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[ThatVikRinA22]

6th thread folks....

keep talking/posting.

Good afternoon everyone.

Afternoon, snowy, how are you?

I am still tired after my hol - got back Monday and have been doing a lot of sleeping. Have to get ready for DM coming on Weds...

I'm tired and low, silvery, thanks for asking. I hope you catch up on your sleep!

arghhh wrote a post & it dissappeared :(

hello to everyone and (((((big bear hug))))) to all that need it :)

Sorry I've been off the grid i was kidnapped by one of close friends who decided to take my phone & switch it off! I was having really bad Mumsnet withdrawals which took me by surprise as I didn't think i used it that much

Thank you to everyone for your kind words and concern. it truly means a lot to me. Haven't read through all the previous posts so if I miss anyone then sorry.

Ed - sorry to read about your fall. hope your resting and recover soon. sending to best wishes

Vicar - how was the spa break? I'm sure you had a fab time.

Snowy - what anti-psychotic are u on? I take Quetiapine and when I first started it it completely wiped me out. Now it just gives me a headache.

Silvery - DM visit - how long she staying. Like snowy said hope u catch up on ur sleep and hope DM visit isn't too traumatic :)

Filee - glad the sertraline is working & it will definitely help with panic attacks as it did for me. I found it worked brilliantly.

Coloring - hope you managed to go out and do the shopping.

I've been having what I can only describe as brain zaps today. i keep feeling a pop inside my brain (bizarre). When the first one happened I thoughts that's it I'm dead :( but alas I'm still here LOL. I will mention this to my CPN when I speak with them. Again they will probably say I imagined it which of course I could have . Sometimes its so hard to distinguish between reality & non-reality.

oh gosh I've ended writing a long post [embarrassed] hope everyone else is doing well. Come join me for a and a chocolate and (sorry vicar hijacking your thread for the afternoon hope you don't mind

I used to take quetiapine but it didn't work well. I'm on clozapine now. I hope the zaps stop, DD32 CT coming soon.

it's a good thing CT is coming. do u feel like you can tell them exactly what is going with you?

I hope the zaps too :(

It was very difficult to talk today. New guy who says he's coming back tomorrow. They've changed the time though so they're not supervising my meds, so I'm not sure they should be doing face to face still.

they are probably erring on the safe side as your normal CPN didn't come around plus they have changes their minds about the meds supervision so all the more reason for face-to-face. that's what I think anyway I could be completely off the mark!

May I join? I'm not sure I'm in the right place but things aren't going too well and a friendly bunch of eyes and ears is always appreciated.

I was first officially diagnosed with depression after DS2 was born 3 years ago and have had 2 hospital admissions since then. I am on a rapid downwards slope again atm and can't face going back in, it just seems pointless.

I take loads of meds , so many I rattle! Saw psychiatrist on weds who changed them again. Just feel tired of it all, hate the kids, hate myself, hate life.

Argh. Rant swallowed down to burn inside and keep me awake all night...

hey all.
am weary tonight.
had a wonderful wonderful spa break but one overnight stay just went so fast....i am thinking of having another post surgery.

problem is i cant keep paying for dd to go and she wont look for a saturday job....

went back to work today - was illuminating to talk to the newest member of our group....fair to say i feel a bit better about how i feel and less isolated - its not just me.

i can just about cope with this because i know when i have worked 5 days i get 5 days off - no idea what ill do if the rumoured shift changes go ahead....but there have been rumours for the last 3 years so im taking not much notice.....

i need another spa break. it was delicious to just laze around in a dressing gown, get pampered and fed.
in the absence of a holiday for the past 2 years it was a lovely tonic.

Hello Norky - you are more than welcome - you have definately come to the right place! Its a bit crap when your meds get changed i understand but we will certainly be here to help you through it.

Don't have time for a proper catch up - its been a nice weekend with DP and DD - i am starting to see i really am blessed. Just need to kick this bloody illness to the kerb and get my life back!

Snowy - do take care of yourself lovely lady - you are so dignified in the face of all this, you inspire me.

Dumdum , sounds like a good weekend? She made you switch your phone off? The witch!!

Filee - well done for the festival - we do the stately homes things too, if im honest, i prefer that - i really must be old

Hope you are feeling less sore ed!

Hugs to all - vicar, CiQ, snowy, hoochy, everyone!!!!

Vicar - this new person will be a good ally i feel! Of course its not you - anyone who can't see what a wonderful, emphatic and decent human being you are needs a kick up the arse!

