we were all in the bed, this is the 2nd thread....roll over! roll over!

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so we all rolled over and hellebelles told us to get our arses out of bed......

ive started a new one because there are only a few posts left on the old thread before it gets full.

nana ive described myself on the old thread just for you!

so.

nana hellesbelles mama ed silvery and basset and any one else who posted on the old thread or who relates to our experiences and wants to post on the new one....welcome to the new thread.

old one here

Morning snowy, when I was on quetiapine last summer it certainly helped me sleep. Are you feeling any better?

jayne yy to comfort eating and depression cycle - if I can get exercising (next thing for me tackle) it improves my mood and does help shift some weight.

Rolls into thread.

I have crashed AND I forgot andmeds day before yesterday AND I am poorly ill (horrible sinusy chesty heady cold) AND I have dcs for 10 days straight. This is going to be a rocky ride...

I was in bed until 3pm yesterday...went shopping...whipped around the lounge (the only part of my house xp sees).

I then bribed dcs to.unpack suitcase and shopping .

Didn't settle till 2 am. Was awake and confused and disorientated at 4am....went back off. Been awake since 8ish..but still in bed.

While it is on my mind...here is my must do list for today...sod a could do or should do...

Transfer money
Dtds lunch money
Motivate 3 children to do homework.
Iron uniforms
Put dark washing in (need pe kits dry by tues).

Unenthusiastic wave to all.

That sounds like a testing few next days Ed :(

Good luck with the must do!

I always seem to be on the cusp of a testimg few dsys...no wonder I crash and burn.

Back in bed...hoping dcs will let me nap.

No jobs done.

Hello all......this will be short because the bloody HM woke this morning and I am feeling really flat and miserable. It is a lovely spring day again here, which somehow makes it worse. I ought to go for a walk but scared I will meet someone I know. No motivation to do anything else. The DP (R) has gone on his usual Sunday walk with the Ramblers - about 12 miles! Next week is half term so my son and dil will be off (both school teacher) and DGD and we usually do something together so hope the HM clears off back to sleep.

Ed good to hear from you, but as I've said before you do set yourself big goals and then crash as it has all been too much for you. YOu also seem to forget to take your meds on frequent occasions - oh god sorry I sound like I'm telling u off...........don't mean to just thinking of you being more realistic about what you can and can't do. Physical illness is also going to make you feel worse of course.

You're sounding a bit better Snowymouse

Ah well I must try to get out in this sun, or maybe just mooch around the garden which is relatively small but all muck after the winter.

nina get that tranq gun out - ready, aim, fire! I managed a walk today - twas an effort but worth it, sunny here too, hope the sun shivels HM.

Now I need a shower but am putting it off by MNetting

ed I keep thinking if only I could get up to date - a thought pattern which doesn't help. As Flylady says though 'you are not behind! jump in where you are.' After a day mostly in bed yesterday, I did spend 2 hours hoovering v late last night.

Oh no NanaNina, I'm sorry the HM is raising its ugly head :( I hope it goes away soon. Enjoy your shower silvery

I know what you mean nana

Thing is I often don't set these goals for myself. They are set for me by my life as a single parent.

I admit I dont help myself by leaving everything to the last minute...causing goals to mount.

Problem with my meds is that I dont have a morning routine to include them in. I don't hsve that first cup of tea etc. I forgot this time as we were travelling. Usually it is when I don't get out of bed in the morning....

I'm back! wonderful day yesterday - made a new friend.
A bit unsettled and weepy today (big fat lie - I was sobbing!) but still got a lot from it and feel rested.

Minsteracres do all sorts of different retreats vicar including individual retreats for prayer and contemplation. it doesn't hurt that the setting is beautiful

Oh ed I know the pain of missed medication. It's like having the side effects back. I think you're right to sleep through it while your daughter's are out.

I defo comfort-eat. If I'm tired or bored or lonely or - well, I don't need a reason! on the plus side, it used to be fags and booze I comforted myself with so my general health has improved!

A very wise woman said yesterday, "don't diet because you hate yourself, diet because you love yourself".

Previously, I've tried to remember a quote from friends, "it's just food, not love"

nina hope hm is dozing by now.

hello to all

oh and I was late - the world did not end

I was lent a hymn book

I walked loads - sometimes with a group, sometimes alone, it was fine - it was wonderful!

at meals I sat wherever I sat and had conversations with people I hadn't previously had a chance to get to know because of sitting with my friends.

all the things that worried me were nothing

That sounds great HB, I'm glad it went so well :)

Me again - mood slightly lifted. Had a cry on DP when he got back from walk. I have been doing "adult colouring" this afternoon - I get the books from Amazon and use really good quality felts. I know it sounds childish but it does distract me. Oh won't be buying from Amazon any more.

Where do you buy these HM tranquilliser guns SPC I've looked all over the internet and can't find any!

HB there you are u see - things went so much better for you, but I think with vulnerable folk like us the anxiety kicks in and makes everything worse. Glad you had a satisfying time. I am an atheist but I respect others' rights to their own beliefs.

Not looking forward to tomorrow as rarely have just 1 bad say. Hope you've had a nice "horsey" weekend Vicar and are feeling the benefit.

