Really struggling with motherhood

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Hi all.
I hope someone can offer some friendly advice. I'm feeling quite fragile to say the least.
I was on citalopram before I fell pregnant, but I was taken off it by the GP because of my pregnancy. Now I'm a mother and things just seem to be getting harder. I thought as your baby gets older its supposed to get easier?? My little girl is 3 months old and things just seem to be getting worse.
I've got no support as my OH is rubbish and says everything is my fault/problem so I need to deal with it (meaning looking after our baby) I'm with her 7 days a week on my own pretty much and I just don't know how much more I can cope with. I feel so lonely and isolated.
I feel scared to go back to the GP again as I feel like I have failed as a mum. Parents are supposed to be strong and great role models - neither of which I feel.
I just need to know that im not alone in feeling this way. I just think my little one is better off without me :-(

Glad things are going ok. It will be interesting to see if your dh will be willing to take meds himself.

Just an update....

OH seems to be helping a little bit more. I proper lost the plot today, just one of those really difficult days with dd. OH came in from work and found dd lying on her play mat crying and me sat next to her crying. He picked her up straight away and took her out in the garden to stop her crying. He also bathed her and got her ready for bed.

Last night I told him I'd be doing the washing up with my earphones in so i could listen to music so if dd was to wake up and cry he'd need to come and nudge me. After us finished dancing in the kitchen I asked him if she'd cried expecting him to say no, he replied saying yes. I was instantly all "what?! Why didn't you come and get me?" and he said "it's ok I went and settled her back down"

I'm starting to feel a little bad now....

Don't feel bad! You told him something was wrong, he has listened and responded accordingly - that's the basis of a good relationship! Really glad things are going better.

So I had my gp appt today and they have put me back on citalopram. Im feeling much more positive now