. Yes being near the beach sounds brilliant with kids.

Hope you have a good day whatever the weather x

[ThatVikRinA22]

we are having the garden finished tomorrow and dd is at dentist. on weds we are going to an art exhibition by david hockney.
on thurs we are going to the coast for the day.
sat we are emptyng and cleaning DS uni flat. (joy. he came home wthout his keys....)
sunday DH is taking DS back down to devon....i worry about the drive. he is planning on doing there and back in one day. its a 4 1/2 hour drive each way.
i will fret.

[EdwiniasRevenge]

Blinking hell I have gone from not being able to stay awake to not being able to get to sleep :(

[TheSilverySoothsayer]

Me too, went to bed 1ish and stayed awake for hours, but quite enjoyed it. My head was chuntering away, but it was being quite entertaining :)

[Fishandjam]

Hello all,

Thank goodness the weather is cooler. I'm a right grouch when it's too hot; I go around muttering that I'm going to emigrate to Iceland.

LEM, I'm sorry you got bad news re the fellowship. Is there definitely no other avenue you could explore?

CIQ, I don't know if you're a closet hippy like me, but whenever I get an attack of anxiety, I find it really helps to go into the garden, sit or lie on the lawn, shut my eyes and just focus on what I can hear, smell, feel. (I've been known to do it even when it's raining.) So I might focus on the noise of traffic on the distant A road or of housemartins squealing overhead, the feel of wet grass making my bum damp, the smell of roses and the compost bin, etc. Five minutes of that and I'm usually feeling better.

to other posters - sorry, I'm really tired at the moment and struggling to stay awake at my desk.

[ColouringInQueen]

Hi fish and jam don't think you'd class me as a closet hippie but your suggestion is something I could do. Do find yoga helpful and partic the breathing/meditation part at the end. Glad you're enjoying the cooler weather. It's pouring he today!

vicar that sounds busy - tho nice things. ..

Just out of counselling and taking a 15 coffee break before going back to summer camp. Counselling was helpful and feel better for it so that's good. No counselling in Aug so will see how that goes. ..

Hello to everyone x

[ThatVikRinA22]

sorry lem i missed your question - im just on annual leave for a fortnight. Then i have my hospital procedure for 24 hours, then i have my lovely spa break with dd.

working 5 on 5 off is suiting me as its like getting a week off every week anyway. But am on annual leave now so no work for a couple of weeks.

[SnowyMouse]

Hi all. I'm probably going to the day hospital tomorrow, haven't seen anyone since Friday. My sleep has gone haywire, I'm not doing great, hope everyone else is surviving.

[LEMisdisappointed]

pants about your sleep snowy :( Hopefully the day hospital will be ok(ish) tomorrow xx

Im not having a good day really, rowed with DP this morning because he extended the credit on his card without telling me when i begged him not to have the card in the first place. We have been through HELL due to our debts and I can see it all spiralling again if we aren't careful. I have done a really childish thing and hidden the letter with the activation code on it and pocketed the card so he can't use it. He doesn't know that yet, but he is already not speaking to me because i freaked at him about having it. I found out by mistake :( He said "why can't you just trust me"...........................err, well???

[SnowyMouse]

Good night all.

[EdwiniasRevenge]

Seems a few of us are struggling with sleep at the mo.

Hugs to lem. He won't understand why you are withholding the credit card, or he wouldn't have applied for it in the first place.

I'm holding my own with my list of stuff.
think I have sorted the long school trousers.
Tax credits done (thanks to being badgered by dtd1).
3 heads of hair dip dyed in various 'trendy' shades
I cleared my entire backlog of washing up this morning. Sadly dtds cooked tea so needs to be redonr
I even opened a couple of letters (to find my tax credits renewal).

Trip to the city tomorrow...origigonally it was to look for school trousers but think that is sorted now. It will be holiday bargains for dds and build a bear for dd3 (birthday money).

Stay strong everyone. One foot in front of the other. I am a completely different person since starting venlafaxine (and the switch was a pretty mild blip for the person that was considering switching from fluoxetine to something else). I'll be interested to see how I cope next week when dds are away and I will have scope for staying in bed. d

[ThatVikRinA22]

sleep - whats that when its at home?

my sleep is shot but my excuse is shift work. i went 34 hours with none on saturday.
i can never sort my sleep out, i can happily lay in bed till noon and stay up most of the night. im not sure if the shifts are to blame or a blessing that allows my normal night owl tendencies to reign supreme.....