I'm glad you're lifted slightly NanaNina, and I hope the HM goes away soon.

a very quick one from me....im so so tired!

snowy - you sound a bit brighter - keep taking the meds.

nana - so sorry HM reared his ugly head again....take comfort in the fact he will go back to sleep...its when! i hope its soon for you.

silvery - i could so do with some duvet time - im getting shattered.

ed - its easy to forget the meds - i did yesterday. i remember when i start to shake really badly. Try and break the coming days down so it doesnt feel like such a huge block of time that you have the kids etc. Sounds like you maybe just over did it a bit with the holiday - just think in a few days you will be all back to normal, feeling well, kids back to school, time to unwind if you need it. hang on in there.

helles im so glad you enjoyed your retreat - i got loads of advice from izzy (of the relationships board fame!) about retreats - i just havent got off my butt and booked one.

im shattered and off to bed soon - i have spent another entire day at the stables - arrived at 11.30, helped with kiddie lessons, had my own lesson, then spent the afternoon mucking out. Left when the yard owner left at about 6.45pm.....

cant lie in tomorrow as builders back....should be finished by weds i hope , i really do need a bit of a relaxation day - tomorrow DD wants to go to shopping centre - so will need to get dressed etc...

tuesday is pony club day at stables and ive said ill go in and help out then i have hospital appt for follow up to my endoscopy

weds also pony club day so going in to help out.

thurs and fri i will have off. Sat and sun will be back to the stables....if i can and im not so knackered that i cant move.....going to the stables give me a sense of purpose and i get my ipod in and just wander off doing my thing around the ponies who all seem to rather like me (the feeling is mutual) we are all very friendly with each other - i get lots of horsey kisses and cuddles, even the bad tempered little pony seems to get on with me....which is nice. i feel very at peace there. im trying not to think about it coming to an end when i go back to work...i need to ask riding instructor if i can still go down on some of my days off....

anyway. enough of me and my waffle....

Waves to anyone ive forgotten name check....brain feels fuzzy and im so exhausted (but physically tired - which feels quite nice)

gnite all. x

Oooh I have passed Minsteracres - it looked lovely - this was way back when there was a YTS scheme there I think.

After a shower I felt reinvigorated - as always - and as always have made a resolution to have more showers. We shall see

Been thinking of you all over the weekend and so sorry some are having a rough time still .

Dont know if this will resonate with anyone and it isnt an excuse ...sometimes I just cant write . I feel stuck . The empathy is there but no words come as I sit at my ancient PC . Nothing of any value anyway and it sounds stilted . I love the written word and the closeness it can bring . IF i try to force it it seems unhelpful and trite .

Gorgeous sunshine today here . Like Nana I pottered around my garden which is a shambles . I so need to get out of this inertia and start moving . Just need a bomb up my butt [very large one butt I mean ].

Am lucky that I am not going through the acute stages that so many of you are dealing with . And with children to boot . Single parents . So hard . so hard .
I am lucky to be reasonably stable enough now after enduring the same as you all over the last decade and before . Life worries have triggered my latest setback so there is a sensible answer to this latest bout for me .

Hope I can support you and tell you that recovery and maybe some life adjustment and/or acceptance will make life kind again . Not that I know . bugger all actually .

sleep well ladies and hope you have deep sustaining rest with lovely dreams

hi basset im glad you are still here though - even when you cant write anything.

sometimes i feel the same - the sentiments are all there its just getting them across in words....

im so exhausted i really should get to bed....my dreams are just plain weird at the minute though. really really vivid but so odd!

Bath ,bed and nice book [or horse mag ] for you Vicar ........get hot water bottle or dog to cuddle if Dh is at work .

thank you for kind words
and yes to the weird dreams . our poor minds unscrambling while we sleep eh?
Some mornings I am more exhausted by the emotions and physical stuff I have done in dreamland than real life . Wtf is that about brain ??
Am off now myself with a very fluffy chick lit book with the borrowed dog to warm my feet . He is so very happy.
Night night all .

I've just done the last of the must dos....well I cheated and didnt iron school uniform...but it is supposedly non iron.

Well bedtime....must set my alarm....I will catch up with my thoughts....thats what im struggling to do at the moment....and I can't move forward until I can process those thoughts....which I can't do until I get some time on my own which won't be till Tuesday....

Night all...

How did everyone sleep? I hope everyone got some rest. Level 2 already here, the builders are back in today. I'm waiting to hear what the CT's plans are.

Well, I've done my assertiveness for today. On Friday the builders blocked up my shower by rinsing off their mop in it, asked them to sort it out as soon as they came in.

Slept rubbish.

Wasn't tired until 2am.

Woke several times and was awake just after 7am.

Out of bed at 9ish...dd3 has inset day so I'm npt on my own.
Done dd3s homework with her.
Bathed and nity grittied dd3.

Got to whizz round and tidy this place that looks like a whirlwind has blasted thru...and get a shower before 2pm. May have impromptu brownie leader meeting to accomodate later. ..

Mondays are my busy day...brownies etc.

Tomorrow will be a duvet day....

level 3 despite half term :) have already phoned Ikea to sort out my botched delivery (one of my parcels were swapped with someone else's) and embarrassed myself for nearly vomiting while the tooth mould was setting.

Sorry your sleep was so poor, ed Good luck with all of today's tasks.
I'm sure lots of people gag during dental treatment, I did when I had a root canal treatment. Congrats on level 3 though HB

I think the builder is taking a door frame out today, going to be noisy and dusty.

just popping in to say "hello" and hoping everyone is ok...very very tired again and forgot meds today...am desperate for a lie in and a quiet day.