Not Driving Away!

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P1 splashing in the paddling pool and P2 having a nap. So pleased to be back and they are so pleased to be with each other again.

Can't believe we got to 1000 posts! You need to change your nn now too don't you wylye ?!

ooh - what type of G & B?

Just finished more ironing! What is it with me? All gone now and out the way,until the next load of washing..

Is there enough G&B to pass around? I have chocolate fingers here if anyone wants to trade.

My ironing basket is overflowing - do you fancy some more row ?

I have celebrations that Mr P gave me for my birthday - the snickers are definitely up for a trade....

All gone now sorry! Only had a few square left anyway. It was their Milk choc, sadly I ran out of the Creamy Milk last week

DH is away, and I really need to go to bed now, but also really need to do some very overdue work.... Gah! Can't decide! Haven't had supper either, have loafed about all day with DS so have no appetite.

Ironing? What is this madness you speak of?
I advocate giving things a firm shake and hanging them out carefully, we tend to only iron for weddings and similar events!

Perhaps we should begin your method of giving things a firm shake ltt

I hope you have had supper tonight too - how are you feeling? When has your DS got his first sessions at nursery - is it soon?

I'm trying to convince P1 that she wants to come to bed and have a sleep with me when P2 has her afternoon nap - it's not really working!! She is so tired and could do with it but alas, no! So, the celebrations were my source of energy this afternoon - soooo healthy! Those snickers are still going begging though....

Ooh I'll take your snickers... Supper had and feet up - knackered already!

DS starts preschool next Tuesday, just two mornings a week this term. I'm a bit nervous - just dreading him biting someone really!

Oh how I wish DS still napped... That'd be heaven.
Keep trying to persuade P1, you never know, she might crumble! Otherwise maybe try making P2s nap time film time? Then you can both snuggle upon the sofa every day and she might drop off by accident! :)

No thank you to more ironing, and yes please to celebrations! Taken a few choc fingers today, but still plenty left if you want to swap.

Tried the hard shake today, everything still looks really creased!

Like the film idea, though Pumble may sleep before P1!

Off to cry myself to sleep now, DD1 starts school tomorrow. I am going to miss her!

LongTail - he will be fine at pre school. Enjoy this week and remember, the biting may well not happen.

Well, the snickers are definitely available row

I can well understand the tears about dd1 going to school - the pumblettes are never going to grow up enough to go (they're staying my babies forever!). Think of how excited she'll be to share it all with you at the end of the day though (small consolation though at th

So that shouldn't have gone.... bloodyiphone

Where was I?!

Small consolation at the moment though I can only imagine.

The biting may well not happen ltt. He didn't bite either pumblette did he?

I'll report back on whether the firm shake works for me-I fear mr P's shirts will still need the iron...! And it's quite sweet watching p1 iron them on her ironing board!

Yes, I would be asleep before p1 if we watched a film....!

Good luck tomorrow row

Aw, I've seen so many 'first day of school' pics on Facebook today, they're so sweet! Hope she's excited rowrowrow?

Yeah, don't worry about the shaking - I suspect I have low standards of creasyness, as even ironed items look creased after they've been on me five minutes!
Whenever I do iron I get quite carried away and iron literally everything I can lay my hands on. It's quite therapeutic. :)

Good point, they escaped his gnashers didn't they! But he bit his friend the other day completely out of the blue, so it does worry me.

Hey Mrs Pumble - do give me a shout if you fancy another trip over this way eh? xx

How is school going row

Hi. DD1 went in beautifully day one, and i was so proud and happy, but she was so tired At the end, we had an awful evening. She was upset on the way to school on her first full day too, but has had two good days, and not too daunted by lunch.

I was upset because of the tantrums on the first night and that she was unhappy before school the next day. I hope that gets forgotten about. I knew she would be tired, just didn't anticipate how much that would translate to it being taken out on me.

DD2 goes back to playgroup next week, and then we can all find our new rhythm of the week, and enjoy our weekends.

How are you? How's your homework going?

So I've been hibernating from the thread because things have been so crappy and was waiting until things were better to post but now they are even worse

I just want to give up. I'm making the pumblettes life so awful and they are suffering so much because I'm such a crap mother. Turns out I don't need a list of what being a crap mother is-you just need to look at me.

