Just tried Moodscope...

[luckywinner]

Has anyone tried it? I heard about it on Woman's Hour last week. I am having a low today, which I am finding difficult after a huge succession of good days. I just had a go and think it might be helpful. Just wondered if anyone else had tried it.

NN - that sounds like a very similar system to the oneI use in my diary which I find very useful. i think the thing I found reassuring about Moodscope is that it was set up by someone who is living wth depression and I quite like that shared sense of feeling that I'm not the only one. But can understand why its not right for everyone.

Ps. Glad you have been having good days :-)

I think a lot depends on the kind of day you've had - I had a good day at work today followed by a meeting of my parent support group - and as a result have ended up with my best score so far, 10% better than yesterday, when my mood wasn't hugely different. its just that today has given me more opportunities to feel proud, excited, interested, attentive etc. But I guess what its showing me is that my life has an impact on my mental health - its not just me and my mind! And thats very helpful.

I have had a shocking score this morning. An all time low of 14%. Oh crap. I am having a difficult week this week. Today I want to run away. I thought this moodscope was helping my dh but today he is off to the rugby with his friend and leaving me with children plus wife of friend and her baby. I can barely cope with children, let alone entertaining others. I thought this chart would appeal to his ordered mind, he likes numbers and graphs. But nothing gets through his thick skin. Can you tell I am angry with him?

Sorry to all who feel its not for them. I started it when I was in quite a good place, and this week I have had very low scores. I think it will help seeing that I can be in a place better than 14%.

I agree that the cards do take some getting used to though.

Off to buy an extendable washing line.

I had a low score today but seeing as not good things happened last night that is not surprising. I find that my morning mood is more indicative of how I am in general - I often get melancholic in the evenings so not so concerned about that.

Will keep at it for a while.

luckywinner, I LOVE that you ended all that with "off to buy an extendable washing line" The show must go on!!!!

I get the husband thing. What you need him to do is take over, make stew, take kids to the park, tidy up, insist you sit down with a cuppa for a long time..........people who haven't felt the horror of depression just don't seem to be able to imagine it. Sorry he's off to rugby. I agree, entertaining is the last thing you will want to do. Is the wife of his friend quite good company?

I am loving Moodscope. I have shitty scores (lowest of 12%, they linger there and once a 40%). And I do love Jon's emails........ its quite comforting when you are hiding from the world, feeling terrible and he gives me a different angle on it. I am not in a good place, I know that, but I also really like how it makes me think about my score and its very interesting to read what was going on for me the day I got my bigger score. It was a day I told ONE person about my mood, the truth, that it was eating me up. I can see that that one step (horrible as it was) resulted in a great score.

I want to run away this week too. Can't imagine either of us will. But, FWIW, if you do jump ship to a tropical island......do shout me. I won't need to speak or discuss anything, it'll just be nice to pretend to be Thelma and Louise

Just tried in and got 7% but then I am having an unbelievably shitty day.

frumpygrumpy your post made me cry as that is indeed what I want dp to be doing and instead he has fecked off camping with a mate, despite knowing I am really not coping.

WTWTW, you sound like you need a huge (((hug))). I joined this thread and moodscape on Thursday and got 7% too. I'd had a massive arguement with DH the previous few days and felt completelt unsupported and unloved. So I know how your DP going off camping will make you feel.
I'm slowly picking up, upto 25% today which feels quite a bit better.
Will be interesting to track this for a while as I'm pretty sure I have a massive drop every 3-4 due to hormones, I pick arguements with DH and generally feel like the whole world is against me, with massive paranoia about the state of my marriage amongst other things.

Thank you fiveisanawfullybignumber is appreciated. I am glad your scores have improved somewhat.

I have just realized my period is due so I am probably pretty hormonal. I was also up all night with a vomiting dd so am very tired, also terrified I will catch the bug too (am emetophobe) and can't decide whether the pain in my belly is period or illness.

It all adds up somedays doesn't it?

Yup, I started the day after my 7% score, but had been baiting my husband over stuff I can normally deal with, so ended up in a massive arguementthe night before and turned up on my friends doorstep in tears. It's just at certain times I flip and go mad at him, it's like it all builds up and I release it over a couple of days. I have some valid points but not well put at all!! I also wonder if do get paranoia at these times as well though.
I rang his work and swore blind one of the girls who works with him was being funny with me, but he was just about to leave and said he'd call me back, he said she wasn't out of order at all. I hate feeling like this, it takes over every aspect of our lives at times.

Hope your DD is feeling better and you stay well. I seem to be able to avoid DD's vomiting episodes quite well.

Hi fellow moodscopers, has anyone done their score this morning? I can't bear to do mine yet, for fear it is even crapper than yesterday. I am sorry I didn't come back yesterday. Did what I could to get through the day. However, the thought of all those people coming was so much worse than it actually panned out. Dh made lasagne for us so I didn't have to cook. He's just taken the children swimming so I have a bit of space. And I put up the retractable washing line, using a big fat power drill! I was so proud of myself. FrumpyGrumpy that image of a dancing stage girl made me . You just can't get away with collapsing into a heap can you?

