That tankini arrrived and it is going back!! The so-called underwired bra bit is nothing like and the cups are a weird shape ( or it could be my boobs) Anyway it makes me look worse than the old bikini (sigh) so am just going to wear the old one an am resigned to being a fat lump on beach 
However actually i think tankinis are the absolute work of the devil..
Spendy again ( although some is my holiday clothes money ive saved up especially)
Nice cream 'gypsy' top with lovely crochet yoke from Tkmaxx £19.99 and a cream cami from peacocks £3 to go under it ( will look good with my navy hareems i think )
£2.27 in Co-op on lunch
4.33 in Holland and Barrat on 2 big boxes of my favourite green tea with lemongrass for work ( buy one get one half price).. those will last me a good while
then.... £15.25 in Sainsburys on fags and wine (yes i know i shouldnt , but a bit down about the swimsuit thing .. it wont help I know
So podgy 57 year olds on the beach? Is a burkini the answer? Actually I know European women (esp Greeks and Germans ) dont seem to care so why do i so much ?
Ill be ok when i get there ..I often get a bit depressed before a holiday , Does anyone else?