Looks like today is the day…

[VaccineAnxiety]

I don’t think this will end well for me. I just need a place to scream which I can’t do at home..

I hide my anxiety from my daughter but I know not for long - when j don’t feel ok I say I have a migraine which I do get and hide myself

I am fifty seven with high blood pressure (and health anxiety) - I offer a hand hold.

Aside from a fluish/coldish thing for a few days (no cough) I was fine.

The staff were lovely

I took a local taxi, got a patient driver, told him I was nervous, it was a really good thing to do as they have health trips all the time.

Be brave it is worth it.

You really don't have to get this done. Just accept that you might not be able to travel for a while. Travel is not a right nor is entry to certain businesses. They are allowed to set their own parameters.

You don’t have to get the vaccine, but whatever you do about that please please get help for your anxiety.

Right now you have a very very low risk of either the vaccine or covid seriously harming you. Your anxiety on the other hand is definitely causing you harm.

@VaccineAnxiety my mum has severe anxiety that she refuses to acknowledge because she doesn't want to be 'marred with mental health issues'. Admittedly it has gotten a lot worse as she approaches menopause. She thinks she hides it from me but it has actually meant that we have very little relationship, she panics about everything, wants to know the intimate details of every situation so she can control it even though it doesn't affect her. Can't drive more than 5 miles from her house, can't buy different brands than she always buys or visit a different supermarket. Cant take public transport. Can't go out to any cafe without my dad. Your daughter knows how anxious you are and I would really advise you seek support to get it managed better. This is not a normal level of unsure prior to the vaccine..this is a severe reaction caused by anxiety.

I’m not having it because I’m in such a state about it, similar to you. I’ll be getting Pfizer as I’m 32. I can’t take anxiety medication or anti depressants, despite the fact they’d probably help me. It takes me hours, sometimes an entire day to work up the courage to take antibiotics and I need to have someone in the room with me and afterwards, in case I have a reaction to them.
I wonder if I can get a medical exemption from the doctor for mental health reasons.

I've had 3 appointments I haven't been able to attend due to severe anxiety. I so relate to how you are feeling. The social pressure keeps me up at night and I'm now turning down all social invitations because I'm so anxious about people judging me for not having had it, or no longer wanting to be my friend. I have upped my anxiety medication and starting seeing a therapist next week. I feel completely caught in a trap and most days just want to die.

I don't think a lot of the 'antivaxxers are selfish idiots' brigade have any idea of how much the last 18 months have affected some people, particularly people like me who already had anxiety.

Sending so much love to you OP. I'd be really interested to see an update if you do have it, and see if having made the decision relieves you of some anxiety.

You need help for your anxiety ASAP.

You categorically will not die in your sleep. You'll wake up, like everyone else who has had the vaccine has.

The vaccine and even covid won't have as much as of a harmful impact on you as your anxiety does. You need counselling ASAP.

Hi OP I don't know if you have anxiety to this extent in other parts of your life but I know exactly how you're feeling today. I have been there myself giving instructions to DP and writing letters to be given to my DS for when I didn't wake up from an operation. But I did wake up and I'm not going to tell you you'll be ok too because I know that's not helpful but the relief when I was the other side of it was like no feeling I've ever had before. So if you feel like you can hold your head up and face it I wish you luck.

I cannot take it out if my body- like throwing up etc.

You do know that the vaccine doesn't hang about in your body forever?

Got taken to the centre- I didn’t want to go in

Was shouted by husband saying I’m a conspiracy theorist and how I’ll die

Also was told I’m contributing to mutations

And not to count on him to help if I get it and lay there dying

I told him I’ll seek help if I need to I was told I will be not able to breath and not able to phone for help if having Covid- and was called pig headed

We are back home- I didn’t get it, he is angry

I’ll not go out with him anymore- clearly I’m a risk so why risk it?

It sounds like you need to be posting on the relationships board about how to leave him safely.

I completely understand OP. I have health related ptsd from an operation I had without consent and I was a bit nervous about the vaccine but my proper fear is of getting covid, especially having to be in hospital so having the vaccine was ok for me. I do understand how scared you must be though.

@User24689 I understand- I don’t go out and I don’t want to either

People are very very selfish - just as they think I am for not taking the vaccine they are selfish to force me to take it it it’s not seen that way- it’s become us and them…

My husband is a classic case- he clearly said I want you take this vaccine because it’ll benefit me and if you don’t then I won’t help you- and he basically said the nhs won’t either..

I'm sure your husband is scared you will become ill from Covid - he wants you to have the vaccine because he cares about you.

I am sorry that the anxiety was too much today - but there are options to help you deal with it. It doesn't always have to be like this. Talk to your GP.

I'm sure your husband is scared you will become ill from Covid - he wants you to have the vaccine because he cares about you.

You are defending someone who is clearly a bully. Nobody has the right to say things like he’s done to another person they supposedly love.

We are not from this country so no support network here- our whole life is in living by the rules and be extremely risk averse - no stepping out of line

So me getting ill with Covid will create issues- which we haven’t planned for. I get that’s a unnecessary problem for him- but at the same time I’m not comfortable with this

Oh op!!! Anxiety is a bitch. You're describing me when I go on a plane. Convinced of death. Your dh is just giving you the tough love common sense approach. Sometimes I find it better to do these things alone, get in the zone.

@hellcatspangle I know it doesn’t last forever but I cannot take it out soon after either can I? It’ll be there for a while- if I can vomit it out or something then I’ll just have it to shut people down and force myself to throw up

@throttlebottom

I'm sure your husband is scared you will become ill from Covid - he wants you to have the vaccine because he cares about you.

I am sorry that the anxiety was too much today - but there are options to help you deal with it. It doesn't always have to be like this. Talk to your GP.

By shouting at OP and calling her a conspiracy theorist? Telling her that she will die, that if she gets Covid, he wont help her and neither will the NHS? Yeah, funny way of showing he cares. Like a pp said, OP perhaps should post on the Relationship board because this is way more than the vaccine.

OP - this level of anxiety is doing you harm and it is something you need to address. You can put off having the vaccine, or not have it at all. It should be 100% your choice.

@Carrott21

Oh op!!! Anxiety is a bitch. You're describing me when I go on a plane. Convinced of death. Your dh is just giving you the tough love common sense approach. Sometimes I find it better to do these things alone, get in the zone.

Stop defending his behaviour.

Cross posted. I'm sorry you weren't able to get your vaccine today. Please don't blame yourself, it's not your fault.

Oh goodness, this sounds extremely stressful for you, hope you're ok.

Was shouted by husband saying I’m a conspiracy theorist and how I’ll die

And not to count on him to help if I get it and lay there dying

I told him I’ll seek help if I need to I was told I will be not able to breath and not able to phone for help if having Covid- and was called pig headed

he clearly said I want you take this vaccine because it’ll benefit me and if you don’t then I won’t help you- and he basically said the nhs won’t either...

This is tough love? Really?

Op why do you stay with someone who treats you like this?

OP, I’m glad you didn’t have it, you have made your decision and stuck with it. Nobody should be forced for whatever reason.
Also FYI, we’re around the same age and I had symptomatic covid last winter. Was absolutely fine, felt like I had a hangover with a headache and general malaise for 3 days. No breathing problems and no lasting effects. Even if you catch the real thing you are unlikely to become seriously ill and even less likely to die and you will also gain natural immunity which looks to provide great protection against future infection, spreading to others and can handle variants.