Covid-19 Getting The Better of You Yet?

[DadAManger]

I am a fairly positive person usually. My approach to Covid so far has been to "get on" as there is "nothing else we can do" - which I know is still true, but WTF I am running on empty now.

I have worked from home throughout the pandemic - not furloughed. My work day is longer than ever - 12 hours is the new normal and you are constantly feeling on edge for what else you need to be doing. Between the increased work, the non-stop emails, the lockdown and home-schooling spurts, the zoom fatigue and the struggling to stay on top of your gam, it has been a hard hard slog.

Now it will continue longer. I was supposed to relocate to the Continent a year ago - this keeps being pushed back, especially now we are seen as the sick man of Europe again. I know my MH is not what is should be, but have not faced this before and don't know what to do on that front either.

I know many people will say I am "lucky" to keep my job and still be busy and to have avoided getting sick so far, but really - WTF - it is really a struggle at the moment. Is Covid getting the better of anyone else now or is this just me (and a few others I see crumbling)?

I am struggling inside. I cannot keep this up forever. I am just mentally and physically exhausted.

There seems to be no hope, no end.

On the outside I am fine and I am keeping up a pretence.

I am done. I sobbed this afternoon at the news the June date will be pushed back a month. When will this end? We'll get six weeks of "freedom" and then autumn will start and the lockdowns will start again.

I will no longer comply.

We haven’t changed much since things started relaxing and I’d rather action is taken given the rising case numbers to protect those not covered by vaccines. The more it’s left to spread the more chance of new variants.

I’ve gone OP.
I already went through the phase of desperately trying to do something normal to try and make myself feel better... y’know, I was actually interesting in TRYING to be happier.

I don’t even care anymore. I’m just drifting through each day and I feel numb. I just don’t care anymore.

I had my “enough now” moment about 6 months ago but not for the same reasons as you.
My head literally stopped dead and I couldn’t function.
Very dramatic but turns out it was burnout.
Knew it was something but had no idea it was that.
Made sense.

I’ve zoned out a bit is the four weeks thing definite?

I hate this. Covid has caused one disaster after another for my family and I'm so tired of it. It has impacted every aspect of our lives and ruined it. Jobs gone , separated from loved ones but we are expected to just keep on going . I just want my life back and now it seems vaccinations are not going to be the magic cure like it was promised.

I’m really struggling mostly with the affect on my DS and constant fear of having to self- isolate or get him tested and knock on affect on my career and no real end in sight for this for young children who won’t be vaccinated any time soon (and possibly shouldn’t be) and get constant colds and fevers. I’m really angry that it has become acceptable or even “moral” to subject young children to an invasive and uncomfortable medical test regularly and essentially put them under repeated house arrest and take away so many opportunities from them for an illness which is no real risk to them and then expect them to pay the bill probably over the course of their lifetime. I’m not generally an angry person but I am angry now on my DS’s behalf. And then there is the fear that now the precedent has been set lockdown will be the routine answer to all sorts of problems.

I also find that even where things are open covid rules suck a lot of the joy out or where things could theoretically open they don’t because of the hassle (particularly free and volunteer led stuff for children).

I’m never going to stop seeing my family again unless that’s what they want and so far as I can I am going to prioritise my DS over a hypothetical risk to a stranger (as clearly he and other children are bottom of the state’s priorities).

I have happier days and am trying to do everything we can do but announcements about things being delayed again and more restrictions really knock me.

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I’m never going to stop seeing my family again unless that’s what they want and so far as I can I am going to prioritise my DS over a hypothetical risk to a stranger"
A lot of people are going to feel this way I think, myself included probably. I'll be sensible but will resist attempts to put my life on hold.howecer of people don't comply they'll ramp up the fear

I am at the end of my tether - physically, mentally, emotionally. I carry on as I have no choice. If I didn't have small kids then I would conclude that this is no way to live and check out. Not possible, so it's one day at a time.

What I will say - I have little intention of complying. For the first time ever, I didn't wear a mask on the bus today.

From another thread

WhentheDealGoesDown1 Thu 10-Jun-21 16:29:16
After reading in the Mail that all Euro 2020 matches at Wembley will be given an exemption from lockdown rules because the FA was required to give UEFA a commitment that at least 22,500 fans will attend each of the eight games hosted in London I think I am past caring.