[ColouringInQueen]

Morning all,

hope you got some sleep those who've been struggling recently.

lem sympathies - that's tough but completely right not to want to get back into big debt. Is it poss to have a convo with dh about, perhaps on neutral territory?

Enjoying a peaceful morning here, have a day off from camp thing. Read some more of mindfulness book - makes a lot of sense. And did 50 mins yoga for free via a you tube video. Do have to tidy at least part of house this morning as it is horrid but hopefully can manage that on a bit. trying to hold onto peaceful yoga feeling!

Take care all x

[SnowyMouse]

I will be referred to art therapy, I've been discharged from the day hospital.

Enjoy your peaceful morning, CiQ That's a good list of things done, Ed 34 hours without sleep vicar, I don't know how you do it. Hugs LEM and all.

I feel exhausted, at least I can have a nap this afternoon.

[TheSilverySoothsayer]

snowy that might just be your thing :) Better than day hospital for you, anyway, I imagine?

[ColouringInQueen]

Art therapy sounds interesting - hope you find it helpful snowy.

[ThatVikRinA22]

evening everyone.

snowy i think thats brilliant - being discharged is a big step too.

we didnt manage our day out today - i ran out of money. we had to put shopping back yesterday which is just embarrassing - got to sort out my finances but once in debt its just so bloody hard to climb out of it.

Im paid tomorrow so we are going to the coast - nothng fancy just a fish and chip supper and some sea air.

ive been planning a few more tattoos (i know people either love them or hate them but where i want them is easy to cover if i choose to do so.)

DH told me tonight that he thinks i have a drink problem.
i have made a concerted effort tonight to not open the wine until 9pm and have just had 2 glasses. no cigs today so far either. i really do need to begin to look after my body again.

anyway - on that note i am going to attempt to sleep earlier tonight too.
up early for our trip out.
good night all - hope for a good day for everyone tomorrow.

[hoochymama1]

Hello to everyone

I survived soul survivor, and even enjoyed bits of it. I just retreated to the safety of my tent when things got too much Hope your church thing went ok too CiQ, I kept on thinking , why am I doing this, why did I volunteer, but its good to have done it. Glad the mindfulness is working.

Sorry to hear about all the sleep issues. I just listen to R4/4 extra, for most of the night, putting my radio on a timer, it works for me, and stops my brain chuntering.

Glad you went to leeds castle Lem we used to live near there and friends paid for a yearly pass, so I used to take the children there most weekends they got sick of it by the end. Sorry to hear about the fellowship thing, but there's a world of sciency things out there you could do... I did one of these online career questionnaire things to find out what my skills were, it may help.

Vicar I used to self-medicate with drink for many years, it's what we do sometimes. Try stopping and see if you can..but only you can say if it's a problem.

So glad for you snowy, the art therapy is lovely, and it will help to get you meeting people. You are such a lovely friend to us, you need to get rf too.

So, a day of washing, pottering, a scarily unstructured day.
Oh, but it's our 26th wedding anniversary so out for lunch with dh.

Much love to everyone reading, I hope you have a good day

[EdwiniasRevenge]

Just a quickie.

I am here.

I have done ALL of the tasks I needed to do this week and dcs have been sent on their way.

My house is a tip. But school uniforms have been sorted and/or are in hand.

I am going to try and spend some time out of bed this coming week. I need to keep the momentum going.

snowy art therapy sounds like a welcome change to the feeling that 'people are checking up on you'. How do you feel about it?

Waves to everyone else.

It is soooooooo hot and muggy here. I had a shower 15mins ago and I am already hot and sweaty again. (Crikey, can you remember the days when it was a miracle if I showered in 10days?!?)

I need to open the window soon....but want to read with the light on for a bit...

[ThatVikRinA22]

evening all.
it was Dsis birthday today - (or would have been were she still here.)

We went to the coast today which was lovely, (whitby) ate at the best (and my fave fish and chip restaurant) The Magpie and wandered along the beautifiul sunny beach - had a paddle for Dsis who loved the sea....got stuck in horrendous traffic going but worth it when we got there.
Just been out and seen a lovely bright star so said a little prayer for her - hope she heard it. I miss her terribly. It can still hit me out of no where.

But i have again resisted more than 2 small glasses of wine and feel ok tonight - a bit more in control.

so hot and sticky here - not sure how easily i will sleep even though i feel zonked out with sea air and walking.