Have name changed for this!
I love my mum to bits & respect her & could not see myself ever surviving a day without her. she has always been my best friend & I always thought I could share anything with her.
I've recently had a mental breakdown due to various hardships in life but the most difficult being having to deal with memories re-emerging of my childhood sexual abuse. I've been self harming, having suicidal thoughts & hearing voices. I cannot speak about my abuse to my mum as quite frankly she would break down herself!!!
my brother has taken over the finances for me and is dealing with payments etc for me so that I don't stress over it. everyday this week my day has started with my stressing me over something. it could either her saying why have you given your cards to your brother why aren't you dealing with utterly yourself to when are you gonna start saving for the future??? everyday I've said the same thing "mum I'm trying to get myself better I don't wanna deal/think about any if that". it's like one day she will understand and the next she will forget about it. we've just had a conversation just now about something similiar and I finally spoke up and said "mum just don't talk to me about this stuff" she has of course taken it completely the wrong way and has walked off upset.
am I being really selfish and unreasonable???
sorry about the long moan :(