3 days ago my husband admitted he wasn’t working on our relationship anymore. A year ago he told me he didn’t know why but he wasn’t in love with me anymore but wished he could be. We’ve tried for a year (well he says he has). We’ve had counselling. I said I can’t carry on without hope so it’s over.
I’ve asked if there’s anything we can do to stop this happening but he’s said no. Married for nearly 6 years, together for 15 and a 1 and 4 year old. We’ve told our families now so it is real.
I just don’t know how to survive. Im completely broken. We had the perfect life on paper, all we ever wanted. But it’s not enough for him. We had a difficult few years conceiving our 2nd and 2 miscarriages but we got there. I’ve asked him to move out as I can’t bear seeing him every day knowing I can’t be with him. He won’t go until we’ve looked at all our options re the house and decided should we sell or who should move.
I’ve stopped talking to him unless it’s about the kids or our situation. I’m completely broken and struggling to eat and sleep. All I want is to be loved and feel wanted. This is not the life I want. I just don’t know what to do, life was so much easier when I was living in denial.
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I need help…completely broken…separating from husband
Broken12 · 11/04/2024 07:06
Menopants · 11/04/2024 07:33
Believe me a couple of years down the line you will be so much happier. It’s a tough shift getting through the separation and divorce especially with small children. I would insist he leaves. Can he stay with his parents?
airforsharon · 11/04/2024 07:50
Sending love. I'm in the early stages of divorce, after over 20 years of marriage and being told out of the blue 'd'h wanted "more". He admits we had a really good relationship - and several dcs - but it wasn't enough. Turns out he'd been OLD for a year, and has been seeing someone else for 6 months. I feel like a complete fool, had no idea.
Have gone from feeling destroyed and barely able to function to "how fucking dare you!" fury and strength. As a PP said, it's not linear. It's brutal, but you will survive.
He really should, as the one instigating this, give you space & respect and move out, to family or a rental place. My soon to be ex did, and it helped hugely.
Also see a solicitor. He may go down the 'no need to involve legals, we can sort it out ourselves' route, but when you've been blindsided i think it's important not to take anything he says/wants at face value. Get proper advice & ensure you and dcs are protected. It's not about 'stitching him up', but ensuring absolute fairness.
Rania78 · 11/04/2024 08:03
He “realised he wants to be single”? Really? After two kids?
So, 1. Insist on him leaving the house. And continue paying the mortgage. He owes it to his kids 2. Ensure you have 50-50 custody. He is not going to get away leaving the “single life” while you raise two very young children 3. Focus on you and f@ck him. The dork has definitely someone else lined up. Don’t make it easy for him.
Broken12 · 11/04/2024 08:22
He won’t leave. At first he said he’ll do whatever I want but is now refusing. Saying it’s not fair if he ends up in some gritty flat. He should have thought about that first! He’s puts over a grand a month into a private pension as we planned to retire at 50 so I’ve told him he’ll have to stop that but apparently that’s not fair 🤦🏻♀️ I don’t know who he is anymore
Rania78 · 11/04/2024 08:03
He “realised he wants to be single”? Really? After two kids?
So, 1. Insist on him leaving the house. And continue paying the mortgage. He owes it to his kids 2. Ensure you have 50-50 custody. He is not going to get away leaving the “single life” while you raise two very young children 3. Focus on you and f@ck him. The dork has definitely someone else lined up. Don’t make it easy for him.
Elektra1 · 11/04/2024 08:28
You're in the "shock and awe" phase. It's devastating, I'm so sorry. I was in the same position a year ago, except in mine it was an affair and STBX moved out and in with the affair partner (who was also married with kids) immediately. Then they introduced all the kids to this situation within weeks. I couldn't eat, lost 3 stone, made a mess of my work, and generally fell apart.
You will be angry, so, so sad, desperate for him to change his mind. He may become horrible, cold and hard towards you. His family may go cold on you. Whatever happens, just accept that your feelings are normal and you have to ride this wave. It does get better.
Nearly a year on, I am almost divorced and sometimes I can look at STBX and feel not much at all. Other nights I still have a little cry. It's a form of bereavement, of grief. It doesn't go away but you learn to live with it and gradually you will start to see the shape of a new life emerging.
It's not your job to make someone love you, so let him go, and focus on yourself and your little ones. I have found therapy really helpful. I also have a great solicitor whose details I'm happy to share if you'd like to DM me.
Be very gentle with yourself, as you would with a friend in this situation.
Rania78 · 11/04/2024 08:03
He “realised he wants to be single”? Really? After two kids?
So, 1. Insist on him leaving the house. And continue paying the mortgage. He owes it to his kids 2. Ensure you have 50-50 custody. He is not going to get away leaving the “single life” while you raise two very young children 3. Focus on you and f@ck him. The dork has definitely someone else lined up. Don’t make it easy for him.
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