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6th thread folks....

keep talking/posting.

I feel a bit the same about teaching LEM - I have a primary ed qualification and have enjoyed working as a supply teacher in London Nursery Schools pre DC - some other experiences have been less encouraging though!
I think I like the idea of teaching more than the reality

• I always found 30 children quite a lot to handle on my own

It's a bit of a mad set up really when you think about it ?! Anyway, don't let me put you off Ed ! And good luck !

Thanks for your good wishes snowy - I'm quite looking forward to it all now (good to feel a little excited about something) - a bit daunted by the prospect as well though - you know family holidays and all that !

Hello all, I've been okay, worked a 10 hour day yesterday and have just been manic, still having some irregular bleeding from the sertraline but it's better than the alternative!

Things are falling into place for uni, have my first assignment and got around half way through it, hoping to do the other half within the next week.

I haven't helped myself much by taking on an nvq 2 in care at the same time, so trying to get as much of that finished as I possibly can before I go back.

Just can't believe how hectic life is right now...

Hi everyone.
Well, perhaps am making a bit of progress with iphonegate..... Will wait with baited breath. He (ds) is being needy at min and has needed money again....
I'm finding work difficult. Yesterday I was on a training day, chatted for 20 mins in the ladies with a cleaner, which kind if confirms that I can talk to most people. Then I go into class.... And am a total BillyNoMates. I went outside at lunch and went
For a cigarette to break the monotony , ( I never smoke during the day normally....) walked up to 2 colleagues, chatted for 30 seconds before they left me standing there alone like a lemon....it's really hard not to start taking the cold shoulders personally. I also got snide remarks as I was off last week with the tests....one colleague said she thought I'd had my surgery as I was off for 4 days.... Erm. My surgery is quite a big deal and I will likely be off around 12 weeks! When I tried to explain she walked away. No one has asked how I am or how the tests went. I feel such a loner when I'm there. It's really hard. I'd not had a day off in 6 months. - it's not like I'm off every week.
I also find it difficult to answer back. (Throwback to childhood I think). I just feel sad and alone at work. And anxious before I go again. Not relishing going back tomorrow.....

Sorry for whinging.

ED its brilliant news about the placement - I'm so glad things are coming together for you.

Hugs vicar It's good to have somewhere you can chat about things, it's not whinging. People can be nasty

I think quite a lot of people are really ungenerous to someone coming along and joining a little group eg. at work or at a party Vicar. I really think I'm much more aware and open to people on the side-lines, and don't get how cliquey and stand-offish some people are when it's me hoping to join them.
Am sorry you had no-one to talk to at work about your horrible tests.
You were so brave !
I'm sick of people not listening too, when I listen to them for hours !

its hard isnt it juggling
i tend to keep things quiet now, but when another colleague was off with an operation there was a collection and a card - i put into the collection but they "forgot" me on the card.

i feel like i dont exist.

I've just been posting on another thread about everyone hating workplace whip rounds!
Lots of unhappy posters on that for various reasons - we're all having a good moan about them over there !

Hugs and to everyone.

Hi have been in the Far West incommunicado, so have only skim read as tonight is first time have logged in. Amazing feats of endurance have taken place in my absence, and what's more there is all round to celebrate :)

good to see you back silvery
enjoy that

hope everyone is doing well.

i found out today that my "punishment" for being off sick last week with the tests was to not get to work the bank holiday......

and
more punishments like that please!

the feats of endurance I meant were carried out by you lot, I mean, not by me, the air here is extremely sopororific...

Good evening all.

I have had another good 24hrs.

I had such a fab evening with dtds last night. There was nothing on tv. I had no crochet hooks, phone nothing in my hand. We larked about. It was a very 'drunken' atmosphere but I didn't touch a drop. We all went to bed at 1am after painting each others noses with lipstick :o.

It felt good.

Lazy morning. Dtd1 mad us dinner in bed at 2pm .
This afternoon I have dip dyed dtd1s hair. We have picked blackberrys and made crumble. I have done some laundry. My kitchen is largely clear.

I am getting on top of this housework, slowly.

I have started to alter dtd2s school trousers.

'Friend' has asked to go out for the day on Monday. We will but I have stood up formyself and rejected her suggestions which I didn't fancy and offered mine (which is currently the favoured option).