Welcome NBN! I'm glad you've found a like mind at work Vicar, I hope it helps you get through it. Nice to see you LEM

Welcome Norky sorry to hear you're having such a crap time, but this is a good place to offload and get support.

lem brilliant to hear you've had nice weekend and appreciating your family. Sounds lovely.

snowy you are doing so well hanging in there. Thinking of you.

dumdum hope those brain zaps have calmed down and you had a good time with your friend.

vicar any chance you can suggest to DD that she needs to contribute to another spa day... glad to hear you have an ally at work.

I've had a good day, despite stomach being no better. TMI alert - I always pick up mid-cycle with that oestrogen peak... church, sorted out shed, cooked roast chicken, picked up new tent and helped put it up started looking at paint colours for our bedroom (any suggestions for a lightish warm stone colour and a white with just a hint of the stone in welcome), cut kids nails, tidied and dusted bedroom! phew.

Three more days of school hols - can't believe it - its zoomed by. Going to try and make the most of the next three days. But have to start getting up earlier than 9am!

Hello silvery, hoochy, filee, ed and anyone I've missed.

Hello well the festival went well

It made me realise that as a family we have more fun doing other things but I also realised that I needed to reconnect with a couple of people and I did, made up with an old old friend who was so welcoming to me which was very sweet

Then I saw another old friend who was lovely with the boys and ended up coming back to ours with us, which was unexpected but cool.

So yeah pretty good going really. Have just taken my sleeping tablet so waiting to be knocked out any minute but feeling proud of myself for getting through the weekend.

DH is feeling better too after having ridiculous tooth ache for the last few days.

Hope everyone is okay, will catch up properly tomorrow with everyone.

Good morning everyone, I've just had a skim through the last few posts and realised I'm never going to catch up with everything so will try to get to 'know' you all going forwards!

We have 2 more days of holiday left here, while I'd love to duvet dive we are braving a NT house with friends today which the boys will hopefully enjoy.

Good luck to everyone else getting through the day without too much trauma.

have fun at the NT house Norky - we have had a summer of english heritage properties due to a very fortunate raffle win

I'm so livid with anger right now I could kill someone. so I finally gather the courage to ring my stupid Mental Health team for help & the stupid b*h on the other end me it's not an emergency! so I replied r u waiting for me to harm myself before u help me. the started back tracking & saying that's not whAt I meant. the told me she will email my Dr and get back to me before 5. I don't think I can hold out till that long.... I'm thinking of just going to a&e and speak to someone there! arggggggghhhhhhh ok rant over. hope u all r doing well.

sorry about so many typo's it's bcos I'm typing in anger!

DD yours is not the first story like this I've heard, although it usually involves the CT. Seems ridiculous that insight that you need help before something happens is taken as meaning you have lower priority, but in the sadly overstretched mh service this is often the case.

Hang in there [hug]

thanks silvery - I'm calmer after the hug, &

she didn't ring back so I rang them myself again as it was close to 5! they've booked me an appt on Thursday with another Dr not my usual one but at least it's an appointment I guess!

now I've got to try hanging in there till then

DD sorry to hear you are having a horrible time at the moment. I haven't ever suffered from hearing voices, but can well identify with overwhelming thoughts and feeling completely out of control.

Our day out today went okay, no major panic moments although a few where I wanted to scream my lungs out into the sky (is that acceptable in deepest Kent?).

Does anyone have experience of sleeping tablets? I'd resisted them for ages but a few weeks ago was given some diazepam which did nothing at all for me, I still lay awake all night with anxiety problems. Psychiatrist changed to Zopiclone last week but still doesn't seem to work great, takes me hours to go to sleep, and if I wake up at all during the night then there's not natural drifting back off again.

Just taken one a while ago so we will see what tonight brings.

I take Zoplicone, it takes a while for them to work. Took one about 1/2 an hour ago and just going up to bed now.

I would take 2 if I was really struggling to sleep.

Just been down to the drs and they got my app

• appointment time wrong for my psychologist appointment that I have been waiting 6 weeks for. So it's at 1pm and I can't be there I will be on my way to Trowbridge.

So I just want to give up now. Nothing I do matters or makes sense. I bought a cable for 20 for my phone from the shop and I lost it in the car park. My husband won't sleep with me anymore. I am fat and unsure of myself I can't be around people. I have nothing and I am nothing.

From here? Nothing.