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6th thread folks....

keep talking/posting.

(((Hugs))) snowy hope you managed to get through the rest of yesterday and get some sleep? Am I right in thinking you've changed meds recently might that be contributing? Can you tell ct or anyone else?

(((Filee))) no not unreasonable. Do what feels right.

dumdum hope your weekend was ok.

lem interesting re the computer rule. Hope it helps. Hope you and dd are settling into new term ok.

Ouch vicar!!!

Hi ed, silvery, norky anyone else.

Well first full week back at school for kids and home alone for me.

It feels pretty daunting and I'm not really looking forward to it. I've had nice things to look forward to during the hols and then suns been out. But today its raining and grey. I have my mindfulness book to read, some cleaning to do and kids swimming lessons for 1.5hrs this pm and dh away tonight so I'm doing bedtime which I struggle with. So need to add in something a bit more fun.

Am decorating dh and my bedroom later this week which I'm quite enthusiastic about but am struggling to make choices about paint/paper on feature wall. Could head out somewhere to look at paper but also aware I need to pace myself for a long day. Hmm. Will keep pondering.

Sorry this is seriously rambly, but helpful to try and identify what about today is less good.

Take care all.

Morning all, it's my maths exam today... Eeek very nervous!

Good luck!

Good luck filee! CiQ can you take someone to bounce ideas off about decor, or get samples to bring back? I'm trying to tell CT, but it's hard.

Tooth broke over the weekend, so I have a temp cover over my root canal, and mustnt eat on that side before going back Friday. The rain isn't helping with my mood I think.

I feel like hell :( this flu is the worst ever! so I thought I'd have a nice hot bath hoping it would revive me but no it hasn't done nothing to help. little one is a bit better but spent all of yesterday throwing tantrums to go outside. bless my younger brother he must have taken her out 10 times. the final one was the icing on the cake as she saw a cat on the road & now she has been crying for me to get her a Cat :( that is so not happening with my allergies so I've decided to get her a little teddy kitten (Argos here I come). she has been up since 7am & wanting to go to nursery! so i've decided to send her nursery.

filee - good luck babe I'm sure u'll do great :)

colouring - decorating always stresses me out but I'm sure u will make it fun for u.

snowy - toothache r the worst hope u survive ok till Friday.

right better get up & start making prep for my meeting (really could have done with it but hey ho). it's gonna take me hours to get ready. I need another already. weather is crap here to dark & cloudy. oh dear it's gonna be a long day!

hugs to all of u & hope we all have a better afternoon :)

Ouch snowy and no the rain doesn't help at all does it. Anything you can treat yourself to today?

My counsellor reckons I find the worse weather in autumn/winter constraining and that doesn't help my mood and I think she's onto something.

dumdum that sounds rubbish. Nursery sounds like a vg idea. Take it easy, flu can really take it out of you. Good luck with the meeting.

Well I have spent a lovely lazy morning in bed I have started my Mindfulness book and just 15 mins meditating over some chocolate () really helped calm me and my mind. Have sent a few emails and spent some time online looking at wallpaper.

This is my fav here so have ordered sample and then just need to persuade dh This on feature wall behind bedhead, and off white on others. Feel like the room would be better with a bit of texture as its all v plain.

So must get up, shower and do a bit of cleaning! Else it will be time to get the kids already.

and all round in this weather I think!

That sounds awful, DD32 I hope everyone feels better soon!
Unfortunately most of my treats are foodbased, outside isn't inviting today I think your counsellor talks sense

Hmm me too on the treat front. It has finally stopped raining here, I was going to pick up something but have realised I still have a millionaire shortbread in the cupboard which I will have tonight in front of a girlie film (dh away). The thought of a nice eve should carry me through the after school shenanigans!

Got to get ds now and console him as his first swimming lesson due today has been cancelled due to pool malfunction. He was so excited this morning . Think we will finish off his dinosaur kit instead...

Hope it brightens up where you are soon x

Hi everyone! well i am managing not to come in and switch the computor on as soon as i step through the door. Am getting through the house SLOWLY. Can't really say im enjoying it, but then who really does enjoy hardcore housework. Have managed to get DDs bedroom done today - it was in a terrible state having not been done since some time before the summer holidays. Gosh, it all seems so far away now :( Trying to remain positive - im JUST about managing, wish I could pull myself together a bit more. My mum is a worry, STILL going on about the cooker etc being covered in stuff that her sister put there - trying to kill her apparently - i can't deal with it so have been avoiding really, which is selfish of me but I just feel like i am banging my head against the wall really :( Its raining - seems appropriate.

