Hello everyone, I am back from Spain and glad that you are all still here.
The holiday was a great break, not a miracle cure but I love the sun and DP's family owns the flat where we stayed so minimal stress with no worries about picking up keys or deposits and cleaning etc. I relaxed more than I have in months and slept really well for the first time in weeks, and my concentration came back enough for me to read, which I have missed terribly. I had a couple of bad days, mostly due I think to me putting too much pressure on myself to have a great time. I really wanted to be a bit better so DP could really relax, but just ended up getting stressed and yelling at him, so it sort of backfired. 
Our flight out was cancelled due to the strikes in France though, which led to a day of me intermittently sobbing while trying to book us a new flight. We got out a day late in the end, so not too bad.
I did struggle with the airports- so many people and noise and bright lights and I just get stressed and start to panic. And I hate flying, and in this state was so much worse than normal, I sobbed through the last half hour of our flight home as there was awful turbulence, felt so pathetic but I just hated it.
I have got home, and reality has hit a little, with a pile of post waiting for me, financial stuff to organise and no food in the fridge. I am plodding along though, up and dressed today and have made a start on a few emails.