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we were all in the bed, this is the 2nd thread....roll over! roll over!

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ThatVikRinA22 · 02/02/2013 01:26

so we all rolled over and hellebelles told us to get our arses out of bed......Smile

ive started a new one because there are only a few posts left on the old thread before it gets full.

nana ive described myself on the old thread just for you! Smile

so.

nana hellesbelles mama ed silvery and basset and any one else who posted on the old thread or who relates to our experiences and wants to post on the new one....welcome to the new thread.

old one here

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EdwiniasRevenge · 15/02/2013 15:07

Well I am home.

Home on the thread and home in my house. :)

I will try and catch up later...and I will summarise my self analysis for you nina.

Right nowbibam waiting for xp to collect dcs. I have a thimping headache and shoulders kill...and I was soooo sleepy driving home. More sleepy than I have ever been driving...it wasnt nice. Dcs were feeding me rowntrees to keep me awake.

So...right now...I am heading to bed. I will catch up with you all properly later.

SnowyMouse · 15/02/2013 17:10

I'm not in a good place, I thought that they wouldn't be concerned about my attempts, or I wouldn't have shared them. I wonder how they distinguish serious attempts from non-serious ones, it's confusing as I know a number of people who don't get hospitalised for attempts or even actual things such as taking overdoses (not something I would do).

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ThatVikRinA22 · 15/02/2013 18:47

hi everyone.

snowy sorry you are having a hard time right now - but i think it is the right thing to tell the CT everything - honesty my mean having to face things you dont want to face but i firmly believe its probably the best policy. Give the meds a chance and make sure you keep talking to them (and us if it helps)

ed glad you are home - update when you are ready.

im shattered. really really tired, i am desperate for the builders to go - they are all really nice but i cant go back to bed at all because they need water and power and cuppas - plus the noise means i cant sleep anyway if i do manage to go back to bed for a few mins.

im at the stables all weekend (while the builders arent here) and then i am helping out for a couple of days next week for the pony club days. By then the builders should be finished i hope.

GP signed me off for another 4 weeks, but its flying so fast. im so anxious about going back. Anyway - going to go and watch some TV with DH and try to get to bed early tonight and drink less wine.

i feel tired, and drawn. im trying to tell myself that if i have to go back to work i will get my horse as a reward. Im still waiting to hear about the NHS job. Im going to scan the jobs sites again on monday.

hope the rest of you are ok.....

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SnowyMouse · 15/02/2013 18:53

Thanks vicar, I'll try, at least the weekend should mean less pressure. I hope that you can get some rest soon, you sound very busy. Enjoy the tv and the wine!

NanaNina · 15/02/2013 19:37

Glad you are home Ed

snowymouse I am assuming that you are talking about attempts to commit suicide. As vicar says it is essential that you are honest with the pysch and CT team. You have obviously been honest but are now maybe regretting being honest because they are saying any more attempts and you would have to go to hospital. I don't think you should be regretting it, as they can only help if you are honest.

I don't think it's quite as simple as deciding which attempts are serious and which non-serious. I'm only guessing but I think they would have to consider people on an individual basis in relation to their specific mental illness, the severity of it - the willingness (or otherwise) of engaging with the CT etc.

I know you hate all this snowymouse but the medics are trying to keep you safe and that is really important. I don't know how old you are, but I think of you as being quite young and you have a life ahead of you. I once read that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. OK you might not feel your illness is temporary (I often don't feel that mine is) but you aren't always going to feel this way.

Am I right in thinking the depression is worse than the psychosis. You say you don't want to change your ADs till you know whether the current ones are working. How long have you been on them - because as you know they take a week or so to kick in. Do they want to change your AD.

You are a very caring person snowymouse and always ask about others but you are important as well, and we want to know how things are going for you. My sense is that you don't say how bad things are for you and under estimate the affect this illness is having on your life. Sorry I don't want to put pressure on you because it seems you are a very private person, but we all have to be honest to each other on the thread and that's why it's so important to reach out to each other. I'm reaching out to you NOW!!!

Glad you got signed off for another 4 weeks Vicar but you are right, they do fly by. Hope the horses provide you with some fulfillment over the weekend.

SnowyMouse · 15/02/2013 19:56

I'm in my 30s, so I suppose that could be considered young-ish.
At the moment the depression is the problem more than the psychosis, you're right...I think it's harder that way around, because my mood being low means I don't try to fight the voices as hard. They might change the AD if I don't start to respond to it. I think this weekend may involve me getting my head around how serious it is now. :(

Thanks for reaching out, hugs.

SnowyMouse · 15/02/2013 20:05

Yes, today's events are hitting me, this is difficult. I think I'll go with taking the anti-psychotic early, as suggested as I can't increase the dose yet.

TheSilveryPussycat · 15/02/2013 20:19

30s is deffo youngish Wink [old gimmer emoticon]. It can take quite a while - years even - to learn how to manage a mh condition, and although meds are better these days than they were imho, there is still quite an element of trial and error in finding meds and strategies that help. I have no experience of voices, but imagine it must be very trying to say the least.

