Just started on Citalopram

[Nanabana]

Have read old threads about side affects and quite worrying, but will give it a go. Hope it kicks in soon

I havent had a cup of tea since i started on this just don't fancy one i am expecting massive weight loss after all this

ColouringIn and Bunny, thank you

I can't tell you what a difference it makes to have this thread as an outlet, and to not feel so alone with what we're struggling with x

ColouringIn hope you are having a good day. And hope the doctor's appointment goes well.

Bunny and Cremeegg the first few weeks do affect appetite. But it definitely returns (which is good or bad depending on your perspective )

Glad sleep was better for you both :)

Bunny I think I'm around week 5 or 6 (I'm crap with dates) so I should be doing better I think. That's why GP upped my dose a bit on Monday. She said what I'm experiencing is very common, and it's a matter of getting the dose right. She said the fact I had felt better, then dipped, was a good indicator that it's the right drug for me, but just not the right dose.

So if anyone dips at some point into the process, try not to panic, it may just be that your dose needs adjusting.

Have walked the dogs and feel much better. So pleased to hear I'm not alone in my Skype fears! I love the PC failure idea ColouringIn, will be using that I think! I think the dose increase has definitely had more of an effect than I thought. Had really vivid dreams last night.

Hello to everyone else reading too. Hope everyone is having a stress-free day x

A1980 am I right in thinking you stopped taking the ADs due to feeling sick? I really hope you can find the strength to go back to the doc to look at the options? I know it's so hard in the short-term, but they really will help you. You can feel better. I so feel for you. Alternatively, you could call Samaritans like ColouringIn suggested. You can get help and you are strong enough to do it xxx

Hi citalo really pleased to hear you feel better for walking the dogs Doc was good thanks she seems to be taking me a bit more seriously/I'm being more honest with her. She is upping my dose and I'm back in 10 days which I'm pleased with.

But aaaarrgh now tho. Had psyched myself up to meet a good friend from where I used to work, with her baby for lunch. My OH had told her I wasn't well cos we know she's cool. Sat down in cafe to have school ring - DD8 not well can I come and collect her! I did tho say I couldn't get there for 30 mins so had a brief lunch. But am very disappointed about lunch and anxious about DD - she has missed a lot of school this term what with broken leg and struggling to cope with her grumpy teacher. I think she does have a slight temp so maybe she actually has a bug today. But also means that she'll prob be at home 2moro and I was hoping to go to my painting class God it's a slog at the moment! DP home at 5.30 today - I think I will counting the minutes!
Hope everyone else is having an OK day x

Everything has gone wrong for me.

I'm so alone.

Colouring I'm going to write a longer update later, but just to say: is it possible your daughter could go to the class with you? I know it's not ideal, but my university actually says that children over five can come to classes in an emergency. It's happened a couple of times with some parents on my course and it's definitely never been a problem. Could you ring and ask?

Just returned from doctors. Wants me to return to work on Monday - scary! Also meds seem to be working every day better than day before. Mentioned about the sleep disturbances so have been told to take the tablet in a morning and see if that helps so I'm not waking up in middle of night.

Asked about kalms and they are fine to take with citalopram and propanaolol so gonna take one tonight and hope I sleep a little better.

Glad to see everyone making progress. This forum is brilliant for sharing our successes and failures and lovely to receive encouraging messages.

Colour what dose are you on now. I seem pretty calm on 20mg with the diazepam as emergencies. Doc said not to carry them around with me - who's he kidding lol!

I'm on it, it makes me sleepy so i suggest taking at night. I think it helps..

Thanks Mechanical I hadn't thought of that - have just emailed my tutor, fingers crossed.

Hi Looiloo yes this forum is great isn't it. I've been upped from 20 to 40mg fluoxetine (prozac), so am hoping that will have an impact as I haven't really noticed much improvement so far - occasional better days but still some v bad days... Really good to hear your meds are working well for you. I can imagine that the thought if returning to work is scary. Do you work full time? If so is there any options of a phased return (starting back part time)? This worked well for my DP when he went back after depression. All the best.

Mechanical my tutor said yes thanks so much x

YAY!

I would never have thought of asking either, but I go to a really small university with a lot of mature students and I think they are really trying to make it as family/woman friendly as possible.