And to top it all off-I now have to go and teach for an hour, first time since p2 was born and I'm sobbing uncontrollably and look a mess.

Oh deep joys.

So I've been hibernating from the thread because things have been so crappy and was waiting until things were better to post but now they are even worse

I just want to give up. I'm making the pumblettes life so awful and they are suffering so much because I'm such a crap mother. Turns out I don't need a list of what being a crap mother is-you just need to look at me.

And to top it all off-I now have to go and teach for an hour, first time since p2 was born and I'm sobbing uncontrollably and look a mess.

Oh deep joys.

Oh Pumble, I have been wondering how you are.

Imagine all those MNetters who were on your ast thread. remember the strength they gave you. Now take that strength, imagine all of them iing you a big squeeze and cheer, hold your head up high, and tell yourself this is a blip. You know you have to go backwards sometimes before you move forward again, and that is all this is. you will be moving forward again. Good luck teaching, and then after that, have a big Cuddle with your Pumblettes, who adore you and think the world of you. I bet you are not a crappy mum at all, you are just looking and remembering the crappy moments that everyone has in any week. Try and think of the magic moments too.

Be strong, we are right there with you.

So, how was the teaching, and how are you now?

Remember the things you can control to put you at your best for coping: eat well, rest lots, whether sleeping or not filling your evening with jobs, and if you can, exercise. A brisk walk in the park would do it.

Teaching was really good and made me realise how much I missed it. And it went ok which I m trying to remember is a positive.

Bedtime was chaos when I got home. P1 was totally distraught when I left and wouldn't let go so was very clingy and p2 just seemed a bit unsettled by it all. It made me not want to go again but on the other hand I know it's a good thing for us all (in my calmer moments).

Everything just seems so hard at the moment-not helped by seeing the in laws tomorrow which will be grim (especially as p1 has a stinking cold).

I'm doing shred every morning which I think is the only thing even vaguely keeping me going....p1 is getting rather good at it, especially her press ups.

Feeling a little more calm than I was earlier-it just suddenly got so bad I didn't know where else to turn. I really need to keep talking.

(Probably doesn't help that I haven't had cbt for ages due to me chickening out of appointment....)

So much more to say but going to try to grab five minutes sleep before the chronic insomnia kicks in (how can I get a good nights sleep?!)

Thank you thank you thank you

Glad the teaching was good. You are a woman of many different talents and elements, you are more than any single one of them. A mum, a teacher, a wife, a friend, a knitter, a etc, each one makes you a worthwhile, interesting, good person.

Keep talking, sleep well, and as for insomnia, do the opposite of what my DH does, he hasn't found the trick yet, and when you find it, let me know what it is.

I'm off to google shred now. May join you in the morning if I don't get scared off by what it is!

Evening Pumble,
So glad to hear you perking up a bit and v glad to hear you enjoyed teaching too - I typed out a reply earlier and had to attend to His Lordship mid post so lost it, but you sounded so low.
Row is right in everything she says, I'd stick it on a Post It on the fridge if I were you!

Reading your posts makes me wonder about the physical side of your PND - the chemical brain imbalance side of things I mean. Sometimes sheer willpower and counselling aren't able to boost you enough to recover, would you consider trying ADs in case they're able to help you get your balance back?

Always here if you fancy a RL chat too, you are very welcome.
Big 'ol hug (((())))

Row The 30 Day Shred is eeeevill I warn you! I wrecked my knees doing the jumping jacks wrong....
It's v effective tho, and you get quite caught up in it (if you don't break yourself). :)

I'm enjoying shred far more than I should-even level 3. Think it gets into your brain !

I had been thinking about ADs but my concern is what happens when you stop them - does life just go back to how it was? Maybe it is just a blip too-it's just been a pretty grim blip (a massive understatement!).

I'm planning on playing in law bingo again today -the only way to survive. The girls outfits will be criticised, what they eat, how p1 talks, the fact p2 doesn't like being held by strangers which they are, p1's shyness with strangers, our parenting style...there will be more im sure ill think of!

I'm soooo tired

How's school going row -all settled? How are you feeling ltt

Right, jumping jacks? Think I will try the easy ones first!

Hope the in laws are ok today. Keep thinking about ad's, the doctor can talk about what happens after the course. Can you go for a nap while the inlaws have the pumblettes??

And how if longtailedtit?