If, at the start of tge holiday you had told me that we (as in the household) was going to have baked 5 cakes/puddings; completed about 8 craft projects, with several more close to completion; had a number of lovely days out without spending loads; anf most importantly that I have not, generally had an afternoon nap every day I'd have thought you were bonkers.

Feeling :( that there is less than a week of the school holidays left here.

Oh and I've started to crochet bambi. silvery glad you are back. I know you are a fan of my crafts so you will see my latest feat of endurance on my profile :)

That's good vicar Welcome back silvery!

You sound very productive, Ed

I'm feeling zonked, it's the new meds.

Hello guys may i join n chip in. Been having a terrible time of it last couple of days with hallucinations and well crappy voices! Was going to go for a walk but feel filthy & disgusting - dont want to leave my bed.

Family are really annoying me at the momemt - the general get of ur arse & do this n do that. Im just gstting angrier & angrier but don't want to talk to them about it either. I know their not psychic but they know i suffer from MH issues & yet they always seem to forget this. I just want to cry right now!

Sorry i didnt mean to mess up a happy place :(

Hello dumdum - glad you found us :) just on my way out - birthday trip to the soft play cenre!! Figuring i MIGHT be able to read my book.

Sometimes its a happy place, sometimes it is sad - the thing about this place it is about where we can be just what we want to be - we like to encourage each other during the happy times and support and offer hugs during the sad.

Don't always get instant replies here as its a pretty exclusive club - you are more than welcome of course xx Have a read through distraction may help! xx

Welcome DumDum! Have some

hi dumdum
im just whizzing in to say hi as i am at work in a bit....but thread is here for all - happy, sad, anything in between.
welcome!

Thank u all for the welcome & cake snowymouse

quick hello - i hope the bank holiday is being kind to you all. It was my birthay yesterday, we didn't do anything becuase DP is poorly but it was a nice day anyway, he spoilt me and bought me a radley purse - i have ALWAYS wanted one althoguh i dont think he knew that. I got upset though becaue it must have cost £££s and spending money is a massive anxiety trigger for me. Poor DP is still struggling - flu :(

Dumdum - i hope that things have improved a bit for you, i know how hard it can be re family. I have only told DP, although my mum knows she just doesn't get it but she has MH of her own. The weather seems to have improved today, did you get your walk? maybe you could try today? just stick a comb through your hair, wash your face and go and get some fresh air? Don't beat yourself up if you can't, thats the key i find, don't put pressure on yourself. Sorry i haven't been able to answer properly until now.

I had a nice meal out with my sisters. I'm really struggling at the moment, very tired and low now. I just want to sleep.

LEM - thnak u for the kind words. Ive managed to crawl out of bed today. Been spending time with little one just not had any streght to continue her potty training. Kept myself distracted by talking to samaritans well texting. Dont feel so tearful today thankfully cried it all out yday. Next im hoping to jump into a nice shower. Just gotta build up some strenght.

Snowy - meal out sounds nice :)

happy birthday lem belatedly!
and snowy glad you are getting out and about - meal sounds nice.

im now off for a week. (yay!)

had a tough couple of days, but on the bright side my supervisor reserved a job that called for my skills.....it was a child abuse case but he knew who to give it to. the job was sad, but i did my best and feel i did well, worked with out of hours social workers and got a good outcome while investigations are ongoing.

i was talking to a lovely colleague who unfortunately is going elsewhere for 6 months.
they said i definitely have something to offer this job, and that my supervisor gave me that job proved it. I am sad they are going for a while because they are the one person i can talk to and actually tell everything to without feeling judged. never mind. i hardly seem to be at work these days....
i am managing my workload well. I am getting things done that i need to do.
i have missed my meds today but have run out - though more to pick up from chemist - will go tomorrow.
going to enjoy the BH and my spa break with dd.....(actually cannot wait to just chill out and be pampered....going to take a bottle of wine and cake! bought a new swim suit so i can use the pool etc. )

had a bit of a kicking on another thread but feeling pragmatic about it. i cant see me coming off the sertraline any time soon.....i feel so.....balanced. never felt that before. I used to fret about leaving my 16 yr old home alone.... where as now i am able to manage those feelings (they still happen) but i can get over them. I used to panic if she got a bath without me being downstairs.....i really wasnt very well at all. its funny how you just dont see it until after wards when you are on the mend.

i do hope everyone has a nice bank holiday - ive worked all weekend but am off now until next weekend.

I can't stop crying