In other news, another spendy day - £99 on a private ultrasound scan. I found out a couple of weeks ago that I am pregnant. I didn't want to mention it to anyone (even anonymously!) until I got to a viability scan as I had a miscarriage earlier in the year so felt very wobbly about it. Saw the heartbeat today so all good. And only one [relieved!]. I don't seem to conceive at all easily and am rather old now so I felt as though time was running out! We had looked into IVF but couldn't afford to do it and for me to take time out of work for DS, so had made the decision that we weren't going down that route and would just have to leave it to fate.
There's still a long way to go but after today, for the first time, I am allowing myself a glimmer of optimism and to look forward a bit.
However, this has thrown up a whole load of new financial dimensions - we had been trying for a while and I was hoping it would work out that I could take mat leave with pay and be home for DS too. But in the end I just had to take a decision for DS and leave my job, rather than hang on for something that might not happen. So now no mat pay, a somewhat prolonged period off work and additional costs. Phew!
Not off to a flying start either - I bought a ready meal deal for dinner tonight. I am just shattered and can't face cooking. I have been knackered anyway and now have DH's cold, without the benefit of being able to take the good drugs! Still, a good day 