Hi everyone,

ColouringIn I'm so pleased your art teacher was accommodating, what an inspired suggestion Mechanical! Aw, your poor DD, is she still in a cast? How are you feeling now you've gone up to 40? I have to say a bit of me felt sad when my GP suggested 30 and not 40 as I want everything to feel better now! She's calling me in 2 weeks to see how I'm doing so I'll let her know. She's been so great, like the big sister I always wanted (although she's younger!).

Mechanical hello, good to hear from you :) You still feeling good?

Hi Looiloo, best of luck going back to work. I can understand it must feel quite daunting. Do you feel prepared for it? Have to say my work (I work at home) has been great for me as it keeps my mind busy, but I know I don't have to make it into an office or wherever every day. Agree with Colouring (I keep saying that!) that a staged-return would be the best option, do you think they might be flexible?

Felt much better as the day went on. Mornings or late evenings seem to be the worst.

Onwards and upwards everyone. Take care of yourselves, and thanks for the support today xx

Hi all,

Well after a day of feeling good, the worst thing possible happened. Split with my boyfriend. It's been a long time coming, but I don't know what to do with myself now. I feel like my life is over.

I know it's for the best. He always let me down, could never give me enough...but I just feel so alone. I've no-one else really.

I'm sorry for being rubbish at supporting others, I feel so self-centred atm.

I am sorry to hear that MT. Don't worry, I very much doubt anyone thinks you are self centred :) A big change like an end of a relationship is always tough but you will get through it. Remember, you do have us to lean on x

Hi Mechanical I'm so sorry to hear about your split. That's so hard and sad. Don't even think about trying to support others, you take care of yourself today, tomorrow and the day after. It's good you know its for the best, but even with that its like a bereavement, and you have to go through it, but you will come out the other side. Like Samu says keep posting here, we're here for you just like you were here for me today. My DD is so excited about coming to college with me tomorrow. Take care x

Thank you both.

It's times like this I really wish I was close to my family. I need a huge. :(

Or even a hug.

{{{{{hugs}}}}}}

Oh that's rubbish, Mechanical :(. Sorry to hear that.

Look after yourself. ((((hugs))))

Thanks.

Hey, wow so many new posters on here!
Have been doing ok, but have waded into a family argument (this time my own family instead of DH's).. and feeling very very crappy now. Please can i get some love here.

Sends {{{{hugs}}}} to you Mechanical. I'm so sorry Mechanical :( The end of a relationship is so hard, it is a bit like grief. And you're not self-centered, (silly :)) you're going through a hard time, so post what you like when you like and we'll be your virtual shoulders xxx

Cremeegg and Samu how are you both doing?

ColouringIn I bet your DD is excited! My mum owned a toy shop when I was little (how charmed is that for a young person!?) and I used to go with her to the trade shows. Was like Christmas the night before. My overwhelming memory is the whole event smelling like rubbers (of the eraser variety). Hope you have a great class with her.

Nanabana {{{hugs}}} for you too. Sorry to hear about the family drama. I'm stuck in one too, have been for years. And boy does it bring you down. I'm trying desperately to learn how to detach from it all and not let it affect and damage me, but it's difficult, often impossible. Is that something you could try to do to protect yourself?

Everyone look after yourselves today, we sound like we all need lots of TLC so lets give it to ourselves (sorry, that sounds very cheesy!)

Feeling very cheerful this morning though that could be due to another lie in provided by dp have appetite back today which is good or bad depending on which way you look at it.
I am still worried about the long journey down thats at the end of the month I have to see doc in two weeks do you think they could give me something like 2 diazepam just to cover it one to take at home see how it effects me and one for the actual journey I wont need any more. Is that even possible do you think. Of course it could work out that in three weeks these will be in my system and I wont need anything else. Tbh though am already thinking i could probably do with a higher dose and am resisting the urge to phone up earlier.
Mechanical that is truly shit for you but if he can't support you when you are at your lowest then he is not worthy of you full stop {{{{hugs}}}}
nana Sorry about the family argument I hope you can get a resolution or the ability to not give a shit about it soon

looiloo79 ty for finding out about the Kalms will be useful
a1980 please keep posting and try to get to your docs