WTWTW I also had a little sob at FG's post. That is all I want dh to do. I wanted him to use his effing brain yesterday, take one look at me and cancel the rugby, cancel the friends, scoop me up and put me in bed with dvds and chocolate and say, 'don't worry, I'm in charge'. I really don't think there is a night in shining armour that exists, anywhere, on this planet.

FIAABN How are you feeling? 7% sucks. How long have you been doing it?

I know this is not considered mumsnet etiquette but I can't help myself by putting xxx to all. I feel like we need them. It makes me so sad to hear how we are all suffering. another x for luck.

Hi LW, did mine this morning, down to 20%, so not as bad as it has been, but feeling very anxious about things. Even though he doesn't have the time to or hardly ever goes anywhere I'm completely paranoid that DH is upto no good. I try to controll these feelings most of the time but occasionally let rip, then we have massive rows. My revious partner, cheated on me constantly and made me feel like I was imagining things when I got suspicious. DH and I have been together for years without any problems, but he's recently began acting differently. I know in my heart of hearts he's not doing anything apart from a probable midlife crisis, but I feel like I'm trapped in that bad cheating relationship again. Screwed up in the head I'm feeling, it's like mental torment.

I have just joined, thought I was a bit silly to join when i have been feeling good for at least a week - I scored 31 ! So what does it feel like to score 100? I have a feeling I have been very low in the past if 31 feels good

Did mine just now - am up to 40% today. Had v good sleep and children woke late which helps.

I know my mood is connected to H having left 6 weeks ago. Think up and down is likely for a while :( I have had long term bouts of depression so am quite pleased I am "ok" at the moment. Cbt in 2008 was v good.

I've joined and have done it for 4 days so far after hearing bout iron the radio. I've gone something like 40-34-12-82 ending today, as I finally got a significant amount of unbroken sleep. When I am up I can be very up, so I'm not surprisedby the high score.

I do suffer depression but haven't had a bout in yonks.

Good morning all, have done mine and got 30 which is a relief after yesterday.

Cannot stop fuming at dp though, he keeps phoning to see if I am alright and I don't even want to talk to him, I can't remember being this mad in ages, I feel so let down.

Hi girls, luckywinner, let's not give a flying fuckaroonie to MN etiquette about kissing . Hell, we are S U F F E R I N G and we are not to be messed with !!!!!!!!! He cooked lasagne. kiss him passionately and thank him. He may have buggered off to the rugby and gone anyway even though you needed him but, credit where credit is due. And it really must feel difficult to understand how we feel when sometimes, we don't understand how we feel or why. I didn't realise I sometimes feel scared, until it came up as a Moodscope question. Didn't realise I am sometimes scared of how I feel and that it might not go away. In itself that helped. Brings acceptance I suppose. And validation.

I am up down, up down. I really do like that moodscope is showing me what's happening to aid to an up, and to aid to a down.

Keep going easy on ourselves xxx.

Hi girls,
I wouldn't worry about getting 100%, that wouldn't be a good thing. It's also testing for mania, and over confidence as well as us downers. Don't worry too much.xxx

I think that it works out what your personal average % is so not everyone will get 100%. some days will be higher and some lower.

Got to say i am impressed at you all carrying on!

Can I just say, you have all made my day as never in my mumsnet history have I had so many replies to a thread and also made so many pals during one of the shittest times of my life. Mwah Mwah Mwah back at ya.

Yes the boy done good with the lasagne, and then he sent me off to westfield today, so he gets gold stars today. I think like you say FG, that they genuinely don't understand, and it is so true, I had no clue yesterday why I felt so shit. I had had a week of 50%s, so god knows where it came from.

I agree that moodscope just makes me think about how I am feeling, and maybe why, and also makes me accept how I am feeling and that in itself makes me feel less anxious.

To give you all a bit of hope, I was suicidal in November. I was ready to go, felt like I was poisoning my children by my very prescence, and my husband was better off without me. Now I feel like I am in recovery, that that was a very dark place I had to go to to be able to come back, and it is happening very very slowly. I have had help from a psychiatrist and a psychotherapist. I have had my mum and mother in law take it in turns to babysit me. Between November and January I didn't have a day when I was by myself. I suppose what I am saying is, when I have shit days like yesterday, I need to be reminded how far I have come, and how I am working so hard to never go back to where I was, and moodscope really helps that. I had a 25% score today. Even moodscope told me I was a good girl creeping up the chart!
xxx

Thanks for sharing lucky. Having a brightish day here too, started the day with a bit of a lie in and a cuddle in bed, always makes me happier. Got 28%, my best ever so far, let's hope it lasts.
(((HUGS))) to you all today.x

I got 35% today, up from 20% yesterday wish it could stay 35% all the time, thats 14 days ive been doing it now, all time low 5%

19 today, not too bad considering. Two men tried to break into the house in the night, I was on my own with dc's and still feel really shakey. It was horrible.

Hope everyone else is doing okay.

thats awfull WTWTA, did the police get them ? 19 is a good score after that happening, i would have been a nervous wreck, im not surprised you are still feeling shakey.