Driving away

[Pumble]

I don't know where to post this and don't know what to do. I'm sitting here crying again with my 5 week old dd2 and just know that the best thing I could do for both of my girls is to get in the car and drive. If dd2 ever goes to sleep that is what I must do. I won't be leaving them alone and it will break my heart but it's what will be best for them. They deserve so much better than the useless failure of a mother they have.

I don't know why I'm posting this. I guess to feel less alone

Pants indeed! I did something similar with DD this evening.

You are probably worrying about Mr P going, which is completely reasonable. But you'll be fine. Honestly.

Sorry that took me ages to write - I'm glad she's down now. Sleep tight.

Sorry you've had a hard night, hope she's settled for the duration and you get some rest.

You don't have to be in 'coping mode' you know, you jut need to be honest and open about how you're feeling. Coping = bottling it all up so everything gets worse and worse until you either collapse or explode.

You will manage while Mr P's away, but please keep posting when you're having a hard time, whinging helps!
I always found that explaining what I felt shit about helped me understand it better, and so I started to feel better.
You never need worry about what we might think of you, you have total freedom to vent here.

Any leftover Easter chocolate in the house? Methinks it'll go very nicely with a cup of tea in the morning! xx

Just keep breathing! As long as they're both alive and fed when we get to bedtime all is ok isn't it?!

Everyone keeps telling me ill be fine when mr pumble's away as I'm that sort of person and cope so well with everything etc and how I'll fill the days so much that the pumbletts (incidentally I've been thinking I might put them in a band called that!) won't really notice anything's different. And how they are around if I need them but I clearly won't as I'm so good at coping. I just want to turn around and scream/cry that I don't cope and it's all just a great act but don't want to let them all down by bursting that bubble.... Currently hiding out upstairs having a little weep whilst mr pumble does tea before bedtime chaos begins!!!

You were up late last night tiddly - hope all is ok.

It isn't a lot of fun 'coping' is it. Tiddly is right - tell people when you're fed up or feeling crap. I'm lousy at this so I know it isn't easy.

Could you go to your parents, a friend or a sisters house for a bit while Mr P is away. It might help break up the time.

All ok thanks Pumble! Was just up packing as I'm visiting my sis for a few days - had a bit of a mammoth trek today thru tube and train with DS in the sling and a mahoosive suitcase...
DS woke at 5am so I hadn't had much sleep, plus I do have have two perforated eardrums... :)

Am now sat in my sister's kitchen with a very unseasonal glass of Pimm's. Aaaahhhh....

Keep us posted please, no need to keep up appearances here! xxx

Glad all ok tiddly (except ear drums obviously-ouch).

So mr pumble has gone and now it's just me and the pumbletts. Should try to get some more sleep before they wAke I guess. Every rustle they make I think is them waking early! Please don't wake early pumbletts!

Good luck for today, hope they sleep in a bit! x

Love the band idea - but it should be Pumblettes {grin]

When my DH used to go away I actually felt a bit better once he had gone - the build up was almost worse.

Can you go away to your Mum's for a few days?

Hope all is going well

(((x)))

Well-the heating has been on the blink again so currently freezing but getting a little warmer, the pumbletts aren't entirely settled but are at least in bed and we are all still alive and went to bed sort of happy (although pumblett1 was crying for her daddy-she's a real daddy's girl) so I guess we did ok.

It sounds silly but I didn't realise how much I would miss mr pumble. I knew I'd miss him and miss the extra pair of hands but didn't realise how much I would actually just miss him if that
makes sense? (Probably doesn't!)

Trying to arrange to spend some time with my parents but a challenge as they are trying to help my granny who has recently been diagnosed with heart failure and who lives seven hours from them!

Stood on a mirror and cracked it as I took the girls to bed-don't need the bad luck!

It's so good to be able to 'talk' on here - thanks

Mirror bad luck is just a load of old peoples tales shite.

Don't believe in superstition - really don't.

So very sorry to hear about granny - & the missing of Mr P.

Just wish I was nearer & could pop in to give you a hand.

All I can do is give you a (((x)) and say that I will be here tomorrow.

Poor pumblett 1 woke at 6:45 (v early for her) screaming for mr pumble and absolutely distraught. She kept pointing to the sky and doing her aeroplane impression too. It was heart breaking and v hard to comfort her. I really hope this isn't the way of things to come as I hate to think of her being that upset.

Pumblett 2 won't stop screaming and pumblett 1 won't stop crying for her daddy. I want to climb into a cupboard and shut the door.

Pumble that sounds horrible. How are you?

I hope your day improves. If not putting the kids somewhere safe and shutting yourself somewhere for a minute actually isn't a bad idea!

My oldest also really misses her dad when he is away. Has he been primed to bring her a gift back and is she able to chat with him on the phone at all? It's v shallow I know but my dd can be perked up by chatting about whether dad has had a chance to go shopping yet to buy her something. And talking about how many 'sleeps' until he comes home to keep reassuring that he will be back.

It's not easy but I'm sure you'll get through it, good luck.

We went for a walk to the post office and pumblett 1 chose some mushrooms to have on the walk home (she's a strange child!!) so all quiet for now! I think the fresh air did us all some good.

Pumblett 1 doesn't quite understand the concept of shopping yet but she did get to 'talk' to me pumble yesterday afternoon ( I say talk-given how few words she has calling it talking may be an exaggeration!).

Off out this afternoon which will hopefully amuse us all and give me the chance to talk to an adult!

Mushrooms? Very healthy :)

I hope the rest of the day gets better and you get to talk with some grown ups x

Mushrroms!! Does she eat them raw? Very advanced tastes.

Glad you got out & pleased to hear you'll have some adult company later.

Yes-raw mushrooms!! Bonkers girl! But then she also eats raw onion and sucks on lemons so....!! I

Grrrrrrrrrrr

Solo bedtimes

Am hoping that solo you have done it.

Now go & have a & watch some crap TV.

(((x)))

Pumblett 2 just woken screaming and beside herself. Oh joys.

I hate solo bedtimes too! Hope it settles down soon.

Feeling utterly useless I can't settle pumblett 2