I feel like this is never going to end. As soon as things start to look up, the govt makes some kind of bad decision, like not closing the borders with India, that puts us all at risk again.
It's true that the joy has been sucked out of life.

@MercyBooth

From another thread

WhentheDealGoesDown1 Thu 10-Jun-21 16:29:16
After reading in the Mail that all Euro 2020 matches at Wembley will be given an exemption from lockdown rules because the FA was required to give UEFA a commitment that at least 22,500 fans will attend each of the eight games hosted in London I think I am past caring.

Exactly. And seeing pics of Bojo, Queen etc all mingling at close quarters in Cornwall... I'm not wearing a mask any longer.

@TooManyPlatesInMotion

I am at the end of my tether - physically, mentally, emotionally. I carry on as I have no choice. If I didn't have small kids then I would conclude that this is no way to live and check out. Not possible, so it's one day at a time.

What I will say - I have little intention of complying. For the first time ever, I didn't wear a mask on the bus today.

Yes, at this moment in time my kids are the reason I am still going.

I feel fine. For me, it's over. I'll wear a mask but I am no longer socially distancing from family and friends, not following the rule of 6 indoors. I won't comply with any restrictions if they are reintroduced.

I've resigned myself to not being allowed abroad for a while so I'll enjoy myself here.

I appear to have developed some kind of dissacosiative mental health condition. I feel like I'm in a dream almost all the time, particularly when I'm not at home. I think I got to the point where my fear of covid was so severe, something in my brain took over just so I could function. Almost got hit by a car last week though because I'd zoned out, so not great.

Yep I'm so beyond fed up now
Every time there's a light at the end of the tunnel it gets switched off again

I'm managing to keep myself going for the sake of the kids,but if I didn't have them,as another poster said,I'd have checked out I think.

All the things I love seem to have been taken away with so sign when they'll come back...festivals,concerts,being tight in a crowd watching live music,theatre, travel. I've just finished my healthcare degree which I started because I want to work with people. I've been offered a job and feel flat because most of it will be working from home,not with people. And when I do visit people,it will be with a mask,visor,gloves and an apron on. Despite being double vaccinated. Despite doing two tests a week....

Then there's the constant suspicion....the questioning everytime you attend training or work or go to visit someone...do you have covid symptoms? The masks,teaching kids to basically assume everyone is infected..no way to live.

I'm scared my 1 year old will grow up and masks,one way systems and tests will seem...normal to her

The thing that scares me and worries me the most is how conditioned we've all become in such a short space of time. That to question anything,is to be labelled anti Vax/mask/going to kill Granny. As I've said for a long time,it won't be covid that will kill the population,it will be humankind and their acceptance of the them and us stance the Government have put us through.

So to answer you question,if this is the future now,yes,covid has got the better of me.

Exactly. And seeing pics of Bojo, Queen etc all mingling at close quarters in Cornwall... I'm not wearing a mask any longer

They are laughing at us.

I went through very bleak periods when schools closed and therapy sessions for dd went online. However now feels almost normal. Yes I miss live music but at least I can now see family etc.

It doesnt affect me personally either. But watching a Tina Turner concert on TV last weekend reminded me of the amount of ppl who work on something like this. Sound ppl, lighting technicians , costumes, roadies etc......

Im also worried about them slamming things into reverse.

It all got the better of me a long time ago but seeing the bullshit going on at G7 reaffirms my position that for me, it’s over. Not complying ever again.

Yes. Total and utter burnout. Feel like a shell of the person I was 18 months ago, and I wasn’t exactly at the top of my game then!

for everyone else on this thread feeling the same way.

I have definitely felt a downturn in mood after seeing the upturn in new covid cases. I have had to start really managing my mental health quite closely, making sure I start start my day with some exercise which seems to keep me on an even keel. I really notice my mood deteriorate if I don’t run for a day or two. I don’t know what the answer is really. I’m an introvert by nature so if I’m feeling it I hate to think how badly it’s affecting some me of the more sociable.

Yes someone very very close to me died from covid he was just 35, I caught it from him, was in hospital for a good while so yes covid got the better of me and I'm having trouble coming to terms with it