we were all in the bed, this is the 2nd thread....roll over! roll over!

[ThatVikRinA22]

so we all rolled over and hellebelles told us to get our arses out of bed......

ive started a new one because there are only a few posts left on the old thread before it gets full.

nana ive described myself on the old thread just for you!

so.

nana hellesbelles mama ed silvery and basset and any one else who posted on the old thread or who relates to our experiences and wants to post on the new one....welcome to the new thread.

old one here

Have fun and just enjoy the present moment. Everything else got left at home.

I have struck one thing off my list :) and called my grandmother which is always lovely.

to all

mama im really glad its a useful thread, the more the merrier! now ive gone over a page and i cant remember who is who or who said what either so i will just do a big communal wave to everyone!

ed you might have to have a lie down after the driving!

to all

mama im really glad its a useful thread, the more the merrier! now ive gone over a page and i cant remember who is who or who said what either so i will just do a big communal wave to everyone!

ed you might have to have a lie down after the driving!

oh - so good i posted twice! sorry guys - no idea what happened there but you arent seeing double....

im phoning doc tomorrow - she gave me permission last week when she said just phone and we can back date it if need be....too much happening today with builders and im tired so ill make a concerted effort tomorrow....
promise.

I'm not a big fan of tv, but the CRHT suggested it. I prefer listening to audio. I hope your headmonster stays asleep NanaNina.

Good luck with all of your tasks, mamakoula

Enjoy it ed!

Good luck with the doc, Vicar

havent been on for a few days, not had a good weekend, am sitting waiting in gp's waiting room, a bit nervous.

Sorry to hear that Stevie. I had been wondering as you were not on the thread for a few days.

I hope the GP appointment is helpful.

How are the DD's doing? I remember one had stomach problems and the other a nasty chest infection. Are they young?

in theory, whatever you like as anything you do other than sleep could be seen as a healing activity. in practice, work are likely to be snippy if you are out raving, going on loads of day trips or holidays. when off I initially slept all day, then did pottering (bit if gardening, etc) and graduated to a few hours a day in the gym and pool (which was advised by the gp). work knew but I was discreet nevertheless as I knew there would be people, with no understanding, who would whinge about it and try to cause trouble.

that's what I see now when colleagues are off with anxiety/depression. the ones facebooking about going away for the weekend or out with mates are the ones that annoy everyone (including the boss!) while those not posting on facebook could be doing the same but no-one minds.

i think at the start of my being signed off i did very little but we still have to live, i go to the stables at weekends and walk the dog daily - but i have also not been on FB since november when i was signed off. i do very little but what i do do is therapeutic and helpful.

Hey how good is this thread? . So many of us sisters in arms [and any brothers for that matter . This hell knows no gender ] Hi from me to you all .
Ed so hope that this break will give you good fun and allow yourself to disengage when you need to . Distraction while away with others can be useful as long as one of the group know you well and encourage you to nap when you need to .

Vicar I love your updates re your riding lessons . It proves to me that you so have not lost your zest for life or motivation to make the most of it . You sound so at home there . Going to say here and may be so wrong so forgive me ...but the meds are working in the sense they are giving you calm to evaluate what has happened to you . Also time away from work to rest and nap and ponder what you do next .
Personally I believe the workload and crap you have to deal with is making you ill Vicar . Not you .

Shakin empathise with being nervous at docs . How are you feeling now ?

Unfortunately re sick note . I was told to always make sure I went out to stop agrophobia which was a huge issue with me . So yes although on the sick I went out each day . Outside was hell always as home is so comforting . My manager encouraged me to keep in touch with work and call in at lunchtimes to chat . Got me used to getting the old routine of getting there and engaging . Quaked in my shoes but it was helpful.

Waves to all

just want to send post to Nina .....
So hope the headmonster is leaving you in peace.
re knitting ..........it soothes. Was very interested that you knit for charities .
I make blankets for the dog and cat home .
Repetitive hand creative work is so good for us isnt it ? Gets the brain waves in calm mode for me .
You mentioned to day you baked walnut cake Nina for a birthday .
The headmonster tries to destroy you .but it doesnt take away your love and kindness for others. No way . And it wont get its way with you either .
Got book on crochet now and would like to do stuff for mumsnet woolly hugs .
So not there yet . Fog brain

basset - i was also told to get out daily to avoid becoming a hermit who then was scared to leave the house too - was told this by my GP.

and i believe you are right about the job - i just want to make sure and not shoot myself in the foot but i think in my heart that its the problem for me - that said occupational health talked about my "emotional tank" being full and it being a culmination but i have coped with everything before the job....maybe it was just one more thing but the fact is its the only thing i can actually change - i cant change my past, i cant change my sons disability, i cant change the fact my kids needs me, but i can change the fact that im always tired and stressed and anxious. i can change that. i wasnt like that before the job, or if i was - i still managed to hold it all together.

i think im going to ask about going part time while i search avidly for something else. Ive had an acknowledgement about the NHS job i applied for but had a 'thanks but not thanks' for the local one i applied for....

hi to nana and stevie i hope your appt went well - i was too chicken to phone up today.
procrastination is my middle name at the minute.

hi to everyone else. x

Unfortunately I asked the crisis team to leave my house today. On reflection this wasn't wise.