I like the wallpaper colouring :) looks bright and cheerful - I am hoping that once i have decluttered the house we can make a start on decorating and stuff that really needs done.

Dumdum - sorry you have the grollies, not great - I hope you feel better soon. Same with your toothache snowy - i know that hell only too well.

Filee - I hope that your maths test went well.

Love to all - Ed, hoochy, norks, CiQ, snowy, Vicar, and everyone else - keep on fighting ladies, we are getting there!

Ohh Ed you don't happen to know where i can find a knitting pattern for a chihuahua do you?

Useful place to look for patterns here

Your film substitute sounds good, CiQ I hope your DS isn't too upset.

Thanks snowy. I picked ds up and he said "mummy I dont want to go to swimming!" Yet again I catastrophised and was wrong...

Thanks lem and well done on dds room. I cant quite face dcs room! Did was the stairs wall down tho and it looks fab like I repainted! Avoiding your mum sounds very wise tbh

Well not doing so good this eve. Managed to pick myself up this morning after mindfulness book and pm school run was ok. Started loosing it about 5 and had to get kids to bed. All the old thoughts about being a bad parent are back. I'm also finding it harder now dd is that bit older she can see things arent right with me. So this eve i was thinking I should have finished things at the beginning of the year when I was so close. Sometimes it feels like its one step forward five steps back

Hi all.

Shattered today. First brownies back has taken it out of me. And. I spent about 4 hours spribg cleaning my lounge, and I'm still not finished.

lem I usually just google "knitting patterns chihuahua" and look at the images. I look at the ones that I like. Can take a while to filter through the ones that don't offer a free pattern but I find it worth it becolause I am essentially filtering on the way it looks straight from the start.

Thanks snowy and ed

ciq you always come across as a fantastic mum. My dd knows im not well it can be hard sometimes. Especially when she tells me to take a happy pill what im trying to say is everyone has bad parenting days be kind to yourself when is dh back? Are you due back at college soon?

Thanks lem feeling frustrated tonight and wish I could believe what you say. Dh back tomorrow eve, so need to do school runs and last out til 6. Kids really missing him - not used to having just me.

College back last week sep which will be good. Decorating dh and my bedroom this week, but now wondering if its right thing to do, rushing to make decisions about decor.. may try and email dsis and get her thoughts.

Sorry bit of a downer tonight. Ds has been hard work since starting yr 1. Its a big change and he's young in the year so hard to concentrate a whole day... he's difficult after school and very hard to get to bed. Think I need to give him a bit more attention as its been rather focussed on getting dd in without tears.

Hopefully once I get back into the term routine it will get easier!

hope your exam went well filee

just checking in to say hi to everyone else. My body clock is buggered....i cant seem to get off nights.

i seem to be so tired again during the day. i cant drag myself out of bed, but am feeling ok on the whole.
maybe i just need to accept my body clock is topsy turvey....shifts really dont help to get into any kind of routine.

Hi all, hope you are all okay, I feel much, much better now this weekend and Monday are over, mums gone which is a relief, exam is done and I am quietly optimistic about how I did.

Back to being a bit frantic about 'normal' things which I had missed actually!

Kids are fed and dressed this morning. I've got a nice morning at work followed by an afternoon and evening off... So should get at least some of the house into a reasonable state in that time!

I do have quite a big day coming up next Monday, it's the anniversary of the death of one of my little babies and also the day I start college, so a bit of a mixed day there... Trying not to think about it, just for a week or so.

Hope everyone else is okay, sorry I've not been reading or offering much support, I've just been so desperately busy and stressed but am feeling much clearer now.

Hugs

Fi

Lovely wallpaper, Ciq It's really pretty. Really good knitty website, Snowy, I still haven't started my scarf

Well done for the exam, Filee, sounds like a sad time for you

So strong of you, Lem to resist the lure of the computer - I'm getting well addicted to solitaire on my phone, probably not as bad as candy crush

Oh, I well remember the 'wired and tired' phases that little ones go through. School is quite tough for them sometimes, too.