SnowyMouse · 15/02/2013 21:27

I take it back, they've brought out the increased meds for me to start tonight Shock Hmm

I hope everyone's ok.

Jayne266 · 15/02/2013 21:40

Does any ones depression link to them comfort eating? And them being overweight which starts the circle again.

I think I need to get some help am only young and obese and have suffered depression for years, but I have found recently the weight becoming a issue and setting off the depression.

I don't feel I can talk to anyone as I am surrounded by people who don't understand what depression is ( except when they break a nail and suddenly have it to).

Anywhere/anything that people have found useful?

SnowyMouse · 15/02/2013 21:44

I'm fuzzy headed now, perhaps a good thing for sleep!

EdwiniasRevenge · 15/02/2013 21:45

snowy.

I would take it that they are doing their best to keep you at home.

vicar you may be exhausted but think of the positives....you have gone a weekish without daytime nap.

Is it me or is helles awol? Or is that because the bed has been empty this week and there has been no one to drag out? Waves to everyone else...nana silvery mama snowy and everyone else that hasn't posted recently or I have fogotten.

As predicted I have crashed. My suitcase is in middle of lounge floor. My swimminv kuts are still in kitchen. I am in bed resting and avoiding the mess and have been since 3.30. I am about to get up for something to eat tho...and to crochet a pigs trotter if my tremor will let me (don't ask).

I will summarise tomorrow...it helps me to review and process and move forward so I dontind posting nana. I am just far too flat and exhausted to put it together coherently now...oh and I don't thimk you'll cope with my dodgy typing.

Waves to all. Hugs to all. It feels to be back home on the bed yhread nana...its cozy under the shared dyvet :)

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ThatVikRinA22 · 15/02/2013 22:06

hi to jayne - i think there are obvious links between depression and eating issues - or in my case alcohol - i drink far too much.

i wish i could help - i just have a nagging voice in the back of my head that is getting louder - i now feel more uneasy, and im comforting myself with the fact that this is how i ended up stopping smoking....the voice got louder, and in the end i listened. i suppose it depends how deep rooted problems are - have you had counselling?

ed - yep youre right - where is helles?

im rubbish at keeping track of who is around. i hope everyone is ok - helles - come in helles....

i will need her next week when bed calls.

snowy - do listen to nana - she is an old hand with this lark and very wise....
waves to everyone else, if i name check everyone i am bound to forget someone....so hugs and love to all and hope you are all ok.

talking of bed i need to go now if DH has stopped snoring.....
nite all x

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HellesBelles396 · 16/02/2013 06:52

freaking out - going on retreat without anyone from my church (never happened before) and i'm paralysed with fear:
what if I'm late?
what if I'm early?
who will I sit with for meals?
I didn't read the programme til just now and don't have the right hymn book
I haven't pulled out a photo of myself that I don't like because only just now read the programme and don't print photos of myself
I'm getting furniture delivered while I'm away and the house is a mess
I have candle wax on my work trousers
who will I walk with?

HellesBelles396 · 16/02/2013 06:54

sorry - Hi everyone - I started work on my dissertation a week or so ago so have been trying to avoid mumsnet.
I see new names - hello! sorry you have this horrid disease but glad you're here.
I will read back a bit next week and see how everyone is but can someone say something that will get me out from under the duvet please?

SnowyMouse · 16/02/2013 08:16

Good morning all Smile

Could you do some CBT on your thoughts about the retreat? There will be others that have come by themselves, and I've found that christian (small c) behaviour is prevalent on retreats.

SnowyMouse · 16/02/2013 08:49

I am hugely tempted to go back to bed... Blush It is the weekend after all.

TheSilveryPussycat · 16/02/2013 10:44

snowy you can have a nap. helles up you get!

Feeling better as dentist trimmed denture yesterday...

SnowyMouse · 16/02/2013 11:03

I'm glad you're feeling better silvery I didnt go back to bed in the end.

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HellesBelles396 · 16/02/2013 18:17

sorry to have not replied by now. played s club and r Kelly til I danced my way out of bed. made it here late. but two others are on their own so have sat with them at meals and went to more organised events this year.Smile

SnowyMouse · 16/02/2013 19:25

I've seen CT again, they want me to do the day hospital still. I foresee that occurring tomorrow too, I did explain about all the pressure involved in it. I am staying safe.

Are you at the retreat, HB?

SnowyMouse · 16/02/2013 21:02

Back to the drugged up feeling here, hope everyone's survived the day.

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ThatVikRinA22 · 16/02/2013 21:16

hi everyone - sorry not been around today.

helles i really need to do a retreat but possibly one that does meditation, i am quite jealous of you going on yours - enjoy it. You will be fine. Smile

im absolutely shattered so going to bed in a min - been at stables all day and really done some hard labour today so am hurting and tired.

snowy do stay safe - sorry you feel drugged up but i hope you start to gell better soon.

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SnowyMouse · 17/02/2013 08:39

Good morning all. I hope everyone slept well, I did a little better, hopefully the meds are helping.