meadow massive congratulations!!!! So so happy for you xx bf is tough. I hope you are able to get it though. But don’t beat yourself up if you decide to stop (for whatever reason and whenever you do).
I absolutely agree with cag it’s ok not to be ok with how the birth went. Yes the important thing is both you and dd are ok. But try and get someone to speak to you about the birth. Our midwife team here do a “debrief” the next day if there’s any intervention required. I didnt know this happened but am so glad it did.
With ds he got the cord wrapped around and they had to intervene. I hadn’t had any drugs (and by the intervention point it was too late) and sorry for the tmi, they had to make a cut and use the ventouse to get him out. I lost about 1200ml blood apparently. I remember feeling a bit anxious about what was going on but the team were so good explaining everything to me and even when I kept saying I was scared they were so kind. And reassuring. They debriefed me the next day when we’d had some sleep etc.
Ds seems to be ok now after his sicky episode. We’re planning on sending him to Nursery tomorrow as we’re pretty sure it’s not a bug. He hasn’t been sick since and has eaten etc and no other symptoms. Keeping an eye on him overnight though.
I felt so anxious during the whole thing. Dh had to shout at me to do things. I’m not good with sick. I panic. And flap. And I wanted to run away from poor ds. But I did what I had to do.
Catface is now here in bed with me kneading my arm. She needs her claws clipped...im getting le scratched.
Charity bake sale tomorrow for work. Tonight I’ve collected brownies from Dm, have made cheese and ham muffins and threw together a Victoria sandwich cake. Money is bein g raised for our “its a knockout” team to raise money for the special care baby unit.