When do you start, Ed ? Are you ok? Thinking of you (((hugs)))

Dh is in an MS relapse is on serious amounts of steroids and it's been tough. Yesterday I just wanted to sleep all day. Also been applying for DLA for him, so we had an ATOS doctor round the house on Sunday. It was ok, but it's all a bit horrible, and I was finding myself detaching and slipping into social worker mode. Not good.

Love to Vicar, and to anyone else reading.

Cosy up and have a good day lashings of and to keep us going

Just a quickie.

Some of you may remember that I haven't opened any mail since April.

Well I have started tackling it.

Today I have opened about half. The other half, which contains all the 'scary' letters from the bank, credit card, uni, student loans have been sorted into piles

I was shaking throughout but I have started.

Phew. I can explain how horrible it was

Oh ed that is just brilliant of you. I totally understand how difficult that is as I've been there what helped was realising that they are often just repeats and the only ones that need action are the most recent I still have alot of anxiety associated with letters but we open them all now. Its a great thing you are doing.

Hoochy sorry to hear about your dh :(

Had my haircut today and in a moment of madness went and signed up for some voluntary work. Just admin in a mental health support centre they all seemed lovely and will at least understand if I have a wobble

Thanks hoochy. I'm feeling better about the bedroom this eve - spent 2 hours in John Lewis looking at wallpaper and fabric samples and think I'm sorted. Just got to persuade dh!

So sorry to hear about your dh that sounds really tough. Hope he picks up soon and tgat you get a bit of a relax at some point.

ed thats brilliant

lem thats great about volunteering. Really good idea and I bet you'll get a lot out of it too.

Had good chat with counsellor about yest pm and eve stuff. Headache now so need to stop, but food for thought.

Hi everyone and hope snowy and dumdum are doing ok.

Yesss, Lem that sounds great I'm sure you'll love it.

I had a haircut today too- I'd forgotten the last appointment and felt really awkward But it's nice and makes me feel better.

Proud of you, Ed, hardest thing is just starting it. Are you doing a bit more tomorrow?

I have felt like just hibernating over the last few days, I seem to have gone back a few stages. Feel a bit pathetic. Nice to be able to admit it here...

Ed i get like that with mail, it really give me the anxiety itch. I hate it.

I really understand what you mean, its like ripping off a plaster and revealing a big pungent sore still beneath it. I hate opening stacks of mail :(

Today i spoke to my tutor about the maths exam and he said its great that i did it and is looking forward to me enrolling in a couple of weeks. I was just beginning to relax after the whole two weeks crazy maths thing and instead i found out that i have until 09.30 tomorrow morning to finish my NVQ2 in Health and Social Care otherwise its going to seriously start eating into my uni time.

So hectic... again.

I feel like i am in my very own special 'gone in sixty seconds' esq film where i just run about manically like a loon trying desperately to stop various different bits of my life falling apart while trying to achieve things that really shouldnt be possible.

Argh... Anyway, onwards and... well probably just onwards.

hi all.
ed you are making huge progress - you should be really proud of yourself

lem hats of to you too.

hoochy sorry you are having it rough - im psyching myself up for work again.
ive just made a complete arse of myself in the garage, i was convinced that the fuel pump had not reset to zero, argued the toss, then said i know how much it costs to fill my car, so went out to finish the job.
turns out i was wrong
feel a complete twat and had to apologise to the poor woman in the shop who i had just stood and argued till i was blue in the face with.
what a tool.

head feels all over again - worrying that this means i am totally losing the plot.
also had a terrible pain in the chest earlier - couldnt move, walk or breathe. had to go and lay down in the car and take bra off, felt sick and dizzy, pain was crushing but as it was centre of the chest i didnt worry too much, thinking if it was heart it would surely be to the left??...DH seemed completely unconcerned but when i spoke to a friend they said i should have gone to get checked out, so now worrying over that now too. it lasted about 20 minutes but left me feeling sick for a while afterwards. it wasnt panic - i was just shopping - feeling fine one minute, crushing pain the next.

Vicar - it still might be an idea to get checked out. Although it sounds like indigestion or acid reflux rather than anything serious, but crushing pain with nausea should be checked xx