On my own with non talking toddler all day. Not a soul to talk too with only washing to catch up with.
Mum says you just have to get on with it like we all do. There is only so many times I can go to the park with him or go around the shops. The summer holidays have been hell and I have been very short tempered with folk at times and everything seems petty and stupid too.
And then I feel bad and then I hate who I am.
Got PMT too which is getting worse and worse every month and I get into mini tantrums and I cry and am so alone and I wish for something else. My OH is self employed and he is never home at the moment.
He got in at 9 last night and was up at 5 this am. Yes it is Saturday, that makes no difference.
He has been like this the last month and he is so stressed and this contract is a biggy - very important that it is succesful.
Also we are living at mum in laws at the moment as our house is upside down and meant to be having a new kitchen fitted, but he want to be doing it. he don't trust anyone else to do it. He used to fit kitchen before having his own manufacturing business.
Stll waiting for B and Q to deliver our oven - that's a whole different thread though. Buggers.
So we can't get on with kitchen anyhow leave alone having the time to do it.
I don't know why I'm rambling on and talking about myself again. I doub't if anyone is reading this. They are spending time with their families and enjoying the weather. Sorry but it;s the way that I feel.
And if I'm attention seeking well actually I don't care if I am. I'm unhappy and not liking my attitude either and this selfishness but I would love to snap out of it.