Good night all.

Snowy
can you talk to us here lovely ? why do you think this ............talk to us .
no judgement or any thing that might hurt ok ?
Hold on .

hi snowy - maybe you could give them a call back if you feel you need to speak to them?

or is it something else thats bothering you? Do you see the same person each time?

dont suffer in silence.

I'm ok bassett thanks. I'll have to wait til tomorrow to see if there are consequences :( it's very hard for me to let strangers into my house, but that doesn't mean I was right to ask them to go.

Thanks vicar for your input too. I'm sure ill get some resolution tomorrow

I totally understand the instinct to tell a stranger to go from my safe place [my home] . The team will get why you feel as you do .they will Snowy.
no one will be judging you my love . you stay safe tonight ok ? sending good thoughts and support to you .

snowy - tomorrow is a new day - how about trying to tell them how incredibly hard you find it to have strangers in your home - i am absolutely sure you are not the first and will not be the last, they will understand.

for tonight push it from your mind and try not to worry - im sure they will not be giving it headspace. x

The trying to sort out what is the job /life conundrum is beyond baffling for us struggling Vicar I think . Somehow we arrived in this bloody awful place and wonder why we feel so awful juggling our lives .
I always ranted what came first .The egg or the chicken? Both family and work place stress on us . It is the balance of juggling this that can make us ill. It takes a long time to tip us so sad .

I truly understand the not shooting yourself in the foot feeling . No one here can advise you really re your work . So pleased that you are talking on pc forum and have others who have been in the job . They know .

Hopefully OCC Health will come up with a part time /graduated return to work
Give it a go ? But keep close to your inner soul and heart that if you hate it so much it is making you ill .......bugger that for a life !!!
not worth it for your sanity and family .
You have lots of skills now to give somewhere else and the training and experience you have is their loss and another workplace gain .
I am always dressed in the morning [stage two ? ] .......same old skirts with elastic waist denim . no makeup .......dont look in mirror . Got to change and find the motivation to diet and exercise .

waving to all

Hi everyone, gp appt went well, I am very fortunate to have a very good gp, he listened to me gave me citalopram and referred me to psychologist, I was very honest said I just wanted the panicky feelings to disappear, my confidence is very low just now because of it and I want to be good at my job, happy and not unconfident, am going to wait till dh comes home before I start the meds tho, as I remember the side effects the last time as being not very nice but he is home on Monday. I just worry that when I start the meds I am we'll enough to work.
DD's are on the mend thank you mama dd1 (8)was back to school today and dd2 (4)is coughing a lot less.

ua the last time I was off with anxiety and stress 7 years ago I did day to day things shopping etc, occasional meal out with dh but that was about it, the thing with this illness I suppose is we need to build our confidence up again socially so I would definately go with your friend but as vicar and hb says dont advertise the event on fb, we had a works thing the last time I was off too and lots of people were saying I should go but I didn't feel right doing that.

snowy :( hope you are ok, maybe ask them if you can meet at their base if you don't want them in your house, I am sure they would understand.

vicar I often feel if I left my job I would be a lot less stressed, but I really don't know what else I would do, when dh is away and I drop the girls off on my way to work I feel different, like I am free for the day then the work problems kick in. Btw am at your time at the stables, if I knew my allergies wouldn't be too bad I would be back like a shot, very therapeutic.

ed hope you are having a good time.

Good evening.

Sorry that everyone is having anxieties at the mo.

I am shattered. Absolutely shattered....but boy this bed is comfy...and the pillows...wow...dd3 is running a temp and headache...I might need to convince her to have a duvet day tomorrow with me (only joking)

Hello to everyone!

Bassetfeet thank you so much for your post and your kind words. They mean a lot when sometimes when the HM is on the rampage I just feel I'm no good /worthless etc. I know that's a symptom of depression but it till hurts that I feel like this. Knitting- yes very therapeutic, especially as have a niece who loves hand knitted clothes for her baby (just 4 months) and it's good that they're small so I can finish them! could never knit anything for a n adult.

snowymouse I'm sure (as others have said) that the CMHT know that you are anxious about letting people in your house. However as you say it wasn't the wisest thing to do, but you can always apologise tomorrow. Is there anything that would make their visits more bearable - how long do they stay - wondering if it would help to agree a times they will leave - I'd think 30 mins max. I had a lovely CPN and she used to stay a couple of hours, but the time flew by (she liked my home made scones too!)

Wondering how Edis!

Hope everyone is as ok as they can be. Sorry not able to reply to everyone, and I think we all understand that it's because we can't remember who said what. I "met" bassetfeet and snowymouse on other threads, so always remember them, and Vicar and Ed stick in my brain, and HB.

However sending masses of empathy to everyone